Love is the difficult realization that something other than oneself is real.

ull be 31 this year, right?
and...ur point is?
31, thats a nice age;
yea, a very "old" nice age;
and why do u have to remind me about it?
no, i mean it, being 31 is nice;
gee thanks but still old;
i like you no matter what age you are;
you should know that by now;
gosh, im going to be 31 and i done nothing;
not true, u will be 31 and u have me.

坐在靠窗的位置；吸烟区； 整个咖啡馆我一个人; 抽着一根烟； 落地玻璃窗外倾盆大雨; “来很久了？”； “嗯”； 我从来都不迟到你是知道的； “下雨路上很塞车”； 所以我提早出门； “擦一擦吧，外套都湿了”； 拨弄着你湿了的头发； “昨晚才刚到吧？累吗？”； “不累”； 侍应生上着我们点了的啤酒和食物； 开始聊着； 谈起你的低音吉他； 你如何在改装它； 看着你被割伤的手指我心疼地拿起来吻着； “还痛吗？”； “没有，不疼了”； 然后你在告诉我更多你这一次出国的事；还有你即将要把你的头盔来个360度的全新设计；一切一切的全都是你最近所做的； 我看着你眼里闪烁着一股劲儿像个孩子一样； “你呢？还好吗？”； “我？好啊”； 通常我都将我的故事近况简短的说着； 筹备着换新工作、搬家等；你说到现在还不知道其实我的工作是什么；我不怪你；因为我根本没有对你说过我自己； 我都只是喜欢听你说； “真的不累吗？” 我不厌其烦地又问着； “想见你，不累， 真的不累”；而我想说的是： 你能原谅我的任性吗？可你知道我也只能在你面前撒娇让你看见我的脆弱啊？ 你能明白吗？ 你的所有话语、举止、所有你从来没有注意到过的这一切； 其实已经默默的让我发现自己更爱你了。

When you want to believe in something, you also have to believe in everything that's necessary for believing in it.

究竟已经经过了多长的时间；
竟然让我磨出了这一股能耐；
im not a forgiving person;
从来没有想象过自己是这样的一个人；
我记住别人对我的好；
更不能忘记别人对我的坏；
但对你总是有一种连自己也不能说服自己的宽容；
我原谅不了自己对你的纵容；
原来在不知不觉中；
我唯一放不下的是你。

i dont know what to call us and what to call this....when u finally figure out if this is something u really really want and what it is, pls let me know.

Part of being sane, is being a little bit crazy.

如今我却只能站在这里；
你就理所当然似地以为我会反驳；
你觉得有问题的时候从来不告诉我；
你这一种自以为是的沟通方式；
我没有觉得我有错；
你默不作声；
这一次我不要再是那个先发出声音的人。

已经被现实麻痹到没有想过要逃了。

It is only in adventure that some people succeed in knowing themselves - in finding themselves.

对着你不期然就产生了盼望； “可以写信给我啊”； “想对你说的我会说，不用写的”； 为什么就不能写一些有的没的； 有这么难吗？ 因为我知道其实说真的你也不会对我说些什么。

Getting there isn't half the fun - it's all the fun.

sick of being the first to make the move;
sick of saying sorry;
sick of thinking im the one who did something wrong;
sick of making a fool out of myself;
sick of many many silly things;
but i dunno why am i still not sick of you.

Maybe kissing is sort of like nature's coffee.

i secretly turn around and take a peek after i said goodbye;
you didnt notice;
there's one thing i couldnt figure out;
maybe it's the same thing thats been bugging you;
both of us dont have the guts to lay it all out;
will we do it if we dare each other to?
i doubt you will;
maybe i would;
u told me u missed everything just the same;
so did i and so did i;
is this a torture;
or is this just the way we rather be?

"is there no other way?"; "what other way?"; i can actually feel her annoyance; "hey listen, this isnt easy for me either, ok?"; "then why are we doing what we're doing? you know it doesnt help and we're not making any progress"; "then what do you want me to do?"; "i dont know, i thought you want this real bad, if not more, prove it to me"; you actually dont show me enough that you care, thats all; my determination is shaking; i come to realise that you are such a workaholic and you are not as persistent as i thought you would be; you havent even won me yet; you already begin to lose; you got a really slim chance to bounce back, really really slim chance.

Do something every day that you don't want to do; this is the golden rule for acquiring the habit of doing your duty without pain.

一则未听的来电; 一则未读的短讯； 前后相差9分钟； 好像无意间在重复着一种旋律； 你我都熟悉的旋律； “我收到另外的那两套片子”； “太好了”；“我想要在这个周末把这个片子剪起来，要来吗？”； “当然要，我有份儿录影呢！”；“所以才叫你一起来的”； “哦，就是说我能够参与意见咯”； “嗯”； “不能先剪一段让我看看吗？好想先看”； “不能，file太大”； “只一段，就只一小段”； “周末来了再说，k?”； 我总斗不过你还是我根本就让着你；总觉得你是被我宠坏的； 虽然可能其实你是想见我的；就算不是； 我还是开心的； 这个周末可以和你在一起； 就算很短； 我还是开心的； 开心的。

The secret of happiness is to make others believe they are the cause of it.

要介绍一个人给你认识，你说；
他没有来；
你开始唱歌，我拿着相机坐着；
抽着烟、音乐开始后我摇摆着将全程纪录了下来；
3次休息十分钟你都忙着招呼朋友；
你走下台来向我笑笑，喝着我的啤酒；
知道你会忙，我毫不在意地在抽着我的烟；
“那是你男朋友？husband?”，他过来向我说嗨；
“哦，不是，朋友，是我的朋友”， “噢”；
“你是摄影师？”， “不是，只是帮他录录影而已”， “噢”；
“我看见你一个人，想认识你”；
就这样话题打开了；
他很年轻但不是我的类型，但觉得做朋友无伤大雅，
light-heartedly chatting, finished a pack of cigarretes;
night went on, same as the previous night and the night before;
it went on and on and on and on......

"what do u think about the gig?"; "the guitar solo was a bit long"; "that we already know, what else?"; dont u know im the one that always hate to review things and give comment; "c'mon, just tell me what u think about it"; "honestly?"; "yea, honestly!"; "well, the show is a bit too dry and lose, if u ask me, there's no structure and the arrangement is not tight enough, too many gap in between and i was getting bored, if it wasn't a free show i will walk out from there half way"; "yea, i have the same feeling too"; "compare to the show last time, i like that way much better & the lead singer, coz that was a more solid and compact set"; then you went on explained to me that the situation without wanting to finger point anyone for mistake, so i guess from there u and the guys will know what to do next; "the place asked us to play again next month already"; "wow, really...let me know, i sure would love to record for u again, this time the whole set"; pity the memory card was full and i have to cut off some songs; well, i made good for my mistake last time though so that's a relief and i hope all the videos came out well, like u told me; i dont feel so bad now.

Every human is an artist. The dream of your life is to make beautiful art.

Transform - a Short Film for Photographers



ZACK ARIAS:
http://www.zackarias.com/#/client/template.xml?aaa=home

We are so accustomed to disguise ourselves to others that in the end we become disguised to ourselves

“我回来了”， 他说；
我希望我是第一个人。

No man is exempt from saying silly things; the mischief is to say them deliberately.

day seems a bit lighter;
as i breathing in;
missing you as i write.

The most important thing in life is to learn how to give out love, and to let it come in.

planning visit;
promise to see each other once a month;
hoping you will keep it;
guess you will not due to your busy schedule;
what else can i say?
about commitment, do you really care?
i want to make it happen;
you're the one that said you want this badly;
might not be as bad as i want;
im the one who end up putting in all the effort;
im wondering why and what is that suppose to mean;
that am i really into you;
or you just actually care for it less.

接到你的来电； 邀约我前往你这个星期五的演出； 是应该去的因为是时候弥补之前的过失了； 很高兴有这样的机会； 电话中你有一点不自然； “可以和朋友一起来噢”； 可能你不想我误以为这是一个对我特别的邀请； 但是我不想很任何人一起去看你，所以只会一个人来； 有一些事还是不让人知道的好； “我应该不能够在星期五之前抽到时间见见你”； 我有说过要见你吗？ “到时候我也应该不得空应酬你哦，我给你买两杯啤酒，ok?”； 我有说过要你应酬吗？ 你很习惯先把话说在前头； 没有错，是可能会比较好； 但真的有必要吗？ 是你多心了吧？ 因为我真的是没有什么所谓的， 你也不用太在意啦，好吗？

Trouble is part of your life, and if you don't share it, you don't give the person who loves you a chance to love you enough.

你没有给我写信；
你答应我了的；
你说你很忙；
我很失望；
你没有听出来；
你不是细心型的人；
我也没有特别期望些什么；
但人总不会没有时间吧；
你说你会这个星期写给我；
不用了，想唸你的信的心情已经冷却了；
你再写什么已经不重要了，我不想唸；
不想念！

"so, are you seeing anyone?"; "yes i am"; he answered without any hesitation, she was quite shock; "are you sleeping with her?"; and this time to his surprise that she was asking such question so directly; "i know you are, you dont have to say anything"; he wasn't even trying; she knows him well enough to guess it right by his brief silence; that makes him smile to have someone who understands him effortlessly; "is she any good? who is she? do i know her?"; he can so see all this coming; "maybe we should talk about all this some other time"; "are you happy? really really happy?"; she continued with question after question; "no, really, we dont have enough time for all this"; "there will never be a next time, i know it, you dont always want to talk about things like this with me, stop treating me like a kid, im curious, just tell me"; to me, you will always be my kid, you're mine; "well then, will you still sleep with me if i ask?"; being the kid she has always been with him, he chuckled and he knows deep down inside the answer is yes whether with or without someone; she asked him more questions; drinking her orange juice and biting the straw; with a way that only he knows that she is getting nervous; nonetheless; he still loves her, so so crazily loving her...

When ideas fail, words come in very handy.

just when i thought you are no longer part of the system;
some tiny little things generating dots;
start making connection again;
not always making sense;
despite your disconcerting tone;
hope the ranking will change;
the importance of prioritize work, life and me;
wondering does it take time;
if yes, how long?
or is just your problem, mainly?

"how many times we have to go thru this?"; "not many, who's counting, right?"; "we've been thru this way too many times, i actually lost count"; "oh i didnt know you care that much"; "well i do and now dont tell me you dont give a damn"; "why so serious all of the sudden?"; she slowly put her clothes on; "i thought im never going to see you again, not after what happened last time"; "i know you want to see me again"; he slowly pulls her over to him and holding her tight; "are you not angry with me, at all?"; "i do but is there anything i can do about it? i dont think so"; "you couldve called"; "you know me, i dont complain, i dont whine, i dont cry so what am i suppose to do when you pick up the phone?"; "just say hi"; "just say hi? that will do"; "yea, thats all"; "ok, maybe i should try that next time"; "you're not scare, are you?"; "hey, i might be a lot of things but im definitely not a coward."; at least u r braver than me, that i know.

I don't think there is a proper way to celebrate something which makes you happy.

"you know, there's never been once i ask you to do that"; "so now what? you blaming me?"; "no, im not blaming anybody"; "then?"; "i never make a move"; "and you are telling me that im wrong? and you think this is a mistake"; "no, i want to do this, im willing to but you dont seem to understand that i didnt initiate anything and at the end of it you have to realise that i didnt say yes and i can always say no"; "but you didnt say no either"; "so stop acting like im making a mistake"; "i feel really bad"; "you have no reason to, we're both adult and we know what we doing", right?

Maybe I wanted to hear it so badly that my ears betrayed my mind in order to secure my heart.

我知道我人生即将要打开全新的一章；
转换我本想要追寻的并不代表我懦弱、认输；
我知道自己想要的是什么；
我可能并不知道要怎样得到它；
但我真切地知道自己在做什么；
就算你在骗我就算你在撒谎；
只有你知道；
至少我对你坦白过；
现在的我真的已经没有那种以往一厢情愿地去爱你的冲动了；
只想要告诉你这一次我是来真的；
我是不会再回头了；
这一次是真的、真的不同了。

Silly things do cease to be silly if they are done by sensible people in an impudent way.

simply put;
"the feeling is not mutual";
thats that;
really thats all;
what else you want;
i thought that is clear enough;
i like spending time with you but i dont like being with you;
men, women, interpretation;
of all these times i have gotten over you;
now you making it sounds like as if im the one who hasnt moved on;
speechless me with two cigarettes;
i find everything between us at the end of the day has turned into a big fucking joke!

Anger is never without Reason, but seldom with a good One.

突然间；
爱你的信心又回来了；
和你好安静；
我用另外一个自己和你在一起；
一个不多话的自己；
告诉我多一点你的故事吧；
想要知道更多你的想法；
你爱我多少、想我多少、记得我多少、不喜欢我多少；
你我之间将要发生的多少。

Beware so long as you live, of judging people by appearances.

知道已经是毫无结果的；
还是在期待着；
笨笨地；
时常就无来由地生气；
那股一味冲动的性格就是改不了。
笨，都几岁了!!!!

A conservative is a man who sits and thinks, mostly sits.

happy that we start over;
you said we keep coming back to each other;
in this 3 months;
i dont deny it;
we going round in the end meet up again;
i dont want you to have the wrong idea about my feeling for you;
i like how we spent time together;
the way it is now;
and i know you do too;
hold my hand, bear with me and make me believe that we can make this work;
will you?

Then give to the world the best you have. And the best will come back to you.

熟悉的bossa nova 过门；"Beauty queen of only eighteen She............."; maroon 5 的歌声幽幽地在唱着；不知名的酒吧； 第一次来； 我从不抽烟； 你从不喝酒； 竟然还是可以在一起； "eh, 我们的歌", 你说； "哈哈"， 我笑了； "每一次听到一定想起你，想着你在那里，在做些什么，有人疼了吗，有人爱了吗? 会想很多"； "其实你不必告诉我，有必要吗?"； "不知道，只是知道想对你说，所以就说了"; "我不用听歌，我每天都在想着你。

Happiness in intelligent people is the rarest thing I know.

我和你有认识差不多要3年了；
和你从不是什么深交；
平常都只聊些有的没有的无伤大雅的；
没有太侵犯各自私人空间的；
有时没有说话就坐着也怪怪的；
今天我还嫌你赞我太多；
两次你提到我今天很好看；
穿了一袭黑色连身裙；
我黑色的直发你也是一直喜欢的；
留着它，我喜欢你就这样；
我会；
我会为你听话；
留着它。

"so now you know"; "yes, i do"; "i really want this to work, but we cant just say it, we have to make it happen, by doing things"; "yes i know"; "i was really pissed that day and i might have said something hurtful, i am not feeling sorry though"; "i understand, thats why im not defending myself, i know i was wrong"; "why didnt you? i couldve just walked away for all you know"; "but you didnt?"; "i miss you"; "me too, i want this to work as bad as you, if not more, i want you to be here with me, nothing can make me more happier"; and again, we're together again once more, just hoping this time things will work out fine.

Life is what happens to you while you're busy making other plans

3 times just a kiss goodbye;
that's the sign;
and i get it;
i get ur signal clearly;
there will be no intimate involvement between us;
not anymore;
i dont understand why;
u never say but if thats what u want, i respect ur decision;
im sorry if i seem to complicate matter some times;
i dont mean to;
maybe u r seeing someone;
if u r let me know;
ill be happy for u eventhough im actually feeling sad inside.

To achieve great things we must live as though we were never going to die.

"i hope u didnt ask me out for the movie, because u feel bad or sympathetic for me"; "what?"; "i dont know why i say that, i just need to make sure, i guess"; "make sure of what? look, i wont even bother if that's the case, ok? i want to see u, i do"; "really? but you always so busy and it looks like im bothering u"; "yea, didnt i just prove that? i want to see u even if my phone buzzing non-stop all day, i want to see u even if i just get off my e-mail, i want to see u even if its just for 2-3 hours, i want to see u even if we're really rushing all this, i want to see u even if a lot of things ok? ok? what else can i say to make u feel better? why do u feel so insecure?"; "maybe im taking things a bit too personal and reacted over-sensitively, but really i just want u to know i dont need your companion because u feel sorry for me"; "hey, listen to me, ok? of all feelings i might have for you, pity is certainly not one. I have no reason to feel sorry for u and I don't see why u should inspire such a feeling. if u keep saying that i will start feeling sorry for myself seeing u"; i smile for the first time out of all these worries, my silly act; "I see u coz I like seeing you", he hold me tight and said; "and i see you coz i like seeing you too"; "so now we're even"; "yup, so even!"

In many cases, the more you try to compete, the less competitive you actually are.

好难捱的一个多小时；
我没有这么难过了；
心里尽想一些别的就不会特别难过了；
真的成为过去了；
事情要真的发生时往往是最难受的；
这样也好；
以后都不必再想了。

"you know damn well thats not what i mean"; "then what you mean exactly, tell me"; i sigh; "you going one big round in the end telling me all this doesnt matter, we never matter and not even i matter"; this is the first time i see her screaming, at me, she is really piss, i never thought she cares this much; "look at me, tell me again i dont matter"; "thats not what i mean, im sorry"; "i dont want to hear you say im sorry, that means you feel guilty"; i avoid eye contact with her, she comes to me, kissing me gently on my lips; "look at me, tell me again i dont matter".

Only the mediocre are always at their best.

周末；
12点午餐时间；
你带我到一间像儿童乐园的餐厅；
每一桌都坐满了一家人：妈妈爸爸孩子们；
只有我们是两个人；
同样地点了餐；你点了我想要的；
我点了一些别的；
你点的总会比我的好吃；
我看着你而你就会让给我了；
我们还一起吃着一些别的，猜着歌；
当然你可以说这里不是特别为家庭而设的；
但我不禁地在想还是一家人来比较适合的；
你嫌餐厅很吵、你讨厌小孩、你亦没有成家的念头，但你却喜欢这一个地方；
其实你还有什么没有告诉我的呢；
我迷惑了。

工作上你遇到了年来最大的打击；
朋友的背叛， 你的无助；
你口里说不好意思向我吐苦水但还是说了；
你想要离开你的行业打算做一些别的；
医生、老师、为社会服务的职业；
讲是很容易吧，你放得下吗，你能做什么呢？
以你目前的生活不容易呢；
能放下吗？能离开吗？能洒脱吗？真的能吗？
现在唯一当即能做的就是把自己做得更好活得更好吧，我想。

"u know what?"; "what?"; "i want to figure something out"; "what's that?"; "the reason behind u being single and not wanting to have a family"; "that's useless"; "no, i dont think so, coz u never want to tell me, why's that?"; "thats none of your business i guess"; "oh ok, so my theory behind this is pretty simple and typical, i think your last relationship ended badly, or a more daring one - that in fact u r actually a well-hidden gay man"; "what? dont be silly, thats absurd and ridiculuos"; "oh no correct answer, then why wont you just tell me already and put me out of my misery, what r u hiding? wht r u so afraid of?"; i look her in the eyes knowing that the truth is slowly eating me up alive and this is the truth, i love her for all this while, but the other side of me stop me from revealing my true feeling because i know i can't make her happy as much as she makes me happy and i am sick of the idea of failing her. i want her to be happy but not with me.

We don't always get to choose what we love.

12分钟；
最长的一次；
你声音里的无奈；
有问题的出现；
也是想找人谈谈的吧；
或许只是一个让你填补时间空缺的选择；
你在利用我；
我也只是在利用你。

"you sound worry, you want to talk about it"; "no, leave me be"; "im just trying to help"; "i know, but in time like this i would be more absent-minded than usual"; "ok"; "it's better to leave me alone"; "it's alright, you can be as absent-minded as you want to be, i dont care and i dont mind, im just gonna sit here with you, silently and quietly"; you turn and smile at me; "i understand"; as there was time when me and you sitting somewhere together, i am just as absent-minded as you are right now, im sure of it; sure of it.

Start dealing with things way beyond my maturity level.

I care not so much what I am to others as what I am to myself.

it's actually not quite what i expected to be;
i havent felt like that for such a long time;
i guess it's not easy just to move on;
not when you actually need to do it;
it's not.

无聊啊， 出来吧； 再忙再不愿意我还是没有拒绝；从来没有过； 不知道为什么；其实很明显吧； 我不想让你觉得我太紧张你；我不想让你觉得我没有你不行； 真的不想； 你对我没有不一样； 所以我以为我也应该对你一样；你没有说一些我想听的； 没有做一些我想做的； 都没有什么所谓了； 根本没有在意过； 只是想在你心里份量可以再重一些； 你会再关心我一些； 可是你没有给我惊喜过；没有出乎意料过； 就算你真的很清楚很清楚我喜欢和讨厌什么；但这又代表什么呢？

Accept what people offer. Drink their milkshakes. Take their love.

thanks for letting me win, i didnt let u win;
thanks for letting me lose, i didnt let u lose, i wanted to beat u which i did, and it wasnt an easy win, it wasnt, at all.

为你；
我制造出千千万万不同的理由；
任何能够和你在一起的理由；
就算是很笨很傻很无聊很蠢的理由；
但是其实为的就只是一个理由；
--我爱你这个理由。

"would you have said yes if i wanted to stay?"; ive always been the shameless type; can never hide my feelings; "i would have tried to say no....."; what if you are actually just being polite? what if you have decided to stop? what if you have no reason, would you still have said no? what if i insist? what if i promise not to do the thing you think i would do? what if i really just wanted to stay for staying sake but not what you really thought? what if i just wanted to stay so the feeling of being with you can linger? what if i just wanted to stay just for that something that you know i want so badly the next morning? what if next time you have to come up with a new set of reasons? so please just be honest and straight forward with me; i will get it; i dont want to guess; or just keep trying and lie, i dont care; by then i should've know that you are not being polite; by then i should be smart enough to stay away, by then whenever it is i really should.

If we lose this, it'll just be you and me again, I promise.

Happiness only real when shared.

It hurts to find out that what you wanted doesn't match what you dreamed it would be.

can we for once just dont talk about what we usually talk about;

can we for once just hold hand and stare at the starlight;

can we for once just sit here silently without a sound;

can we for once just hug each other tight;

can we for once just lay around and do nothing;

can we for once just think and say what we wanted to;

can we for once just kiss and make love;

can we for once just miss each other like we could've;

can we for once just love each other like we would want to;

can we do it for once;

just for once.

"let's just stop it, ok? this is ridiculous"; "no"; "what do you mean no?"; "no, just no"; no.

Style is knowing who you are, what you want to say and not giving a damn.

talk to you last nite;
feel relax and comfortable;
that im really talking to you;
for the very first time;
i like this feeling;
sometimes you just have to put yourself aside;
still you remind me of a lot of things;
some feelings;
not going away easily;
let's go somewhere together;
let's plan something, you say;
i feel happy just knowing that you have such idea;
thats all i need.

两位喝什么？latte; expresso; 侍应生送上饮料； 两个人喝着两杯没有糖的咖啡；没有人潮； 空气中充满了孤单的气味； 爵士音乐在咖啡馆里播放着； 突然间； "你和他还有联络吗？"; 你为什么突然间关心我起来了; "没有，没有联络了"; 其实我们还是在有的没有的时常传短讯； "真的？"; "嗯，真的"; 我不知道我为什么要骗你，但又没有觉得我做得不对, 不是已经说好了吗，说好了你不要再管我的，如果我告诉你我开始有一点儿想念他了；如果我告诉你我好像爱上他了，又会怎样了呢，是你先放弃我的，你不记得了吗？那时候哭着的我你一点都不心疼，所以你现在也不用开始，因为你已经太迟了；太迟了。

But be, as you have been, my happiness...

sadness arrived inevitably ;
awkwardness spread all over the place;
you dont seem to notice;
or its just that you dont care;
repetitive argument on like and dislike;
doesnt see any point, seriously;
wrap everything unbearably in a smile with missing hugs and kisses;
then suddenly;
very suddenly;
questions being asked;
a little happiness filling in;
knowing that you actually care;
knowing that you actually care.

"is it too much for me to ask? is it, really?"; "but why?"; "dont you understand? cant you spend a little more time and try to get what am i trying to say? am i such waste of time not worth any of your while, even for a split second?"; "i dont mean it that way"; "then what? what are you trying to say? i know you want to get rid of me real bad, but can you at least show me a bit more effort?"; "what do you want me to do?"; "just listen, i just need you to listen"........