Wednesday, March 31, 2010

We cannot really love anybody with whom we never laugh


there's certain things i dont talk or ask about and that sometimes wish to talk about but afraid that i might have crossed the line a bit too much; but then you should know by now what type of person i am. i care for you a lot, a lot. i love you.

Saturday, March 27, 2010

I've seen extreme bravery from the least likely of people. Life is about the moments when it's all gone wrong. That's when we define ourselves.


三天两夜;短短的东海岸行程再现;再次肯定不是对错的问题;和你已经没有所谓计较不计较;只是还是很在意就算你只是开玩笑为什么还会有这种想法;我可以假装不知道不在意;但你还会喜欢这样的我吗?

Thursday, March 25, 2010

What if this weren't a hypothetical question?



was it for real this time?
or im just trap in a world i wish to be?
dreaming.....

Monday, March 22, 2010

Never discourage anyone...who continually makes progress, no matter how slow

21032010; 18:59; 熟悉的;你来迟一步;但终究还是见了;不管多迟;想念的感觉就是这样的;没有声音却知道它存在;在玩闹着;小心翼翼照顾着彼此的情绪;因为你说你没有时间;所以我拟定了别的计划;而我其实想改变我原先的计划;这是爱呀;没有说什么但却明白;this is some good shit.

or maybe; just maybe; let's do something crazy for once and go to where all the cute people from; wanna come away with me?

Sunday, March 21, 2010

Everything should be made as simple as possible, but not one bit simpler


am i approaching you the wrong way?
what should i do?
keep calm and take it slow, right?
yes, i guess, thats all i can do;
here comes a chance;
dont fuck it up;
again.

Saturday, March 20, 2010

If there is anything the nonconformist hates worse than a conformist, it's another nonconformist who doesn't conform to the prevailing standard of non


you have one unheard message:
hey, it's me;
i just want to say this;
i know you are not looking and everything;
and i know you are still away;
but when you come back;
can we put behind all the not looking bullshit;
let's hook up and start something;
so that i can say no to all the booty call;
sick of it;
this might not work out or anything;
i guess i am just looking for somebody to hold on to;
and now i miss you.

Thursday, March 18, 2010

You have succeeded in life when all you really want is only what you really need


这几天;
也就只是这样;
痴痴呆呆地就过了;
脑袋也不算空白;
因为有问题的真的不只是你而已;
听着别人的故事还有更精彩的;
反而自己觉得无趣;
怎么会就停留在这一个 demotivated mode 呢?
原来对话有内容有point真的是很重要的;
难怪说话越来越少;
不是自己没有内容和point;
只是不想说;
逐渐失去了自己;
身边的人如是;
只是一而再再而三说着他自己认为重要的;
bullshit;
我用了5次自己;
maybe im just another selfish bastard!!!

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

I have made my world and it is a much better world than I ever saw outside



Your horoscope for March 17, 2010
Something may be distracting a close friend or love partner, YP, so much so that he isn't likely to be very good company. Nor will your friend be likely to share what's on his mind. Don't try to induce him to talk about it if he doesn't feel like it. This might just cause him to be upset with you. Back off and let him come to terms with it in his own time. Sometimes that's the only way.

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

Forever is composed of nows


或许;可能;
有时候我宁愿你说不;
起码我不用猜;
然后我不再有任何希望;
那么我就不会伤心了。

Monday, March 15, 2010

When you can't have what you want, it's time to start wanting what you have

i really dont know why you insist of me doing that; it's for your good; oh, really? you selfish prick, you think i dont know, you just thinking about yourself, who am i to you to do this? i dont even think about it for myself, everything is you you you, im tired of all this, you making me sick; you dont want me but you dont want to let go...........fuck you!

you ask me how old is my sister;
30;
and you? turning 32 this year, right?
i know u r not trying to remind me;
but u did in fact remind me;
im getting older;
i know you didnt mean to;
i know.

Some days you're a bug, some days you're a windshield


14032010 - 19:28 - 收到你的短讯;就笑了;effortlessly you got me; 还是依然对你有所隐瞒;就是不想说;其实我知道为什么;我不想让你冲破我最后一道防线;就像在你面前打呃我还是会不好意思地装咳嗽但你却当作没有一回事一样;我很感激你这样纵容我;我的顾虑忧虑或许你都能看得出来;看了一部超无聊的电影;我们没有说什么;你很坚持不会因为我而改变你的计划;原来又再一次回到了原点;如果不会做的请你千万不要不要说; 因为我会因此而很伤心的。

Sunday, March 14, 2010

Your imagination is the preview to life's coming attractions


isn't it the same?
how can it be the same, it's still a lie;
what do you want from me?
i like you a lot but if you keep on going around the bushes about it, that's really a turn off and it doesn't really help;
what do you want me to do?
just speak your mind;
you are going too fast;
ok, i can slow down, i can do what you want me to;
you can?
i just want to know at the end of all this that will be something;
trust me, there's already something;
men and women, it's just a wee bit too complicated.

Saturday, March 13, 2010

Don't be sweet, lest you be eaten up; don't be bitter, lest you be spewed out

Don't say you don't have enough time. You have exactly the same
number of hours per day that were given to Helen Keller, Louis
Pasteur, Michelangelo, Mother Teresa, Leonardo da Vinci, Thomas Jefferson, and Albert Einstein.

-- H. Jackson Brown Jr.

Friday, March 12, 2010

...when you have eliminated the impossible, whatever remains, however improbable, must be the truth


early morning;
i dont know what to expect;
it builds up;
i guess eventually i will just get hurt again;
i know it;

morning, how u doing?
sigh, yes still here, kinda miss u;
whatever that makes you;
really exhausted! how u been?
yea, hope u r well too. miss u and hope to see u soon;

i just hope that you are not the type that say things very lightly and forget about it afterwards;
im not sure;
coz i dont know you; i never do.

Thursday, March 11, 2010

It’s such a part of me, I assume Everyone can see it


i wish things were simpler;
so i dont have to explain so much;
i thought you were upset with me;
why would i get upset with you?
why you think that?
it's not like you ever care;
it would just be the same shit;
i like you but you are not the one;
what is that suppose to mean?
why the hell you care?
it confuses the hell out of me.

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

Writing is not necessarily something to be ashamed of, but do it in private and wash your hands afterwards



















09032010; 22.04; i said im not sorry about the coffee; you didnt hear me; i screwed up; messed up the last; anyway i dont feel sorry at all; i really dont; you sleep better with me around; i feel more natural now; doing things with u; kissing u; you said i score a pretty good 8 but in actual fact im a 10 to you; there's no awkwardness anymore; just a random call; even if it's getting a bit later now; you said you like my hair a lot this way while you slowly brushing it off my forehead; i still dont understand why sometimes you picking up on my brains in ideas, i suck at it anyway; you act like a kid; as usual; i just stand there and smile; everything seems so right, bright and beautiful.

Monday, March 8, 2010

She wanted something to happen - something, anything: she did not know what


就这样;
毫无机心;
毫无目的;
也并没有觉得难堪;
他说偶尔会想起你;
那份没有真感情的偶尔;
但不会因此而感到无耻;
就像赤裸裸地站在舞台中央;
没有人鼓掌;
却还是从容不迫满脸笑容强迫着自己把一场丑剧演完;
当剧场的灯完全熄灭;
才黯然发现;
眼中并没有藏着以往所会忍着的泪水;
你怀念起以前那个自己。

Sunday, March 7, 2010

Hard things are put in our way, not to stop us, but to call out our courage and strength


some fav lines from 500 days of summer

day 488 - at the park...

Summer: I woke up one morning and I just knew.
Tom: Knew what?
Summer: What I was never sure of with you.

Summer: One day I'm reading Dorian Grey at the
corner deli and this guy sits down
and starts asking about it. Now
he's my husband!
What would have happened if I went
to the movies instead? If I went
somewhere else for lunch? If I
showed up to eat ten minutes later?
Tom, it was meant to be, just like
you said. And as it was happening,
I knew it. I could feel it, sure as
the sun. And I kept thinking to
myself "Holy shit. Tom was right."
You were right about all of it.

It just wasn't me you were right
about.

To pretend, I actually do the thing: I have therefore only pretended to pretend


you cant just make up things and assume everything will be alright.

Saturday, March 6, 2010

Friday, March 5, 2010

It's so much easier to suggest solutions when you don't know too much about the problem

he told me he's a slut;
he fools around;
still;
what that suppose to mean?
that you are his best friend now?
that he is really opening up?
that he really just needs someone to talk to?
and you found out that he and her quarrel;
again;
what that suppose to mean?
that you might have a shot at this?
then you realize you are number 1,223,342,677 in the line;
he is such a slut;
and all you want is revenge.

Thursday, March 4, 2010

Humility is the embarrassment you feel when you tell people how wonderful you are


i mean, even you and him are together;
it's still possible that he keeps secret from you;
that's how things works now;
kinda;
these days.

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

Most people are other people. Their thoughts are someone else's opinions, their lives a mimicry, their passions a quotation


i hope i dont do this to myself;
somewhere along the line;
i forget what im suppose to do;
and going against the direction;
doing what i do not like to do all along;
i hope.

Tuesday, March 2, 2010