Monday, November 25, 2013

First keep the peace within yourself, then you can also bring peace to others.

i was really just sharing without much thought; things that happening around us; people wont give way while getting out from an elevator; chicks sitting laughing having their breakfast; what's going on in their mind; what will they do when they grow up even though they ought to grow up already; we have so much things to say around us; so much comment; even nasty remarks that came to our mind; how one been educated; you were talking about individual; a little universal on our own with 100 selected people; to me even 100 are too much;  im just too anti-social; or maybe too ridiculously picky; at least to me we really just need little things to be happy; just tiny little things; not 100 definitely not 100.

Saturday, November 23, 2013

It is easier to get forgiveness than permission.

i was real sick; from a hangover; dont want to even hear the word "beer"; that's very rare; i texted you on Friday night; rushing thru a meet; rushing thru a beer; rushing thru to you; rushing everything without wanting to miss a moment with you.

Friday, November 22, 2013

If you do not tell the truth about yourself you cannot tell it about other people.

他和她之间有一份情是你和他之间没有的;就是那一份情; 而你不能说就这样而已。

Monday, November 18, 2013

If you are patient in one moment of anger you will save a thousand daysof sorrow.

18112013; 1630; pronto; please please tell me that you are free for dinner tonight; i have to i guess because you already replied i could; it's alright i don't have any particular plan; just thought it'll be nice to have the evening by myself because we are really spending a bit much time together and your phone call was really sudden and i was really taken aback; then since when i ever say no to you anyway; again; i always love to spend time with you; whether you know it or not.

Sunday, November 17, 2013

Write a wise saying and your name will live forever.

i wasn't hurt; more like a puzzlement; why did you do it; just go was my last word; man will always be man; match point and im trying to generalize and rationalize things; i guess at the end of the day; if we switch role; women are well capable of doing the same thing; coffee i asked; i know for sure i will run to your direction and you are my sanctuary in time like this; what surprised me was actually you thought of calling me too; so we watched 2 movies casually chatting; you really keen for me to stay longer; you mad at yourself for some screw ups; but you have all your alone time in the world; you have to learn to be calmer; but i had fun and i will miss you again; really soon. 

Because things are the way they are, things will not stay the way they are.


Saturday, November 16, 2013

The young do not know enough to be prudent, and therefore they attempt the impossible -- and achieve it, generation after generation.

i know you for 7 years; this is the first time you ask me about my ex; 如果过了其实再说什么都没意思了;毕竟你们相爱那么多年了;life happens i guess; you cant blame it on life; every decision you made you made it yourself; no one is prepared for that kind of stuff; they just have to do it; i was telling you about myself; i was prepared to do everything to solve it; even made the most stupid decision in my life believe that it could changed things; he didn't know what he missing out; it's pointless now really; but with you two i see two selfish useless prick with a lot of excuses; you guys could've done much much more; so much more; but i do not want to judge because i really don't know about you both to say; but to tell you the truth, even with you i was ready; so so ready.

Friday, November 15, 2013

How far that little candle throws its beams! So shines a good deed in a naughty world.

heavy rain early in the morning; need to attend meeting; 0740; called you; what you wanna come over and have breakfast? what do you want? how do you know? im just simply saying; but i am nearby and do you want to have breakfast together; eggs, bacon, milk, coffee, toast; all under an hour; we chit chat and you also have the intention to study; i told you about my further study plan; then next time you can drop by again if you have another one of your meeting; the truth is i try to involve you less and less in my life but somehow it comes out totally the opposite; i wonder if i am doing something wrong or something right.

Thursday, November 14, 2013

The reward of a thing well done is to have done it.

just take it Christmas comes early; what? im not gonna see you for xmas? i like the surprising tone; of course ill see you but i rather give it to you first.

Wednesday, November 13, 2013

It is a wise man who said that there is no greater inequality than the equal treatment of unequals.

looking back i wonder; if i was the one who bold enough to ask you to be together with me; will you say yes and will we be together now; because that's what she did; because she made the move and that's why you guys are still together right now; right now even though she left you; she left you.

Tuesday, November 12, 2013

The person who says it cannot be done should not interrupt the person doing it.

Was it really just that simple; only this morning you were telling me I'm funny, twice; and how we began to sort of like each other enough to stay long with a phone conversation; then in the evening another phone call that could potentially spoilt it all; I told you what I dislike; maybe it's the wrong words; maybe it didn't came out right; maybe it sounds wrong; all this misunderstanding and misinterpretation leaves a funny taste in my mouth; I called and clarify which you said you are alright and have moved on; I can't help but think is there more to it than this simple mistake; you said be yourself say whatever you want to say then another time you say how can you be so blunt and not tihink about what you said; in the end lets just say I am who I am I say what I say if you don't like it you can get the fuck out of my way.

Nothing can resist a will which will stake even existence upon its fulfillment.

i need to stop;

i hate to benchmark other using the benchmark i benchmark you with.

Monday, November 11, 2013

Wise sayings often fall on barren ground, but a kind word is never thrown away.

Well you only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go
Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you're missing home
Only know you love her when you let her go
And you let her go

Staring at the bottom of your glass
Hoping one day you'll make a dream last
But dreams come slow and they go so fast
You see her when you close your eyes
Maybe one day you'll understand why
Everything you touch surely dies

But you only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go
Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you're missing home
Only know you love her when you let her go

Staring at the ceiling in the dark
Same old empty feeling in your heart
'Cause love comes slow and it goes so fast
Well you see her when you fall asleep
But never to touch and never to keep
'Cause you loved her too much and you dive too deep

Well you only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go
Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you're missing home
Only know you love her when you let her go
And you let her go
Oh oh oh no
And you let her go
Oh oh oh no
Well you let her go

'Cause you only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go
Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you're missing home
Only know you love her when you let her go

'Cause you only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go
Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you're missing home
Only know you love her when you let her go
And you let her go

Sunday, November 10, 2013

The reward of a thing well done is to have done it.

Thank you - for your love, for your kindness, for your understanding, for your care, for the shoes; im forever grateful.

Saturday, November 9, 2013

Happy are those who dream dreams and are ready to pay the price to make them come true.

we have spent almost everyday together this week, except for Thursday; you know we spend awfully lots of time together, i dont know if is a good thing or a bad thing; to me its definitely a good thing;  you know what and to me too; for all the word you correcting me; for all the things you are making fun of me with when im on my retainer now; for all the opinion u asked of me about that logo of yours; for the breakfast you prepared me; for the two coffee i made you; it's the simplest and purest form of happiness i see.

The vision must be followed by the venture. It is not enough to stare up the steps - We must step up the stairs.

that would be your hip; when i ask you about my sexiest bit; both you and i are loving those super skinny jeans; looks real good on you so next time i know what to buy you; wear sexy stuff more; reveal yourself; show it off; don't be shy; you have a great sexy body; i like the way you touch me squeeze me and hurting me unintentionally; i want you to photograph me, naked, tonight.

Friday, November 8, 2013

True love always makes a man better, no matter what woman inspires it.


Thursday, November 7, 2013

The self is not something that one finds. It is something that one creates.

you fell asleep; when you awake; we started to touch each other; all i hear you say is "I Want You!".

Man has never made any material as resilient as the human spirit

Did you smoke?

I didn't realise that the smell would linger. 

I lied, I told him I got offered cigarette by someone. 

I didn't want him to know I want to let loose in Italy. I didn't think he will do that with me, not the thing I had in my mind to go, to escape, to go away, far far away, just me and him. 

Wednesday, November 6, 2013

Action removes the doubt that theory cannot solve.


Is the life I'm living the life that wants to live in me?

i wrote him a letter; about everything all over again; the same thing happened; it's identical; we talked, feel emotional and yet, nothing seems to change; because deep inside this just feels right; i know for sure that i will never ever be the one; i can let go that part of you now and start to look for another way that we have tried before on how to be with each other which hopefully it will work this time; we were talking for so long; on being old; on his predicament on cannot undo something in the past and now affecting his future decision; it's very vague and metaphorically; i cant put it together; i cant help; i don't even know what he is trying to say; is it relationship; is it work; is it financial crisis; he way past mid life crisis or too late to should be in whatever crisis that he is in; he mentioned her; how strong; discreet as me and how she plays a big part in his life holding everything together; on how he has this duty in him; to try harder; to be there; to do; that sound like he owing her something; you have just one life; he said he will tell me one day; someday i guess; no matter; he said we are a different breed; people are hard to get people like us; so once we found each other we grab on to each other tight; afraid of letting go and then couldn't find each other again anymore; he said he's being real cliché tonight; since when we are not; i like how he describe a dear friend which really put great effort to stay close to him which this friend believes: that no matter what, he believes he is doing his best; and how i would like to become this kind of friend to him; without any fuss; without any string attach; no sexual baggage but still feel emotional deep inside; we talked about sexuality but that kind of mess up; he can stand still somehow he has to move anyway; make a decision and go, whether right or wrong; what is wrong and what is right; who to know; who would ask; who can we ask; how people compartmentalise relationship; give things label; how i am very special; how death is actually part of us; what is the fine line in between the compartment; how we should define things horizontally; how certain someone could be everything to you; that i really didn't change much; that we both enjoy us; enjoy this; enjoy now - for such an emotional & beautiful night.

Tuesday, November 5, 2013

Life leaps like a geyser for those willing to drill through the rock of inertia.

Being with you doesn't make me better and it doesn't make me bad; I would rather I be bad so at least there's something;  anything is better than nothing;  I need progress;  I need to move the fuck on.

Monday, November 4, 2013

If passion drives, let reason hold the reins.

It blurs out the line; sometimes or should I say I no longer know by you asking me to stay is for totally selfish reason or really is just that you want to see me; either way I still think all that matter and all the more we can be with each other there is still this politeness that we have that we won't take each other for granted. I guess that's really really the reason why. But still your haircut looks good.

Sunday, November 3, 2013

The three great essentials to achieving anything worthwhile are; first, hard work, second, stick-to-it-iveness, and third, common sense.

Maybe you really shouldn't get too used of the idea of me being in your life; because in the end I know this closeness will destroy us; eventually; I really do know it.

Saturday, November 2, 2013

Choice of attention, to pay attention to this and ignore that, is to the inner life what choice of action is to the outer.

that'd be nice; the line that always started it all; Sunday we landed; you asked me to stay; we spent time played game most of the time; those silly little kill time games on trivia/ true or false/ about movie;  i really like the trip back on the train how you allowed me to put my legs up on your luggage; it's just a little thing but still; then we woke the next morning with great coffee; we slept off the jetlag quite well; i hope i was a better cure for you on this; i called a cab and it got here faster that i expected; you thought i would stayed longer; you're a beast; im gone for the day; i need my time too; you called; asking to go pick up some stuff at a later time; yes of course we go together without any hesitation at all; again we spent a day together chit chatting, you need a hair cut; looking at logos, watching you work on your bass passionately; i always think it's a good thing to do something you love; to be with someone you love; then we watch movie; she called twice; been turned away; uncomfortable feeling arises; i should stop; i should go; i shouldn't' be in the way; i did; i cut the evening short; i go away even without finishing the movie; you let me because you know is the right thing to do; you didn't insist for me to stay; i get the signal; that's when i decided i should bring it up again; i wrote you a mail; you responded by inviting me over for dinner after your grocery shopping even though you are having a headache; you said you wanted to reply to my mail but you don't know how to; i stayed for the night even without a change of clothes; if you want to do it you will make things happen; then we were together again early Friday morning; then Saturday where i went away because i have no intention to stay thru the qualifying that will finish at 11 o'clock; but on Sunday you said you need a hair cut; i spent the whole day with you to get your hair cut; glue your bass; bought dinner and watched the final competition together; a few words to conclude a week; that's how we should end it i guess; im thinking we just need a moment and you took a week.

what a week!

Friday, November 1, 2013

Take what you can use and let the rest go by.

1 November 2013, 10:23am day 15

Today is my last day in Rome, I am really taking it easy to the max I woke at 6.30am nonetheless, pack my picnic bag which consist of banana, yogurt, beer, chips, sandwiches and all the food I'm planning to finish today, so I don't leave anything at the host place.

I have no real plan today really, I check out the map and app, there's still some places that is off the path, small little place that might worth checking out.

So I got out and went to the corner cafe Willy for my usual, the cafe guy recognize me as I don't need to even say it he already mention un cappuccino for me, then you understand why people like the routine. That will be my last cup of cappuccino there, I will miss the warmth of that little cafe. Then, I walked to the train station because I want to make sure about them schedule, which means tomorrow I'll be leaving the house by 6am. Walking back to the main road, I decided to hop on the tram, which will be the first time for me in Italy, it brings me a couple of stop then I decided to get down at trasvere, because even though I stay there and pass by via public transport everyday, but I never really make a stop. So I check the app on nearby attraction and found a church, to be one of the oldest that worth a go. I walked around and found it, somehow gotten a bit off the track, so I trace back to the main road and reroute myself to take the public transportation to termini again, from there kick off my day in Roma central.

I took the metro and stop at spagna where some greenery can be found, here I am sitting in villa borghese, enjoying my sandwich and chip. I even found the little green cinema.

After that I get back to the metro and walk towards Spanish steps in order to find some so called local famous gelato and tiramisu. In the end everything here taste good, so I guess whatever in the review that stated must try, must have, most probably overrated.

I didn't do much visiting and photo shooting, just stroll around leisurely and gosh the tourists come in by the dozen and dozen. I'm glad I was able to enjoy Rome in its queiter moment. I even bought three pair of jeans so I can throw all the old one, yay!

I guess I will wrap it up for today, later on heather my host was nice enough to invite me to join their little Halloween party, I guess as I'm the folded bed guest, would be odd not to join, what am I gonna do sitting there in the living room, right? Perhaps I can even have some real hot meal too :)

In the end for all the travel you done or might want to do, what really matter is not so much the journey, it's rather who you go with. To me there is someone far to reach, hard to find, so let's just say I'm happy and contented being who I am for now. I concluded that this 15 day trip allowed me to experience Italy wit  it's best and worst. Let's just leave it at that and make this memory of italy trip worth the while.

I have to say, Malaysia I so miss you !