Friday, July 31, 2009

Man is happy only as he finds work worth doing -- and does it well

对很多事都不怎么样在乎; 究竟是什么样的态度; 根本想要与世无争;没有想过要伸出手去捉住什么;但如果说心中所仅存有的希望估计也没有多到什么程度;却又还没有到对世界彻底绝望的地步;是很矛盾的说; 想起很久(虽然事实上没多久但记忆中却像过了蛮久似的)有一位朋友的朋友在博里这样写着切切实实就是我如今的心情写照: 那時,兩個獨立的個體,帶著各自在人世多年,養出的種種的習性與癖好,試探著要相處在一起。這個過程甜蜜中帶著點劍拔弩張,害怕解錯意,擔心表錯 情,期待與失望短兵相接。真的就解錯意、表錯情,反目而成仇者,亦所在多有。那時候的愛情,說是愛又不完全是愛。這一秒感到有那麼點特別,下一秒看看風頭 不對(比如發現對方已婚啦,對自己沒興趣啦,或是在黑色皮鞋裡穿白襪子啦),立即說服自己「我才沒有喜歡他呢」,這樣的事也常發生啊。似愛而非愛,真個是 「杳杳冥冥,飄飄蕩蕩,隨風定止」──是還沒寫定的,還沒有一個固定相狀的,端賴後來發生的事,來決定這時那點異樣的心情,會是一場刻骨銘心愛情的開端, 還是一個尋常日子裡心肌偶然的一下不規則抽動。
最近聽到一個朋友今兒的故事。她在約會前買了一杯星巴克──她也不是非喝那杯咖啡不可,但那天經過星巴克,就是忽然想買杯來喝喝。男生開車,也不是技術不好,但那天就是有個彎轉得急了。結果是咖啡翻了,當場空氣為之凝結,因為那男生愛車如命且有潔癖。咖啡翻倒為分水嶺,他在旅途的後半段都不發一語。而今兒想這男的也太小氣了吧,不過就是一杯咖啡嘛,要是我暈車在車裡吐呢?於是兩個人都開始嫌惡對方。 愛情剛開始,那脆弱的時刻呀,一杯星巴克都可以毀了它。飄飄緲緲還沒有形狀的情感,指針一撥就轉為討厭,改組其中的偶發事件可能就是喜歡。 摘自張惠菁的《愛情哪吒論》。過了三十嵗還要不斷重復這種心理狀態,我寧願走開

Thursday, July 30, 2009

This isn't good or bad. It's just the way of things. Nothing stays the same

Don't flatter yourself that friendship authorizes you to say disagreeable things to your intimates. The nearer you come into relation with a person, the more necessary do tact and courtesy become. Except in cases of necessity, which are rare, leave your friend to learn unpleasant things from his enemies; they are ready enough to tell them.-- Oliver Wendell Holmes, The Autocrat of the Breakfast-Table, 1858

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

A person is only as big as the dream they dare to live

when you talk about being something, is it one's choice or one's capability? the question perhaps: can you do it? or do you want it? i mean, you could be capable but don't want it; or you wanted it but you cant. sounds the same but not.

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

A smile is an inexpensive way to improve your looks













画了一个圆圈; 走到这里;你拿着两杯啤酒;走向我坐在我身边; 我拿着啤酒没有说什么;我只是一直在哭、哭、哭。

Monday, July 27, 2009

For all that has been, thanks. For all that will be, yes

不能就这样完全的绝望啊; 不是不要拒人于千里之外吗? 你忘了; 并不是这样的; 远距离的还是来了; 要怎样说服自己呢? 连自己也没有信心呐; 要是投入了怕受伤害; 若只是闹着玩我不想浪费这样的时间; 在这里时间也不是会长但就已经满脑子胡思乱想;你别傻了; 等着吧; 还有长长的日子够你受呢!!!

Sunday, July 26, 2009

Travel only with thy equals or thy betters; if there are none, travel alone

起床觉得懒懒的蓝蓝的; 世界怎样了呢?很多事情转过身一股脑儿地已经被人忘记了; 人是怎样吸引人的?何谓attraction?答案在哪里呢?我知道就算我一直问下去就只是在增添自己的苦恼;自个儿纳闷; 不想了; 早安。

Saturday, July 25, 2009

We confess our little faults to persuade people that we have no large ones













站在原点看看自己;其实真的并没有很糟;如果遇见的那个人不能如我所愿; 可真是不介意一个人就这样的过着; 近来都和一群比自己年龄较小的同事在一起; 不自觉地心境想法也变年轻多了; 有的竟然把我当成了榜样;怎样也没想到; 我所做的也只不过是尽我所能做好每一件事; 年来的经验的确帮助我不少; 有时也会纳闷自己混混地过日子; 但也只不过是一时钻牛角尖的想法; all and all im still that little small contented happy person; just happy being who i am.

Never regret something that once made you smile

im bias; i have to admit; such a short and sweet time; naturally just happened; without any hesitation; without being pretentious; me and you are finally getting together with each other in such a way; such lovely way; simple call; 3 minutes or so; decided; grab a quick lunch; random chatting; opinion asking; perfect coffee; driving around; laugh aloud; missing you already on my way home....

Friday, July 24, 2009

The whole life of man is but a point of time; let us enjoy it















why people always fuss about small stuff: why dont you ask me? why dont you tell me? each individual trying to reason out importance of their own with someone; but there is no way to measure it.

Thursday, July 23, 2009

You can preach a better sermon with your life than with your lips

dont ask me aboout me; i wont tell you anyway; be with me to know me; listen to me to know me; if u cant do that; let me go and just let me be me.

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

Things are more like they are now than they have ever been













you have really nice smile, it's contagious.......thats how we ended the night; a nice nice night after a while. i don't exepect to see you at all knowing you are so busy these days if you havent sent me that reminder; i wouldve totally missed you for another long time; i like you more now; i really like it like this.

To get your ideas across use small words, big ideas, and short sentences













annoying alarm clock sound; makes you want to shoot me; morning coffee; omelette; same deal; fun morning; what a start; and i wonder how long did it take for you to know me? how long will you like this secretive me?

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

Tears may be dried up, but the heart - never.













想不到还有什么要说的; 只是一直想道歉; 看着你; 就算之前的过错如何幼稚无知愚笨; 统统都原谅了吧; 我不想在最后的最后错过了一些什么然后一觉醒来后悔; 如果这个时候还能在有生之年有着这样的知觉; 对不起真的是一句其实很容易就能够说出口的话; 就大声说吧;趁现在。

Monday, July 20, 2009

Facing it, always facing it, that's the way to get through. Face it

就一句话; 我无路可退; 不断在发抖; 当爱情重新在起点开跑后;我失去了信心耐心毅力;我突然觉得我失去了爱的勇气; 我一直在退缩;我不由自主地后悔了起来; 原来我一直以来并没有想象中如此渴望爱; 我开始不能接受被爱; 那是幸福的; 但我却被爱不来; 年来我变得胆怯了; 我发觉其实我更希望去爱; 好好地去爱。

Sunday, July 19, 2009

Oppression can only survive through silence

我想起那一段我恋爱的时候; 我没有什么朋友; 就只能找他做我的依靠; 他很疼我;我常常小气撒娇爱哭胡闹发脾气;他都依我的; 我真孩子气; 9年后的今天重新走在爱情的路上;不知道要怎么做;没有人对我说我应该怎样怎样; 害怕又错过;害怕又做错;害怕的有很多;但唯一不变的是未来的事没有人知道;既来之;则安之吧!

It is not easy to find happiness in ourselves, and it is not possible to find it elsewhere

"What don't I understand, Cara? Please, help me out. What is it? Is it frustrating that you can't be with this person? That there's something keeping you apart? That there's something about this person that you can connect with? And whenever you're near this person, you don't know what to say, and you say everything that's in your mind and in your heart, and you know that if you could just be together, that this person would help you become the best possible version of yourself?"

Saturday, July 18, 2009

You have no control over what the other guy does. You only have control over what you do













i cry i cry and i cry;
i really dont dont dont dont know why;
am i too happy or am i sad?
just leave me alone until i die.

Friday, July 17, 2009

Try to learn something about everything and everything about something













你告诉我; 你在等我; 我完全不能想象如果我没有按下那一个键的话;会是怎样了呢;被爱总是幸福的;我是有一点想得太远了;让我放轻松;深呼吸;慢慢走;拉着你的手。

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

Confusion is always the most honest response















其实我能够想象;你坐在你的macbook前一言不发专心一致的在工作着; 两只手指飞快地在键盘上舞动着; im over-busy these days; you always over-busy; 我从来不是注重物质享受的人; 所以我永远断定自己是底下层的人;你却不一样; 任何事都高人一调; 我是那个只能在远远看着你步伐却永远跟不上的那个人; 就算让我碰运气跟上了;我们的步伐也是不可能一致的; 这我早就认了,唯有认了。

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

The higher the buildings, the lower the morals













3点许; 电话响; 我刚刚在你办公室楼下经过; 你说; 为什么不早点打电话给我; 我们可以去喝杯咖啡; 哦,怕妨碍你工作; 只要你说只要是你开口多忙我也会找到时间只怕是你没有给我这样的机会; 我不怎么相信你是刚巧经过; 你一定是已经事先知道要来的; 我不知道你怕什么; 我不觉得不好意思或者尴尬; 好朋友见到想喝杯咖啡聊一聊是很正常的事; 你48岁了凡事应该看开点,我让你继续忙你的; 再见。













there's no fairy tale in our life; there never was; im not waiting for one; i really want to believe that there is, though im reserve and skeptical.

Monday, July 13, 2009

Perseverance is failing 19 times and succeeding the 20th

我不知道是不是这样就代表着我们在谈恋爱了; 我没有以前小女孩般的软弱了; 但很多习惯我改不了; 我还是很爱哭; 我不再喜欢撒娇; 我不再会粘人; 我不再会依赖; 我不再会想要给你打电话; 我不喜欢你太粘; 我不喜欢醋坛子; 我喜欢独立的男生; 我比较喜欢他; 但请你给我时间让我相信自己可以去喜欢你; 很喜欢很喜欢你。

Sunday, July 12, 2009

Everybody lies, but it doesn't matter because nobody listens















可能是时候让自己再一次去寻找那爱的感觉; 我没有忘记; 它并没有走得太远; 只是很刻意没有再提起; 就是这样而已; 三次了就像认识了很久一样; 感觉很好; 一切的发生都很自然包括那个吻; 轻如蜻蜓点水的那个吻; i don't want to assume anything, so i asked; 你说没什么; 不用太在意; 我其实是害怕你误会; 现在搞清楚了就好; 你需要时间我明白;我也一样;我不想就这样一头栽进去;我不想再伤; 我知道我很自私; 我宁愿伤的是你, 对不起。

Saturday, July 11, 2009

Those who love deeply never grow old; they may die of old age, but they die young














20:02; 真的; 感觉很好很好; 就这么自然就发生了; 走到了这一步; 现在要转左转右都只是我自己了; 放轻松想想; 真的想想。

Friday, July 10, 2009

Man has to suffer. When he has no real afflictions, he invents some














要赴一场7点的约; 不得了; 塞在车龙里; 电话响; 是你; 推去原本的约; 你像已经预期; 二话不说; 就这样一直一直在暗恋着你; 想起了这首歌:-

我从来不曾抗拒你的魅力
虽然你从来不曾对我著迷
我总是微笑的看著你
我的情意总是轻易就洋溢眼底
我曾经想过在寂寞的夜里
你终於在意在我的房间里
你闭上眼睛亲吻了我
不说一句紧紧抱我在你怀里
我是爱你的
我爱你到底
生平第一次我放下矜持
任凭自己幻想一切关於我和你
你是爱我的
你爱我到底
生平第一次我放下矜持
相信自己真的可以深深去爱你


我曾经想过在寂寞的夜里
你终於在意在我的房间里
你闭上眼睛亲吻了我
不说一句紧紧抱我在你怀里
我是爱你的
我爱你到底
生平第一次我放下矜持
任凭自己幻想一切关於我和你
你是爱我的
你爱我到底
生平第一次我放下矜持
相信自己真的可以深深去爱你
深深去爱你

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

There is no remedy for love but to love more

One Tama Intro from Duyan ng Giting on Vimeo.


http://onetama.com/index.php

Nobody can be exactly like me. Sometimes even I have trouble doing it

其实我只是想静静地和你坐着; 在同一间小馆; 你滔滔不绝地在说着那一套关于紫色的电影; 我完全没有兴趣; 但还是点着头听着; 我不明白为什么你总是觉得和我必须有话要说; 你是在要获得我的认同吗?还是有别的原因?我问你爱我吗,你说不爱,但我要你放手;你却在摇头, 我已经分不清楚我应该和不应该做什么了。

Monday, July 6, 2009

All things are difficult before they are easy














你问我从什么时候开始抽烟;我说没有只是要抽完之前的那一包; 听说你侄女生病了; 人生不如意事又何止生病而已; shit happens, yea, it does, but i feel worse when it happen to good people, or even people i know.

Sunday, July 5, 2009

Luck is what you have left over after you give 100 percent.













2nd date;
real conversation;
feelings exposed;
time fly by without realize;
all you need is time;
time.

You have no control over what the other guy does. You only have control over what you do.



















050709-1653- same o touch; same o voice; same o feeling; same o same o; i have to admit i am no longer missing you the way i used to miss you; i have to confess being with you is just something that i do to make you feel better; i dont see the importance of us being with each other anymore more than it used to.

Saturday, July 4, 2009

We judge ourselves by what we feel capable of doing, while others judge us by what we have already done













with time i realize;
i'm actually of a friend not even worth a minute of your time;
i ask you to forgive me;
i feel really sorry;
for myself especially.

Friday, July 3, 2009

Doing a thing well is often a waste of time













you'll find someone;
have you tried?
we want different things;
i want something that you cant give - your time;
you're the one who let go first;
remember?

Thursday, July 2, 2009

Happiness is nothing more than good health and a bad memory

"but we only argue, all the time"; 我不想你有任何藉口; 其实有可能是我自己一直在逃避; 不面对现实那个人是我; 不是你; "i delete your number, i try to forget, but i remember everything, i even memorize your number"; i dont know why are you doing this to me and to yourself; you make me dont want to care; not anymore.

Wednesday, July 1, 2009

When you have loved as she has loved, you grow old beautifully













回想起是很久很久的事了; 烟盒里头还剩两支烟; 在犹豫着要不要重新开始抽烟这个念头; 但却也不像有正式开始过; 好像和他一样; 那天我们相拥吻别说再见; 但却也不像有正式开始过; 回想起原来是很久很久以前的事了。

Where all think alike, no one thinks very much













everyone needs someone to sort out their life for them.

Man is so made that whenever anything fires his soul, impossibilities vanish
















oddik misses you.