Saturday, October 31, 2009

Always forgive your enemies; nothing annoys them so much


两段:

起码知道he is not looking;
如果对你说没事是假的;
心情一下子跌到谷底;
但人家对你坦白了;
还能说什么呢;
我也不差呀;
不是你的问题;
还是吻了他;
然后把他电话立刻给删掉了;
已经没有必要将它留下了;
没有必要。



不小心遗下的;
10分钟;
你一直很客气;
i dont want to start something that i cant finish;
只是表达的方式不一样而已;
对他有另外一种感觉;
每一次都很短然后他就完全释放掉了;
像是烟花一样就一刹那;
我还没有能够捉摸到;
没有放很多心思去想接下来会怎样;
会再见的;
先搁着吧;
也好。

Pain nourishes courage. You can't be brave if you've only had wonderful things happen to you


I'm okay with being unimpressive. I sleep better.
- Mark

Friday, October 30, 2009

You cannot slander human nature; it is worse than words can paint it
















291009 - 1901 - 在市中心乱逛;接到你的电话;在做什?没做什么在回家;一起吃个饭吗?我在弄pasta;我立刻把另外一个原本要赴的约给推了; 才知道原来你在我心目中这么这么重要;无论在做什么我都可以立刻放下;好爱你哦; 好想对你说;最后你也没有为我煮pasta;但是就在附近的mamak随便吃了个饭;没有什么能够比和你在一起更开心的了;你又在说着你的工作、近况、你的band、你就要build的低音吉他、陪着你画你的吉他草稿一整晚; 喝着酒;抽着烟;都不觉得累;你其实是累了的;我看得出来;但是你也像我一样;在我身边想让我开心;你也就说我累无所谓;因为想看到你微笑的样子;我笑了。

别人怎么想怎么说我都不在乎;我在乎的只是你;因为你不是别人。

Thursday, October 29, 2009

Not a day passes over this earth but men and women of note do great deeds, speak great words and suffer noble sorrows















今天你好吗?
今天带着没有什么期待的心情;
今天我只是想和你去公园走走;
一起坐在绿色的草地上;
就算没有聊天;
就算没有做什么;
这是我的今天。

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Men who never get carried away should be


this is just another affair;
i told myself;
i fall for you;
the same;
i cant helped it;
i know it will hurt;
and i know i will get better;
but images of being with you last nite;
keep on appearing in my mind;
ur soft voice;
ur polite manner;
ur tender kisses;
ur gentle touch;
just let me miss u for now;
for that's the only thing i can do;
for now....

Do not go where the path may lead, go instead where there is no path and leave a trail


我没有想到我们会见;我们一直在约都没有成;两个多月的事了;那天已经很晚了;你还是坚持我过去;到你家的时候已经2330了;要喝些红酒吗?唔;我们就坐着没有说话;我将burn好了的cd交给你;给你的;我说;这是你在我车里听到的;all the mellow songs; 啊,谢谢你;how was your day, 我问; tired as usual; 我抚摸着你看起来有一些憔悴的脸;已经很久没有像这样静静地在家里呆了;每晚我都出去应酬或者是要招呼朋友很晚才到家;今晚很高兴你能来陪我;就不用做什么;静静的;就这样;你把头枕在我的大腿上;听着那张cd;刚巧是damien rice的歌;你像是在朦胧中睡着了;然后突然间我想起一句话;我轻轻念了一段:“I just need to know that someone out there listens and understands and doesn't try to sleep with people even if they could have. I need to know that these people exist.“, 我很喜欢这本书: The Perks of Being a Wallflower. -- 完 --

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

All that counts in life is intention


Gueorgui Pinkhassov: "The power of our Muse lies in her meaninglessness. Even the style can turn one into a slave if one does not run away from it, and then one is doomed to repeat oneself. The only thing that counts is curiosity. For me personally, this is what creativity is about. It will express itself less in the fear of doing the same thing over again than in the desire not to go where one has already been."

Seek not happiness too greedily, and be not fearful of happiness


"you are so cute!!!", he yelled;
"ask me out sometimes", she replied;
that is just so freaking random;
but she feels so awesome at the same time!!!

"hey there, how was your weekend?";
one sms and he's back into my life;
just like that..

Monday, October 26, 2009

What we hope ever to do with ease we may learn first to do with diligence



换上了一袭新的裙子;深蓝色的;米色高跟鞋; 剪了头发;你很美;应该每天都这样;会有很多为你着迷的男子;其中一个会是你吗?就像是定了似的每一年我会为你漂亮就一次;然后假装沉醉在一个就只有我们的世界里;北印度式晚餐;吃着聊着一堆;你没有离开的原因;想着和我去旅行;你的家人;母亲的慷慨从容和原谅;耽误了行程的工作但其实你却是暗地里高兴着这次你必须留下;你如愿了;所以我也高兴因为又可以和你在一起一段时间了;你真的把这里当成家了;这里让你有很多的眷恋;根本没有理由出走或离开;你爱上了这里;你就是有一套永远让我摸不着头脑的原则;而我;我只希望你会爱上我;从开始到现在;就是这么简单而已。
悠闲的星期一早上;像不用上班一样;我找了一个借口好让我能够为你准备早餐;你说咖啡机器坏了;所以我们只好喝茶;弄了两份简单的早餐;我知道你很挑剔;所以我永远不可能可以为你做到最好;这一点我很没用;我希望你能对我宽容一些;我希望你没有看出来;我希望你不会看不起我;我希望你能看到我的用心;我希望你看到我很努力很努力地去讨你欢心;我还有很多很多的希望;而你是我最大的希望动力;我希望你会知道。

Sunday, October 25, 2009

Friday, October 23, 2009

Common sense is the best sense I know of













独坐着;等着; 你调了两杯酒;蓝色的;名字是“蓝爵士”,你说;慢慢喝着;味道还不错;也根本不知道你竟然会调酒;播放着jamie cullum的歌曲;你说去年看过他的演唱会;我羡慕;我看着你;你看着我;之间环绕着我们的是一种很sensual的感觉;多于sexual;虽然在这一刻其实我很想吻你。

You have got to discover you, what you do, and trust it


但是你不能这样啊;我会误会的;可能那小小的动作你不以为意;那眼神;那微笑;那抚摸;那拥抱;那神情;那一切一切;我却因为这小小的一切一切而心动了;所以请你真的不要这样;我真的会误会的;真的。

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

I despise the pleasure of pleasing people that I despise


0504; 没有什么要怨的;只能怪自己无聊;别人根本没有提起你;其实我原来只是想告诉你:我很累很累。

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Monday, October 19, 2009

A single day is enough to make us a little larger

Guard your honor. Let your reputation fall where it will. And outlive the bastards



还来得及在你离开前见一面;
你不想离开;
你想念家人但这个不是理由;
你不想离开;
你宁愿因为工作你必须留下;
你宁愿那样;
你又提起短片的事;
我无所谓;
只是觉得没有必要成为一份子;
毕竟你是很大一个人了。

you know if we have stopped seeing each other like we said we would a year ago;
none of this would have happened;
and that'd be a real shame;
real real shame.

Sunday, October 18, 2009

Man has never made any material as resilient as the human spirit


"so why the fuck does all this matter? why now?"
"i don't know, i think its time";
those are my last words;
i haven't really disclosed much of myself;
not to her;
not this way;
i confronted her finally;
the other day;
i can see all her anger;
mostly frustration;
i must confess i'm weak;
i don't know it caused that much of pain;
i love her;
it's killing me too much;
to leave it as it is and just go on;
pretending;
now i just hope;
she will love me back;
like how she used to;
then everything will be ok.

Friday, October 16, 2009

Always do right. This will gratify some people and astonish the rest




我泡好了两杯咖啡;拿上楼;看着你;你还在睡;很沉;轻轻的鼻鼾声;看了5分钟;我舍不得弄醒你;但是原来你是已经醒来了的;我们在互相猜着;留下了字条先走的还是我。

you are sleeping so sound;
i dont want to wake u;
i show myself out;
key is in the mailbox;
thanks for dinner and everything;
have a nice day;
and sorry coffee is cold.

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

There are some that only employ words for the purpose of disguising their thoughts




他说还会在这里多留一阵子;一年或者两年;更可能三年;还是说四年;但是这么远久的东西;有什么说得准的;我只是希望和他这段友情不会变。

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

All that is human must retrograde if it does not advance













because if u r not careful; u might forget who u r;
because if u leave it there for too long; it might disappear forever;
because if u ask the wrong question; u might never get there;
because if u dont care; u might not see it again tomorrow;
because life is so much more than just because and if.

Monday, October 12, 2009

Of course there is no formula for success except perhaps an unconditional acceptance of life and what it brings


每一天他会传短讯问声好;有时候msn; 都只是问声好;没有别的话;也许他只是为了不想让我忘记他的存在;因为我对他还有一些利用价值。

还记得你最后一次心动是什么时候吗?

Sunday, October 11, 2009

Who is more busy than he who hath least to do?


原来你还记得那天我们见面;我轻轻抚摸你的背;你说你很喜欢这种温柔的感觉;你在启程前用了15分钟和我短短地见了个面;我们之间也还是一样;没有爱的感觉。

Saturday, October 10, 2009

I always find it more difficult to say the things I mean than the things I don't



还有10天倒数中;我知道你没有存心想要伤害我;你可能完全都不知道;但是你确实在伤害着我;很深很深地伤害着我。

Thursday, October 8, 2009

The important thing is this: to be able at any moment to sacrifice what we are for what we could become


maybe i should just withdraw myself before we even start;
im afraid and fear that i will lose myself in front of u;
i know u r about to get involve with me intimately;
with no string attach;
just like the other;
we know what we're doing;
we know we wont get hurt;
this is just a game that is too risky for me to play;
i mean for the me now.

071009; 2122; 终于等到了那通等了许久的来电;已经三个星期多了;是他;我真的很喜欢他;我没有否认过;我希望他察觉到我在给他机会。

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

Attitude determines altitude


i want someone that spend everyday with me and still tell me im sexy.

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

Seeing ourselves as others see us would probably confirm our worst suspicions about them


quotes that are too good to ignore.....

The important thing is this: to be able at any moment to sacrifice what we are for what we could become.
-- Charles Du Bos

We spend most of our time and energy in a kind of horizontal thinking. We move along the surface of things [but] there are times when we stop. We sit still. We lose ourselves in a pile of leaves or its memory. We listen and breezes from a whole other world begin to whisper.
-- James Carroll

We've always been here and we'll always be here. We are a specific arrangement of particles and this instant is infinite. Did we luck out, or didn't we? The odds against this sentence having ever being typed, much less the odds against you reading it were inconceivable. Smile, because the fact that you're able to is almost impossible to comprehend.
-- Jeffrey Rowland, Sound! 12-22-05

Sanity calms, but madness is more interesting


"don't you trust me?" - a line from a Levi's ad.

Anything looked at closely becomes wonderful


061009:11:06 - 03:33; 你没有忘记我;我也没有忘记你;三年了;原来你真的很了解我;你知道我有很多事藏在心里没有说;我喜欢你的吻比他的多;你的温柔让我爱你比爱他更多。

Monday, October 5, 2009

There comes a time in every man's life and I've had many of them


有所谓吗其实?我和你就像偷情一样;你在这一个和下一个会议之间的空隙里约了我;我们匆匆见了个面;你抱着我对我说你忙透了还有其他有的没有的事;我没有回应就只是听着;你想我怎样呢?我们连出去也不能牵手呀; 所以我觉得根本没有必要告诉你有关我的事;你到底想在我的生命里留下什么样的印呢?怎么说我还是觉得你没有资格。

i told u about this bout million of times; if u dont mean it dont say it; if u wont do it dont even think about it; words mean a lot to me; promise means even more; everything u said that u wish to do with me; to me it's a promise; big or small; no matter; it's something we want to do to each other whle we together; u dont just simply say and dont mean whtever u said; i hate that.


I can remember when the air was clean and sex was dirty.
-- George Burns

and i remember way back when life is actually simpler;
girl likes boy;
boy likes girl;
they nod;
both say yes;
they hold hands and kiss;
i just like it this way....
but they dont do it like that anymore;
not anymore.

Sunday, October 4, 2009

We are never deceived; we deceive ourselves


a very brief 2 hours meet;
a walk in the park;
so casual, no expectation;
and then he asked: "what is this attraction?";
is it the way we met?
is it the way you smile?
is it the way she looks at me?
is it the way we talk to each other?
sexual tension is hidden somewhere in between;
without knowing whether is there something more;
could there be more?
or could this be just another brief affair encounter?

Saturday, October 3, 2009

Friday, October 2, 2009

Be sincere; be brief; be seated


Sure I know you'd like to have me
Talk about my future
And a million words or so to fill you in about my past
Have I sisters or a brother
When's my birthday how's my mother
Well my dear in time I'll answer all those things you ask

But for now I'll just say I love you
Nothing more seems important somehow
And tomorrow can wait come whatever
Let me love you forever but right now
Right now

Some fine day when we go walking
We'll take time for idle talking
Sharing every feeling as we watch each other smile
I'll hold your hand you'll hold my hand
We'll say things we never had planned
Then we'll get to know each other in a little while

But for now let me say I love you
Later on there'll be time for so much more
But for now meaning now and forever
Let me kiss you my darling then once more
Once more

But for now let me say I love you
Later on I must know much more of you
But for now here and now how I love you
As you are in my arms I love you
I love you
I love you

Thursday, October 1, 2009

Courtesy is simply doing unto others what you would like them to do unto you


放工驾车回家的途中;电话响;在做什么?回家;来我家吧;你一直称赞我穿的白衬衫黑色的skinny jeans很好看;然后你说:走!我们去买鞋;所以然后我们走走逛逛一个多小时就只是为了找一双适合我的高跟鞋;你向我解释了一整套女人因高跟鞋而美丽,世界因高跟鞋而伟大的理论;如常你在说我在听的理论;所以你一定要买一双会让你更漂亮的;我一直在试鞋而你一直在看;帮我弄着衣服裤子叫我转圈;几乎每一双你都说好;我选好了一双但是在犹豫着;我买给你;我不允许;你又不是我的谁;但你穿很好看只是要开始练习猫步而已;最后我还是没有买下来;因为我不想让你觉得说我是为你而买的;但如果我买下它的话其实是为了你;我真的是只想要讨你欢心;我又在骗自己了;还有你特别问我可以为你做一件事吗;就是下次见面的时候穿上裙子和高跟鞋;我笑笑点头。

i like you sleeping on this side of the bed;
why?
coz i see you;
and i like to see you everytime when i wake up.