Wednesday, March 22, 2017

Eventually soulmates meet, for they have the same hiding place.

i was talking about skills; how after few times of talking; i did mind when you talk about her attractiveness; but i do not mind when you share your problem; you tend to want to know bad stuff than good; you will not want to know if i am seeing a guy that is good; we all laugh better at other's misfortune compare to our own; when i say if she ends it so would we; you said you are not a saint and at this point you will not say for sure; but it gives you comfort and feel less guilty as she said she is not so sure of it; then you feel a sense of relief when you are going to see me soon; i say you still want to see me if i am seeing someone; you ask me to say it again; i still say i would; even if you are married, you asked; but i am not sure if marriage is something i would do anytime soon; i do know for sure the feelings with you just linger on and on and on and on.................because we care for each other more and feel this precious emotion and create such an important spot in each other's life; i wonder when it comes the time we need to end; it has to be something awfully terrible; i may want it to happen soon; very soon.

Monday, March 20, 2017

Do not invest your whole life in one hope.

As much as I believe eventually all relationship will hit its peak and then slowly go down hill. For us no less. But then because of how we are in this relationship, with a lot of factors in place, it makes us treasure this in a different way and also makes the relationship feel somewhat new each time. I still into you and i believe that as much as I want both to turn on, being with each other now in a simple way like how we do is our biggest turn on and that's really great. Until whatever may happen then.

I am very happy with you and how we are doing;
which i truly believe for  now it's the truth. 

Thursday, March 16, 2017

All the gods, all the heavens, all the hells, are within you.

I do not know what worse. Say things that hurt other people or don't say it but hurt myself. 

Tuesday, March 14, 2017

Believe nothing you hear, and only one half that you see.

he is gone for about a week or so;
missing him still so much;
the lightest touch between us lingers on;
his voice;
his laugh;
his passion;
his movement;
the embarrassment;
still text him on and off sometime;
received short response;
he is back to his life over at the other side of the globe;
we both have our own life to live;
everyone has;
what can i expect;
there's the other one with boring answers;
not so much interesting stuff;
i know myself;
i cant stand it;
and another is back home for a week;
enjoying his time with family and hobbies;
merely sexual;
missing each other still much;
the lust lingers on;
in the end;
lust drives me;
only me.

Sunday, March 12, 2017

I heard an airplane passing overhead. I wished I was on it.

You showed me two hundred over photos. Told me all about it. Also your feelings. Again. Very vaguely. After your trip. I lose interests. Long ago in fact. Then that day I decided. We really said goodbye. I once love you. Never would have thought. It will be gone. 

Thursday, March 9, 2017

Follow your heart but take your brain with you.

are you happy with this relationship?
i am.
would you rather not have it?

Both of them have answered the same thing......

Monday, March 6, 2017

They leave me and I love them more.

i know it seems stupid to restrict you in whatever way that seems natural to you;
i guess i just want you to know that what i feel for you is real and it will be in the way knowing someone else is with you and that is nothing i can change;
i will not ask you to change anyway which is impossible;
promise me;
if it comes one day you must leave;
lie to me and leave;
just do it.

Wednesday, March 1, 2017

There was nothing to talk about anymore. The only thing to do was go.

you are here;
for four days;
you said this is the sales director job;
but you push thru it;
give it a reason;
to just come and see me;
i feel flattering;
also an emotional burden;
you will be gone;
the more i am with you;
the more i realise in the end;
it is all a state of mind;
if you feel happy and want to;
you will be;
we had great intimate moments;
sushi; malay food; joking around; blonde chocolate; the jam; touching in the car; how you did not want me to wait; i took a day off; hi tea with bunch or orchids; your work; your scar; chinese seafood;  the hypothetical money question; your sexual story;
how you do not mind about the things that i do because it was too intense;
that you made me did so for the very first time;
that i do not think i will ever met someone like you;
that i will never feel the same emotion ever again;
all these intense emotions;
we may or may not have again ever;
glad that i text you back;
anyway you would've still try;
know that you still keep seeing other;
of course you do;
you will never stop;
eventually everything fade;
1 day;
6 weeks;
14 years;
25 years;
no difference;
you were telling me more;
your ears;
your story;
your hard work;
how you end up here now;
this moment;
i truly treasure;
although we have parted with a very very heavy heart.