Wednesday, September 30, 2009

We don't see things as they are, we see things as we are

are u busy until the next decade? coz i cant wait.

maybe what hurts me is when i hear you say, you are not looking for anything;
maybe even if you are, i guess i just dont want to be your anything.

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

If you press me to say why I loved him, I can say no more than because he was he, and I was I

if i tell u the truth;
would u believe me?
im afraid;
to meet;
not this way;
im fear that;
we will be doing what we expect to do;
to each other;
i will kiss u;
touch u;
hug u;
and want to be with u;
then the liking feeling will get deeper;
inside of us;
of each other;
after which when it's time to say goodbye;
i will hate myself;
and how much it hurts;
i should really stop this;
coz i realise how much im falling for u now.

Monday, September 28, 2009

You can't do anything about the length of your life, but you can do something about its width and depth


Calm down
Deep breaths
And get yourself dressed instead
Of running around
And pulling all your threads and
Breaking yourself up

If it's a broken part, replace it
If it’s a broken arm then brace it
If it's a broken heart then face it

And hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way
Hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way

And everything will be fine

Hang on
Help is on the way
Stay strong
I'm doing everything

Hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way
Hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way

And everything
Everything will be fine

Are the details in the fabric
Are the things that make you panic
Are your thoughts results of static cling?

Are the things that make you blow
Hell, no reason, go on and scream
If you're shocked it's just the fault
Of faulty manufacturing.

Everything will be fine
Everything in no time at all

Hold your own
And know your name
Go your own way

Are the details in the fabric (Hold your own)
Are the things that make you panic (Know your name)
Are your thoughts results of static cling? (Go your own way)

Hold your own
Know your name
Go your own way.

Are the details in the fabric (Hold your own)
Are the things that make you panic (Know your name)
Is it Mother Nature's sewing machine? (Go your own way)
Are the things that make you blow (Hold your own)
Hell no reason go on and scream (Know your name)
If you’re shocked it's just the fault (Go your own way)
Of faulty manufacturing

Everything will be fine
Everything in no time at all
Hearts will hold

Sunday, September 27, 2009

Since you are like no other being ever created since the beginning of time, you are incomparable

this is what u wanted;
that it will comes a day;
when u pick up that phone;
and make that call;
at the end of the receiving end;
i will not be there to pick it up;
or even if i do;
i'd say no.

let's have some new cliches

我寄了那天你听后很喜欢的音乐给你;somehow i knew u would actually use it in one of ur ad and i was right; 很喜欢那支短片;没有想到还是有少少的出乎意料;感谢你为我做的联系;接下来要靠自己了;你说原来他有问起我;他问我是你女朋友吗?她不是但她是个好女孩,你说;他没有我的电话号码呀;他也没有问;我问了我开始了;就让我们开始吧;我想已经没有必要去浪费时间了;我喜欢你啊;告诉我很多很多你的事,好吗?就让我们坐在这里开始我们的故事吧...........

Saturday, September 26, 2009

There's always one who loves and one who lets himself be loved

you shouldnt be sad; no, im happy for you; really? yes, really. i love you always and dont you ever forget that.

Friday, September 25, 2009

If a problem has no solution, it may not be a problem, but a fact - not to be solved, but to be coped with over time.

i still remember; he was shy and i felt bit awkward; i knew about him from u; but he wasn't expecting me at all; he was slightly hesitated; then he said we should just go ahead without him; he thought we were together; he didnt know i was here for him; just like meeting everyone for the very first time; i tried to show him my better side instead of my bad one; coz i want to leave a good impression for him too; i hope i did.

Most people would succeed in small things if they were not troubled with great ambitions



Thursday, September 24, 2009

Life is an adventure in forgiveness

everything doesnt seem real;
i smash everything that i can touch and see;
like a dream;
and u just sit there laughing at me;
laughing at me.

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

Originality and the feeling of one's own dignity are achieved only through work and struggle

i wish i could wake up beside u everyday of my life from now on;
then sometimes i think why r we doing what we r doing;
i couldnt find an answer for sure;
guilt is penetrating;
but at the same time joy overtook the feeling of guilt even more;
thats why we r doing what we r doing;
i think;
looking back i dont think u want to be held any responsibility on this;
not at all;
that's where at a point i told myself;
i hated u so.

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

Make voyages! - Attempt them! - there's nothing else...

你就只是喜欢这种感觉吗?没有想过要和我真的在一起;你只要这样就够了吗?又接到你的来讯的这一天;和你喝着咖啡;你告诉我想要介绍一个人给我认识;我默然接受心里却纠结得像什么似的;你放弃我了吗? 想忘记我了吗?不要我了吗?我也只是想让你快乐呀!念头一闪即过;we have to and we must move on, somehow somewhere somewhat and thanks for giving me the chance to try.

He who is drowned is not troubled by the rain

i love making love to you;
do i turn you on?
and you just need to ask;
coz i want to hear it from you;
lust & love.

Monday, September 21, 2009

All existing business models are wrong. Find a new one

i love the way u kiss me and i like the taste of ur kiss;
what taste?
i dunno, the taste of you;
and i wish u have fallen for me the same way ive fallen for u.

Sunday, September 20, 2009

Decide on what you think is right, and stick to it

at the end of the day; it's just you and me; no one else but you and me; i promise.

Saturday, September 19, 2009

First say to yourself what you would be; and then do what you have to do

it was dawn; this is the first time u left before me; u sat by the bed side; "coffee?" i whispered with my sleepy voice; "sleep", u said; u didnt wake me up for coffee; "ur hair is so long now", u touched it and said; "i thought u like it this way?"; "i do"; "be safe, i love u"; u kissed me, got up and walked out from the room; i still feel your soft caress in between sheet and my naked body.

Friday, September 18, 2009

The most important thing in life is to learn how to give out love, and to let it come in

i kind of expected it actually; u could've just text me; u r right but u didnt; instead u called and wasted a bit of ur time talking non-sense to me; "well i know u just want to call and we're not going to hang out tonight, right?"; "says who? what? u think im just using u"; at times i really do feel so; "so what time?"; "huh?"; there u said its still on; im happy and i dont think u can tell from my voice; i was thrilled; u know u make me the happiest person on earth; wanting to see me no matter how short the notice is; u really dont have to do that; i feel uneasy somehow; then again; im just too happy to say no anyway and waiting for u to hurt me again again and again.....

我真的不知道我们在吵些什么;在电话里僵持了5分钟;结论呢?what is the point? look, im sorry; 我的心立刻软了;当争吵的双方其中一个人肯先低声下气去先道歉;无论谁对谁错还有什么好去追究的呢?i'm sorry too and i love you.

Thursday, September 17, 2009

The world is good-natured to people who are good natured

i talk too much about my view; your view and in the end i just wonder if all that matters.

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

We cannot destroy kindred: Our chains stretch a little sometimes, but they never break.

being completely intransigent as she is; unable to read her mind he continues talking; she doesnt mean to be inflexible; he doesnt understand her at all even after so many years; there's not much difference between them; he's trying to let her knows what he feels; she doesnt even care; not anymore; and he wonders what went wrong; that's the end of this; there will never ever be an answer, indefinitely.

For me, words are a form of action, capable of influencing change

im not asking u to change ur plan; just thought maybe u r traveling on ur own and changing plan should be somewhat easy; im not trying to make a fuss out of anything; who am i to care what ur plan is anyway; just thought u need some advice; i appreciate when u said i take things in a different way and u like me to give some feedback; im thru with the things u put me up to long time ago; im not even asking; really im not; im just listening.

Never be a cynic, even a gentle one. Never help out a sneer, even at the devil

sometimes is not just about the 3 little words;
it's more than just saying i love u, i miss u or i am sorry;
i miss all the time i wish we could be together;
i love u just u of being who u are;
i am sorry that i wasnt able to show u all the things i shouldve or couldve;
i promise u whatever it is as long as we stay together;
i will make everything fine;
i want to make it;
with you;
only with you.

Monday, September 14, 2009

Throughout life, one does not miss any chance to hold onto the things that are really precious, if one is truly wise

they look at each other and they say:"yes, i do."

rest in peace to the one who's gone, u will be remembered forever, i wish u well.

Sunday, September 13, 2009

Silent gratitude isn't much use to anyone

and this is true....

u r letting ur pride getting in ur way.

"well, we marry and bury", his pastor said; life and death; norm of life, i guess.

Saturday, September 12, 2009

Never compare your inside with somebody else's outside

Life is no brief candle to me. It is sort of a splendid torch which I have got hold of for a moment,
and I want to make it burn as brightly as possible before handing it on to future generations.
-- George Bernard Shaw (1856-1950) Irish Playwright

No man or woman of the humblest sort can really be strong, gentle and good, without the world being better for it, without somebody being helped and comforted by the very existence of that goodness.
-- Phillips Brooks (1835-1893) American Bishop

A man should never be ashamed to own that he has been in the wrong, which is but saying that he is wiser today than he was yesterday.
-- Alexander Pope (1688-1744) English Poet

Friday, September 11, 2009

Some think it's holding on that makes one strong; sometimes it's letting go

when do u think ull find me boring?
now, i find u soooo boring already;
oh well, when do u wanna get rid of me then?
like in 50 years;
wow, u gonna live that long;
yea, to haunt u;
u shoot me dead, ok?
well, its ok, i think i keep u, u're a good dog
conversation fade away with our laugh.

Thursday, September 10, 2009

It is not enough to succeed. Others must fail

The three great essentials to achieving anything worthwhile are;
first, hard work, second, stick-to-it-iveness, and third, common

-- Thomas A. Edison (1847-1931) American Inventor

If at first you don't succeed, find out if the loser gets anything

he bought a pack of cigarette before going to her apartment; she was waiting for him; "im not seeing anyone the way im seeing u"; "what? im suppose to be happy with that?"; "no, that's not what i meant, i just want u to know"; "in some other world, in some other time, could you have loved me?"; "i don't know, i hate hypothetical question, u know that? i cant even say for sure now, what do i know about some other world and some other time?"; "u dont even want to try and what am i thinking that u might actually put more effort into this than that, i guess im just wrong, plain wrong"

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

Enjoy when you can, and endure when you must

u said u r fond of me and im happy...coz usually people either say like or love, then with u it comes "fond", it's a in between word which means more than like but less than love......i know wht u mean; i fond of u too....too fond of u now.....i would even say love....yea, i love u, u know, in my silly crazy kinda way, not as lover....but as my "u know who"......just something cute that happens between us, let's take it that way. ill love u, alwaz do and alwaz will in my way now, alright?

i dont have the feeling of being used; thats why i stick around; i asked those questions was just really out of curiosity; not jealousy; u gave me a really safe answer; said just in case, u dont want me to compare; actually i just want u to be happy even without me; like i said, i wont believe u if u told me there was no one else anyway.

每一次闻到你的香水;我都会记起那天;我们收拾行李那天;我问你那支红色的香水;你对我说:“我要香香的”; 我只记得你好可爱。
你穿裙子真的很好很好看; 配上高跟鞋-perfect;你又弄笑我了;你这样我想起刚认识你的时候;那个模样;是好事吗?不坏;你让我看见你别的样子;variety.

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

If you haven't forgiven yourself something, how can you forgive others?

this is ridiculous? we dont even know what we are arguing about? what is the point? i dont see it and even if i did, i might not be able to understand it; not your way; and u r just going to sit there; fine, great, make my day.

im sorry, can we start over? is it possible? what do u want from me?

i dont want to assume that is alright to leave some clothes behind so i dont have to go back home every time i spent a night with you;
i dont want to assume that is alright to stay for breakfast or coffee without knowing that what time u should be going to work and u probably rushing or getting late;
i dont want to assume that is alright to spend time with u because im already at ur doorstep and that makes u feel that u oblige to do something;
i dont want to assume that everything is going to be alright because u tell me is going to be fine;
and i never ever assume that u will love me back just because i love u.

Monday, September 7, 2009

The man who is swimming against the stream knows the strength of it

the more we argue the more we forget what we are arguing about in the very first place; and u dont even seem to remember it's not because of that anymore; all that is beside the point that u cant or dont really see.

You do not need to leave your room. Remain sitting at your table and listen. Do not even listen, simply wait, be quiet, still and solitary. The world will freely offer itself to you to be unmasked, it has no choice, it will roll in ecstasy at your feet.
-- Franz Kafka

When life seems chaotic, you don't need people giving you easy answers or cheap promises. There might not be any answers to your problems. What you need is a safe place where you can bounce with people who have taken some bad hops of their own.
-- Real Live Preacher, Weblog, August 12, 2003

Sunday, September 6, 2009

It's kind of fun to do the impossible.

一样; 点了latte;

Saturday, September 5, 2009

What people say you cannot do, you try and find that you can

我没有说话;“你很喜欢他吧?”; 妳看着我;我看着妳;我还是没有说话;“我也曾经爱过这一个男人,十年前的事了”; “你还爱着他?”; 我就只问了一句; “有什么用呢?他都不爱我了,people move on, u know? 有些事强求不来, 放在心里吧,如果这样做会让你好过一些的话”; 没有再去想难过不难过的事了;“其实到现在我还是想不通他心里想的是什么”; 我想告诉她:“他没有爱过我,我们只是朋友, 我很没用”;到最后我还是没有说话。

No fear. No distractions. The ability to let that which does not matter truly slide

"do u miss home?"; "sometimes"; "and what about a family?"; "i dont deserve that kind of happiness"; it's shocking to know people have such thinking; u r a totally negative soul; "dont u believe in anything?"; "i dont even believe myself"; "but were u happy when we were together?"; "yes, i was very happy, very very happy"; im flattered.

Friday, September 4, 2009

Work and struggle and never accept an evil that you can change

Your horoscope for September 4, 2009
It could be that you find yourself in a situation in which you may or may not make a commitment in a relationship, YP. It could also be that old demons come back to haunt you about the freedom of movement you have, and create doubts in you. Some advice: don't listen to them because if you do, you may go back ten paces in your sentimental life. Roll the dice and make a decision.

Maybe I wanted to hear it so badly that my ears betrayed my mind in order to secure my heart

以为已经没有再需要流的泪了; 以为自己已经不会再难过了;一年又一年;悸动的感觉还在;想要逃得远远的;是脑子不听使唤;还是我的心;倒数着那一段曾经倒数过的日子;曾经沧海难为水,除去巫山不是云。

Thursday, September 3, 2009

The greatest thing in the world is to know how to belong to oneself

u smoking ur last cigarette from the pack; "i stop asking question about you and me a long long time ago;" I'm drinking my coffee; "u know i enjoy spending time with u, even very quietly, even without doing anything"; "what do u think about me?"; "what do u mean?"; "just simply, what do u think about me? it's a simple question, no?"; "u? i like u, like i told u, i like being with u"; "that's all"; "yes, that's all"; "oh ok"; "why? what?"; "nothing"; "there must be something"; "but who am i to u to ask anyway"; "my dear, i know what u thinking about and i know what u want to ask"; i take ur cigarette and have a puff; i then kiss you; "i know this much, i love you now, future is a big word and it scares me, i just want u to be with me like this, right here, right now but if u want to leave, i'd understand"; no, i don't think u will ever understand; but i want to stay with u anyway until the end; if only u let me.
The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core

But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you I'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed but I have loved you from the start

Oh, But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It's impossible
So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in
I'm yours to keep
And hold on to your words
Cause talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When you're asleep

Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find

Tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find