Tuesday, December 31, 2013

I would rather be right and die than be wrong and kill













last day of the year and im still fucking confuse!

原来我内心的忐忑不安不是来自于对你的放不开;而是我那对你放不开之后停顿着而不能大步大步迈向前的窘境;我很自私;我知道这样对别人很不公平;我只能坦白从宽;我不知道会拖到什么时候;i do not want to give you false hope; i rather you slap me in the face and then i will actually feel better.

Monday, December 30, 2013

He is a man of sense who does not grieve for what he has not, but rejoices in what he has.













27122013, 12:03noon. Let her go. The passenger. you heard this song; thought of me; maybe it's time to lemme go.

Saturday, December 28, 2013

Know how to ask. There is nothing more difficult for some people, nor for others, easier.














our kind of people will look for our kind of people; it is difficult with the opposite; you speaking a language that i am the only one who understand.

Friday, December 27, 2013

There is always a well-known solution to every human problem--neat, plausible, and wrong.















真的是如此;我们只能约彼此出来在不同的地方吃饭、聊天、喝咖啡、做伴;我们都在互相敷衍着彼此很多很表面的;现在到以后每当我听到任何一首我曾经给过你的歌我都会不由自主地想起你;我怎么能够骗我自己说我不在乎呢?写着写着电话又响起了;是你;你听到了那首歌然后想起了我;就这样;不断地重复着; 这样的我们会很虚假吗?我们会到最后互相讨厌对方吗?请你就算讨厌我也要欺骗我因为我不能想象自己去讨厌你,真的。

Thursday, December 26, 2013

Enjoyment is not a goal, it is a feeling that accompanies important ongoing activity.














i do realise before you even tell me or say anything; that you have something more; that there is something you are not telling; that we suddenly talk about body fat we need to lose and you asked me to show you my muscle; what is that gotto do with anything; we've been hiding too much; way beyond the point that we dont even know how to tell each other; for reason we need not investigate.

i just miss you, really really miss you.

Wednesday, December 25, 2013

To live at this time is an inestimable privilege, and a sacred obligation devolves upon you to make right use of your opportunities.



















if i follow you too closely; if i get too clingy; if i ever get too much; would you just let me know; or would you just turn away without a word; i might and will never know; nonetheless; i wish you well, have a very merry christmas and happy happy new year together with your love; can you forgive me for being so childish; because i can only love you more and more. 

Tuesday, December 24, 2013

Be faithful to that which exists nowhere but in yourself - and thus make yourself indispensable.
















bit and pieces from what i remember; 我们没有见面整整十多天你就几句话轻描淡写的带过了;你只是对我说由于一些很私人很私人的理由不能都对我说;it's been a really stress few days in the beginning; as usual; it gets better now; you dont want to be big; you want to be influencial; you also told me about a new job you kind of dont care about but you will still do it anyway; 你对我说我应知道的你都已经告诉了我你问我你还想知道什么我没有说出来;你要我问什么呢;你叫我怎么启齿呢;都这么多年了;然后我才知道原来她一直以来都知道我的存在;你叫我怎么能够自自然然地面对她呢;为什么你告诉她关于我的而我却什么都不知道呢;这一刻我真的是不知所措无言以对;还能说什么呢;就真的是很单纯的希望我们在一起而已;原来都是可以的;一直以来是我庸人自扰;烦恼自己找;那么我要怨谁去呢;自己想太多;i miss you; give me a kiss; 是那么的真实和肯定;你一定是有你的苦衷所以我真的没有去问;何必呢;见到你就这么开心了;touching you; seeing you; why dont you call if you miss me; you didnt call too; i did; we still arguing; we cant helped it; dont say no to me and i keep on saying no to you; because this is the thing we do; dont you remember? i thought the worst thing that could happened was just you ask me to meet her; i guess im wrong this could be much worse; you said you dont want to lie; dont want to do things behind her back; now you dont need to; you happy this way; everything is out of the way; i dont know what exactly you told her and what she knew; she knows enough you said i just have to believe you until our next problem arises, until then, let us be; until then; your last words: so I see you after Xmas, ok? Yes we will and I want to!

Monday, December 23, 2013

The real measure of your wealth is how much you'd be worth if you lost all your money.















231213; 1049: 没接到你的电话;10055; 给你回电, 你在驾车;又借了朋友的车;还是在很忙很忙;我已经很习惯了;那我们明天见咯;不是今天吗?没有说好呀;可以今天也可以明天;我就决定了下来了今天吧;心里想见就见吧不用扭扭捏捏的;聊着在那里;几点;去他家还是他驾车;一堆; 只是想今晚快一点过去;因为我不知道能期待什么;我不想要任何惊喜。请你给我零惊喜!

Sunday, December 22, 2013

Tears are often the telescope by which men see far into heaven.



















Thank you for taking your time out for me; especially in time like this; it makes me feel really really special even though that might not be the case. 

Saturday, December 21, 2013

Character may be manifested in the great moments, but it is made in the small ones.



















211213; 1604: 没接到你的电话;1705; 给你回电,还是在讲笑着,你好吗?好啊,在那儿?在家,刚刚打给你的时候在广场你没接你怎么在广场啦少见,还不是因为要买东西给那个人,我希望是为我买那本书,就让我沾沾自喜一下吧,已经沒有很多机会了。你约我们见面预定一个日期,下个星期一或二,要在圣诞前和你见,我们很少这样预约,我不知道是为什么,可能你要介绍女朋友给我认识,终于,如果是真的我已经准备好了,就让它发生吧,反正是迟早的事。

Friday, December 20, 2013

Anyone can sympathize with the sufferings of a friend, but it requires a very fine nature to sympathize with a friend's success.



















才发现;原来你是那个懦弱的人;你一直在逃;我和她一样在坚持着;不放手;放弃的是你;不是我们。

Thursday, December 19, 2013

I would rather be a coward than brave because people hurt you when you are brave.














但我们所做的每一个决定不就是要让自己更快乐吗? 我也想他快乐,但如果让你重新选择答案还会一样吗?我心里真的是很复杂,你说你明白但我不敢肯定,你还有她呀! 我没有后悔过我所做的选择和决定,只是有时候会觉得可能能够伤得轻一点,所以很小心翼翼不想和你有太多的回忆和依恋,但都太迟了,太迟了。

Wednesday, December 18, 2013

A loyal friend laughs at your jokes when they're not so good, and sympathizes with your problems when they're not so bad.



















You won't understand; you never did; the memories you left behind.......the list goes on and I can't even begin. I don't want to care, I don't want all this, but it's impossible now. So what I can do is just to stop everything, to stop contacting, until you contact me.

Tuesday, December 17, 2013

Life is just one damned thing after another.















我真心希望你已经作好心里准备和计划了接下来的路程,但你看来是如此的毫无准备、轻佻、随意。这是一个如此重大的决定呀!你告诉过我有些事还不能对我说, someday, that's what you said; 各种各样的念头:做生意,买家,卖家具,我都不能帮上忙,亦有可能我其实不想帮忙,有很多事情始终是必须要自己解决的,你知道吗?

Monday, December 16, 2013

We all have strength enough to endure the misfortunes of others.












16122013; 14:47; 00:06:39; 六分钟三十九秒;从今后我想和你的对话总免不了有一些苍凉的意味;你念了我的电邮然后说太忙回复所以就来电了;有一点儿不知所措;im listening to the killers; 我给你的音乐;why did you have to tell me what are you listening to? why? i dont give a fuck! 代表什么呢?让我知道这些又怎样呢?而我还是勉强和你玩笑着;心里真疼呢那小小的声音你能听见吗?祝福我吧;你也很忙没有提起她我没有问我答应自己我不会再问了因为我知道其实你会一直敷衍我;何必;你问我送你的三本书我都看过了吗;我就赶忙说你能送我他新的书;don't be pretentious; we are way passed that sort of thing; don't be a hypocrite; 就这样有的没的聊着;就知道一切不会再一样了;但是有一些感觉是不能隐藏的不能骗人的;那就是爱呀;而如今我已经不能再说想要一起喝酒吃晚餐看电影;我不要这样;但我能够怎样呢?我不懂;你也不会懂;想着想着我又想哭了; 你又把我弄哭了。

Sunday, December 15, 2013

...the hill has not yet lifted its face to heaven that perseverance will not gain the summit of at last.














i wanted to write; not to you directly; but just here in my own little world; it has been a week since we last seen each other; you have your own life and i go on minding my own business; i dont know what should i do; im anxious and thinking about you a lot; want to tell you everything that is happening now in my life but i know i should restrain myself; it's different now; i want to further my studies; share music movie and the usual lazy Sunday with you; but all that are not possible anymore; i need time a lot of time.

Saturday, December 14, 2013

Be Kind; Everyone You Meet is Fighting a Hard Battle。














Let's just admit. We are not that kind of friend anyway. I'm afraid to know about your life. Your secret. The details. I'm scare it will destroy me if it turns out totally different of the you I have in me; perhaps vice versa; i will never know.

Friday, December 13, 2013

The truth that makes men free is for the most part the truth which men prefer not to hear.














13122013; 0919: missed call; 0927: call back, lasted 6 minute and 4 second; 原来你就是因为这样打了一通电话给我吗?这样无聊;我好累;黑色的星期五;你说你起得早然后看了我送的书很喜欢;然后来到宜家;in and out; 乱乱谈起黑色星期五; 何必呢?是不需要的;我发现了很久的是你毕竟原来其实也只不过是一个普通的男人而已;已经无需要说太多了。

Thursday, December 12, 2013

Ain't rememberin' wonderful?
















# Your heart's on the loose #

# You roll them sevens with nothin' to lose #

# This ain't no place for the weary kind #

You know that song?

Hmm? Can't remember who did it.

That's the way it is with good ones.

You're sure you've heard 'em before.

You wrote that?

Yes, ma'am, just now.

This is so unfair. What?

Some people give 10 years of their life to be able to do something like that, and it just- it just pours out of you.

You mad at me?

You want me to go to a motel? No.

What?

I don't want you to go.

Well, what then? [ Sighs ]

Well, you're writin' a song on my bed.

So? So...

every time I lie down, I'm gonna hear that beautiful goddamn song, and- And you're gonna be out there...runnin' around, not even rememberin' this day...that I can't even forget.

If I could walk, I'd come to you.Sweetie, come here. [ Sighs ] Come here. Listen to me. When I was at the hospital, I thought about who to call. [ Sniffles ] Who really gives a damn about me? And then, I thought about who I wanted to see. [ Chuckles ] You hear me? Huh? [ Sobbing ] I'm not gonna forget about you. I'm not gonna forget about this day. I promise you. [ Exhales ] Look at you.

Wednesday, December 11, 2013

Preach not to others what they should eat, but eat as becomes you, and be silent.














上周末我借你我的车;我不知道你星期五晚到哪里;我看见一些却不敢问;我承认我很胆怯我没有办法接受一些真相因为伤害我的事还有很多我不想你包括在内虽然你其实已经包括在内;星期天你说六点钟见;我等着;你以为;我们总是互相猜测然后知道有时候我们就是会猜错但却又还是不直接说;何苦呢?我没说什么;开车到你家;看了套电影;疯狂的心;其实没有太太好看;至少没有像你所说的一样;我也像那女孩一样爱着你啊;他在房间弹着吉他写歌的那一幕;我动容;你走后就留下我了;而我只能一个人自己哭怎么办呢;过后明天我找到空缺午餐时分又和你在一起了;陪你去寄送低音吉他;其实没他屈指算算能够和你在一起的日子应该不会很长所以我相当珍惜每一次能够和你见面的机会;吃中餐面太油但我还是真的高兴的;然后你就告诉我说你女朋友终于会来了;明天;我强忍着泪假装镇定还说酷呢;我怎么能够告诉你其实我很伤心呢;那么我们会怎么呢;你能告诉我吗?你最近压力大我想是这个缘故但你不说你顾左右而言他说可能是咖啡作怪也可能是工作;统统都是骗人的和你认识那么久了什么事不能直接说呢;我不懂;但还是一起过了于我而言“最后”的一晚;如果她来了那么以后我们就不会像现在这样在一起了我有自知之明我知道;你说这一切才是另外一个开始六年之后的今天;说实在我是由衷为你高兴的;这对一个五十二岁的人来说爱情的路上要重新开始多可怕啊;但如果你能够踏出这第一步以后的事就不会太难了;我是这样想;而今早你与我的闲聊喝着咖啡吃着早餐就算我们没有进一步的肌肤接触但那样的时刻对我而言就是最美好最美好的记忆了。

Sunday, December 8, 2013

I can believe anything, provided that it is quite incredible.














我怎么能欺骗自己说我不在乎呢?根本是不可能的 。你所感觉的不安完全都没有容纳我的余地, 我们还谈什么呢? 此时此刻我只愿你能找到你想要的快乐 。

Saturday, December 7, 2013

Even with the best of maps and instruments, we can never fully chart our journeys.











Others will happily make promises they can't keep. But long ago you learned never to say you'd do anything, still less make a promise,  without being sure of the foundation on which plans are based. Since that ground is shifting, and often, you're better off discussing what you hope to do, no more. -- yesterday horoscope--

Friday, December 6, 2013

If we couldn't laugh, we would all go insane.











Family is always my priority;  I will spend my time with them and you separately if you wonder; I'd expected you to go on your own of course anyway;  we don't always have the same idea on everything;  tiny thing like toilet seat, detergent cap; it's beyond me; I am not forcing and you don't have to feel obliged;  maybe I was right to make you the one always text me first in this relationship of ours; so that you won't think I am caring about you too much which obviously I actually am; we spent another quiet evening together;  i love driving you mad and anxious; Indian dinner; crap loads of junk; a trilogy finale; you couldn't wait and you didn't wait;  we are all in the end selfish people in our on selfish way;  you should also know your own body;  your own limit;  it's all you; you shouldn't let me mess up your life even though you know pretty well I could or thought that I should; so what do you think of the ending?

Wednesday, December 4, 2013

A friend hears the song in my heart and sings it to me when my memory fails.















you said the solution is simple; just state what you want first; but i guess this is really not a matter of who's giving in or who said what first; this is just really all about love; you compromise; period; even when it means you are thinking of one thing; or after you decided on something; yet you still willing to give in and go with something else; even though you already said it upfront; it doesn't really matter; at the end of the day; us matter; you and I matter; what you willing to do for me; that matters; and only that.

Tuesday, December 3, 2013

Monday, December 2, 2013

We don't see things as they are. We see things as we are



















你在看着一些订购产品的网站;你轻轻的捉着我的手;我说了一声晚安;你说别走;等我;我吻了一下你的脸颊等着你;我们看了两套电影;煮了很简单很简单的晚餐和午餐;你都说好;我们其实都是很容易被满足的;你在听着歌说着歌词理解到现今这一年代的歌手或组合都无可奈何地唱着生活的沧桑而他们是如此的年轻;这已不只是少年不识愁滋味为賦新詞強說愁这么简单而已;他们真的是感受到那股无形抑或有形的压力;我们何尝不是呢?但我并没有说出来;你帮得了什么呢?会怎么做呢?你连自己的感情问题都解决不了呢?你有什么资格说呢?你记得很清楚我们第一和第二次怎么相见;我的样子穿着什么我的头发我那一点点的野;你觉得我可爱可以做朋友可以在一起很多很多的可以;在那当初;你喜欢我静静的不喧哗没有要你一次过认识我整个人而是要你必须去慢慢发掘我是怎样的一个人;这样的一种性格;但其实在车上我也纳闷;为什么要呼呼喝喝呢?能解决问题吗?会使人明白吗?你说你也不想这样但就是改不了;如果答案是肯定的才去做吧;不然的话我宁可你静静的;而我也静静的;我真的不想我们太太太习惯我们在彼此生命里的存在;如果在最后我知道我们还是会分开;那么我们现在这样在一起又何必呢?

Sunday, December 1, 2013

We don't know a millionth of one percent about anything.














i confirm that the more i aged; the more i am getting selective with friends; i chose not to even hang out with those i like given the more obvious option; it's kind of scary.

Monday, November 25, 2013

First keep the peace within yourself, then you can also bring peace to others.



















i was really just sharing without much thought; things that happening around us; people wont give way while getting out from an elevator; chicks sitting laughing having their breakfast; what's going on in their mind; what will they do when they grow up even though they ought to grow up already; we have so much things to say around us; so much comment; even nasty remarks that came to our mind; how one been educated; you were talking about individual; a little universal on our own with 100 selected people; to me even 100 are too much;  im just too anti-social; or maybe too ridiculously picky; at least to me we really just need little things to be happy; just tiny little things; not 100 definitely not 100.

Saturday, November 23, 2013

It is easier to get forgiveness than permission.



















i was real sick; from a hangover; dont want to even hear the word "beer"; that's very rare; i texted you on Friday night; rushing thru a meet; rushing thru a beer; rushing thru to you; rushing everything without wanting to miss a moment with you.

Friday, November 22, 2013

If you do not tell the truth about yourself you cannot tell it about other people.














他和她之间有一份情是你和他之间没有的;就是那一份情; 而你不能说就这样而已。

Monday, November 18, 2013

If you are patient in one moment of anger you will save a thousand daysof sorrow.














18112013; 1630; pronto; please please tell me that you are free for dinner tonight; i have to i guess because you already replied i could; it's alright i don't have any particular plan; just thought it'll be nice to have the evening by myself because we are really spending a bit much time together and your phone call was really sudden and i was really taken aback; then since when i ever say no to you anyway; again; i always love to spend time with you; whether you know it or not.

Sunday, November 17, 2013

Write a wise saying and your name will live forever.















i wasn't hurt; more like a puzzlement; why did you do it; just go was my last word; man will always be man; match point and im trying to generalize and rationalize things; i guess at the end of the day; if we switch role; women are well capable of doing the same thing; coffee i asked; i know for sure i will run to your direction and you are my sanctuary in time like this; what surprised me was actually you thought of calling me too; so we watched 2 movies casually chatting; you really keen for me to stay longer; you mad at yourself for some screw ups; but you have all your alone time in the world; you have to learn to be calmer; but i had fun and i will miss you again; really soon. 

Because things are the way they are, things will not stay the way they are.














真的是要有一些很重要事情的经过才会让你看到一些真相。

Saturday, November 16, 2013

The young do not know enough to be prudent, and therefore they attempt the impossible -- and achieve it, generation after generation.














i know you for 7 years; this is the first time you ask me about my ex; 如果过了其实再说什么都没意思了;毕竟你们相爱那么多年了;life happens i guess; you cant blame it on life; every decision you made you made it yourself; no one is prepared for that kind of stuff; they just have to do it; i was telling you about myself; i was prepared to do everything to solve it; even made the most stupid decision in my life believe that it could changed things; he didn't know what he missing out; it's pointless now really; but with you two i see two selfish useless prick with a lot of excuses; you guys could've done much much more; so much more; but i do not want to judge because i really don't know about you both to say; but to tell you the truth, even with you i was ready; so so ready.

Friday, November 15, 2013

How far that little candle throws its beams! So shines a good deed in a naughty world.














heavy rain early in the morning; need to attend meeting; 0740; called you; what you wanna come over and have breakfast? what do you want? how do you know? im just simply saying; but i am nearby and do you want to have breakfast together; eggs, bacon, milk, coffee, toast; all under an hour; we chit chat and you also have the intention to study; i told you about my further study plan; then next time you can drop by again if you have another one of your meeting; the truth is i try to involve you less and less in my life but somehow it comes out totally the opposite; i wonder if i am doing something wrong or something right.

Thursday, November 14, 2013

The reward of a thing well done is to have done it.














just take it Christmas comes early; what? im not gonna see you for xmas? i like the surprising tone; of course ill see you but i rather give it to you first.

Wednesday, November 13, 2013

It is a wise man who said that there is no greater inequality than the equal treatment of unequals.













looking back i wonder; if i was the one who bold enough to ask you to be together with me; will you say yes and will we be together now; because that's what she did; because she made the move and that's why you guys are still together right now; right now even though she left you; she left you.

Tuesday, November 12, 2013

The person who says it cannot be done should not interrupt the person doing it.













Was it really just that simple; only this morning you were telling me I'm funny, twice; and how we began to sort of like each other enough to stay long with a phone conversation; then in the evening another phone call that could potentially spoilt it all; I told you what I dislike; maybe it's the wrong words; maybe it didn't came out right; maybe it sounds wrong; all this misunderstanding and misinterpretation leaves a funny taste in my mouth; I called and clarify which you said you are alright and have moved on; I can't help but think is there more to it than this simple mistake; you said be yourself say whatever you want to say then another time you say how can you be so blunt and not tihink about what you said; in the end lets just say I am who I am I say what I say if you don't like it you can get the fuck out of my way.

Nothing can resist a will which will stake even existence upon its fulfillment.














i need to stop;

i hate to benchmark other using the benchmark i benchmark you with.

Monday, November 11, 2013

Wise sayings often fall on barren ground, but a kind word is never thrown away.














Well you only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go
Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you're missing home
Only know you love her when you let her go
And you let her go

Staring at the bottom of your glass
Hoping one day you'll make a dream last
But dreams come slow and they go so fast
You see her when you close your eyes
Maybe one day you'll understand why
Everything you touch surely dies

But you only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go
Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you're missing home
Only know you love her when you let her go

Staring at the ceiling in the dark
Same old empty feeling in your heart
'Cause love comes slow and it goes so fast
Well you see her when you fall asleep
But never to touch and never to keep
'Cause you loved her too much and you dive too deep

Well you only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go
Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you're missing home
Only know you love her when you let her go
And you let her go
Oh oh oh no
And you let her go
Oh oh oh no
Well you let her go

'Cause you only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go
Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you're missing home
Only know you love her when you let her go

'Cause you only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go
Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you're missing home
Only know you love her when you let her go
And you let her go

Sunday, November 10, 2013

The reward of a thing well done is to have done it.

















Thank you - for your love, for your kindness, for your understanding, for your care, for the shoes; im forever grateful.

Saturday, November 9, 2013

Happy are those who dream dreams and are ready to pay the price to make them come true.














we have spent almost everyday together this week, except for Thursday; you know we spend awfully lots of time together, i dont know if is a good thing or a bad thing; to me its definitely a good thing;  you know what and to me too; for all the word you correcting me; for all the things you are making fun of me with when im on my retainer now; for all the opinion u asked of me about that logo of yours; for the breakfast you prepared me; for the two coffee i made you; it's the simplest and purest form of happiness i see.

The vision must be followed by the venture. It is not enough to stare up the steps - We must step up the stairs.
















that would be your hip; when i ask you about my sexiest bit; both you and i are loving those super skinny jeans; looks real good on you so next time i know what to buy you; wear sexy stuff more; reveal yourself; show it off; don't be shy; you have a great sexy body; i like the way you touch me squeeze me and hurting me unintentionally; i want you to photograph me, naked, tonight.

Friday, November 8, 2013

True love always makes a man better, no matter what woman inspires it.















和你提议用我的车,你说好就一大早到了你家还为此不去开会,为你说了很多小谎,都不在乎只是想你好,算算其实可能也没有几年了,之后我们一起去看戏,你竟然没有带钱包,我没在意,和你谈了一大堆电影的事包括影子,你还是老样子长气,应该会是最后一次去在乎了,因为结局也是一样的,我想我们是要在最后关头强迫下才会去放弃,我们就等着瞧吧!