Friday, January 28, 2011

Between two evils, I always pick the one I never tried before














有时候真的已经失去了那股自己想要说服自己想要继续下去的勇气。

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

It's not the hours you put in your work that counts, it's the work you put in the hours


I heard that you're settled down,
That you found a girl and you're married now,
I heard that your dreams came true,
Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you,
Old friend, why are you so shy?
Ain't like you to hold back or hide from the light,

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited,
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it,
I had hoped you'd see my face,
And that you'd be reminded that for me it isn't over,

Never mind, I'll find someone like you,
I wish nothing but the best for you, too,
Don't forget me, I beg,
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead,"
Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead, yeah,

You know how the time flies,
Only yesterday was the time of our lives,
We were born and raised in a summer haze,
Bound by the surprise of our glory days,

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited,
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it,
I had hoped you'd see my face,
And that you'd be reminded that for me it isn't over,

Never mind, I'll find someone like you,
I wish nothing but the best for you, too,
Don't forget me, I beg,
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead,"

Nothing compares,
No worries or cares,
Regrets and mistakes, they're memories made,
Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you,
I wish nothing but the best for you,
Don't forget me, I beg,
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead,"

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you,
I wish nothing but the best for you, too,
Don't forget me, I beg,
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead,"
Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead.

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

When dealing with the insane, the best method is to pretend to be sane


“Do not be critics, you people, I beg you. I was a critic and I wish I could take it all back because it came from a smelly and ignorant place in me, and spoke with a voice that was all rage and envy. Do not dismiss a book until you have written one, and do not dismiss a movie until you have made one, and do not dismiss a person until you have met them. It is a f@*$%load of work to be open-minded and generous and understanding and forgiving and accepting, but Christ, that is what matters. What matters is saying yes.” - Dave Eggers

Resolve to be thyself: and know, that he who finds himself, loses his misery
















Possible Weakness
needs clear cut boundaries for action/ relationships- bound by procedures and methods - gets bogged down in details - prefers not to verbalize feelings - will give in rather than argue

Greatest Fear
criticism

Sunday, January 23, 2011

A doctor saves lives -- It's up to people to create lives that are worth saving


“If you want to build a ship, don’t drum up people to collect wood and don’t assign them tasks and work, but rather teach them to long for the endless immensity of the sea.” ~Antoine De Saint Exupery

Saturday, January 22, 2011

Do definite good; first of all to yourself, then to definite persons


这是他们第一次去看电影,在计划了很久之后;
大家都是认识的,虽然不是很熟但也却没有很尴尬;
进了影院她看见所订的位置是情侣座,并没有很惊讶;
他们在还未开映前还悄悄说了一阵子的话,很好笑的话;
感觉就这样来了,就是觉得这样做是对的;
他的手慢慢搂着她的腰,没有抗拒自然而然地;
他比她小几岁,他很可爱不是那种会让她反感讨厌的男生;
“你还好吗?”“嗯, 你呢?”“我搂着你就好”;
他用双手环抱着她;把头轻轻放在她的肩膀上;
吻了她好几下,感觉真好,过后她的发占满了他的味道,
都是成年人了,知道应该和不应该做什么的;
是知道的。

Friday, January 21, 2011

Don't bother just to be better than your contemporaries or predecessors. Try to be better than yourself


“F@*# self-doubt. I despise it. I hold it in contempt, along with the hell-spawned ooze-pit of Resistance from which it crawled. I will NEVER back off. I will NEVER give the work anything less than 100%. If I go down in flames, so be it. I’ll be back.” -Steven Pressfield

Thursday, January 20, 2011

It is the nature of all greatness not to be exact

“The truly creative mind in any field is no more than this: A human creature born abnormally, inhumanely sensitive. To them… a touch is a blow, a sound is a noise, a misfortune is a tragedy, a joy is an ecstasy, a friend is a lover, a lover is a god, and failure is death. Add to this cruelly delicate organism the overpowering necessity to create, create, create — so that without the creating of music or poetry or books or buildings or something of meaning, their very breath is cut off… They must create, must pour out creation. By some strange, unknown, inward urgency they are not really alive unless they are creating.” - Pearl Buck

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

If you aren't fired with enthusiasm, you will be fired with enthusiasm


maybe this is just going to be another one of those;
you have feelings for them;
but they just treat you as friends;

thinking about you fondly doesn't mean that they love you;

do not give your heart too readily;
some one once said.

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

It's a shallow life that doesn't give a person a few scars


why did you have to quote what i said?
why you have to give me hope?
why?

Love is the big booming beat which covers up the noise of hate


yea i know, what do u know? im just silly. u probably knew im going to write, even if ure not, im writing u anyway.

there were hesitation, but i also know in between us is real, still i cant helped but feel the indecent guilt, you are somebody else's. i know u would say we r both adult and mature enough to know what we r doing, but really? do we know what we r doing?

all i know is, seeing you, my first thought, everything is going to be over, coz u were with your girl, imagine how i felt with what ive seen, no, you cant imagine, because you are not me.

i love you and i guess i have the right to know;
i love you and i dont want to hide;
i love you and i just want you to be happy.

Saturday, January 15, 2011

Selfishness is not living as one wishes to live, it is asking others to live as one wishes to live


just to get things off my chest, we both know each other long enough now, so i dont want to keep things that bother me

i really wish u r happy and i want u to be happy, no matter what. i wish that u will tell me u and ur gf are working out, everything is going great, although u didnt tell me anything, or even when u think that there's absolutely nothing wrong in doing what we're doing...........even when u belong to someone else.

im happy to see u and i dont know why i write, maybe i thought comes new year it will be different for us and i was sorta expecting it, but seeing u, everything seems to be the same......we miss each other and we made love......i dont know i shld be happy or i shld feel sad, im just so useless and defenseless in front of all this. maybe u should keep me away from u

wht i want to say is i love u dearly in my kiddo way and it makes me happy to see u happy, so no matter what happens i will still let u share my music, OK?

Friday, January 14, 2011

Do not accustom yourself to use big words for little matters

"There is always one person you love who becomes that definition. It usually happens retrospectively, but it happens eventually. This is the person who unknowingly sets the template for what you will always love about other people, even if some of these lovable qualities are self-destructive and unreasonable. The person who defines your understanding of love is not inherently different than anyone else; they’re often just the person you happen to meet the first time you really, really, want to love someone. But that person still wins. They win, and you lose. Because for the rest of your life, they will control how you feel about everyone else."
— Chuck Klosterman, Killing Yourself To Live

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

Some days you're a bug, some days you're a windshield


you need help; go away, you hurt me enough even though you didn't want to; what do u want me to do? i know you can't drop everything and go but can you at least say something to make me feel better, why do yo have to be so harsh? i just need u to be soft and gentle, soft and gentle, with me.

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

Happiness is essentially a state of going somewhere, wholeheartedly, one-directionally, without regret or reservation


What's the point of pain if it's been abused?
What's a kid like me even got to lose?
Here I am on your bed again-- its too big for the room it's in.
Wash your face and mouth just a little bit,
everybody knows that you're good at it.
Nothing hurts like an answer phone, drinking some, waking up alone.
Maybe if I try just a little more, I can take myself from this dirty floor.
Walk through buildings of elegance, just like you are intelligent.
But still I fall from grace with this microphone,
how'd you find yourself if you never roam?
Certainly I'm indebted baby, certainly, certainly...

I know my place, but it don't know me.
I know my place, but it don't know me.

No one wants to hear that you're breaking up,
it wasn't long ago we said start me up.
Now all your dreamin' will have to wait, what you deserve you'll anticipate.
Play your 45 with this late at night, open all the windows, turn out the light.
Mysterious creatures will fill the room, a midnight show just put on for you.
But still I fall from grace with this microphone,
how'd you find yourself if you never roam?
Certainly I'm indebted baby, certainly, certainly...

I know my place, but it don't know me.
I know my place, but it don't know me.

Cold fame in my brain, but it's okay cause I know it's the best for me...

Monday, January 10, 2011

Love doesn't sit there like a stone, it has to be made, like bread: remade all the time, made new

我真的不知道我们之间欠缺了什么;
我和你都拥有着一股傻劲和勇气;
但终究还是不能洒脱地去兑现那段曾经有过的承诺;
原来那是不够的。

Sunday, January 9, 2011

It is good to be without vices, but it is not good to be without temptations














i think i havent had that feeling for a while now;
you coming around;
building all these anticipations;
i just dont want to be disappointed;
again.

Saturday, January 8, 2011

Beware of the man who won't be bothered with details














on the night that we met
you said that you wanted
something more from me
it was all that I could do

I remember your face, like a child
the way that you blushed and
the way that you smiled
now that was all that I could do
and I woke up feeling new
you're so much more than I ever knew

so I think of all these year spent alone
it's like you're searching for something
to make you feel whole

like ur half of something else
just a fragment of yourself

dont take it so hard, we did what we could
there were no easy answers
to be understood
and it was all that we could do
we're the only ones who knew
all I think about is you

the way that you laugh
the way that you smile
the way that you whispers
told me all her fronts
the way that you told
told me I was wrong
and the way that you'd sing
when you hear a song
and the way that you answered
when you knew I was gone
now i know that im blind
and its you all i see
i know its not cleaver
but i just want you with me

now I tell you I would die
if it's what you'd rather see
and I don't care if its clever
I just want you with me

I'm only half of something else

Friday, January 7, 2011

Most of the time I don't have much fun. The rest of the time I don't have any fun at all


i dont think you know this;
but you have a way to calm me down;
whenever i talk to you;
i am smiling;
wherever you are or maybe;
i am not giving my heart too readily this time;
i hope.

Wednesday, January 5, 2011

Always bear in mind that your own resolution to succeed is more important than any one thing


it's just when i start to sip you off my mind;
you crawl back in slowly over again;
with only 3 little words;
thats all;
after i miss you, i still miss you;
so what am i suppose to do?

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

Monday, January 3, 2011

The best of us must sometimes eat our words


some people really cannot understand you;
they say you are weak;
i was trying to defend you;
but nothing came out of my mouth;
i guess they're probably right.