Tuesday, December 31, 2013
Monday, December 30, 2013
Saturday, December 28, 2013
Friday, December 27, 2013
Thursday, December 26, 2013
i do realise before you even tell me or say anything; that you have something more; that there is something you are not telling; that we suddenly talk about body fat we need to lose and you asked me to show you my muscle; what is that gotto do with anything; we've been hiding too much; way beyond the point that we dont even know how to tell each other; for reason we need not investigate.
i just miss you, really really miss you.
Wednesday, December 25, 2013
To live at this time is an inestimable privilege, and a sacred obligation devolves upon you to make right use of your opportunities.
if i follow you too closely; if i get too clingy; if i ever get too much; would you just let me know; or would you just turn away without a word; i might and will never know; nonetheless; i wish you well, have a very merry christmas and happy happy new year together with your love; can you forgive me for being so childish; because i can only love you more and more.
Tuesday, December 24, 2013
bit and pieces from what i remember; 我们没有见面整整十多天你就几句话轻描淡写的带过了；你只是对我说由于一些很私人很私人的理由不能都对我说；it's been a really stress few days in the beginning; as usual; it gets better now; you dont want to be big; you want to be influencial; you also told me about a new job you kind of dont care about but you will still do it anyway; 你对我说我应知道的你都已经告诉了我你问我你还想知道什么我没有说出来；你要我问什么呢；你叫我怎么启齿呢；都这么多年了；然后我才知道原来她一直以来都知道我的存在；你叫我怎么能够自自然然地面对她呢；为什么你告诉她关于我的而我却什么都不知道呢；这一刻我真的是不知所措无言以对；还能说什么呢；就真的是很单纯的希望我们在一起而已；原来都是可以的；一直以来是我庸人自扰；烦恼自己找；那么我要怨谁去呢；自己想太多；i miss you; give me a kiss; 是那么的真实和肯定；你一定是有你的苦衷所以我真的没有去问；何必呢；见到你就这么开心了；touching you; seeing you; why dont you call if you miss me; you didnt call too; i did; we still arguing; we cant helped it; dont say no to me and i keep on saying no to you; because this is the thing we do; dont you remember? i thought the worst thing that could happened was just you ask me to meet her; i guess im wrong this could be much worse; you said you dont want to lie; dont want to do things behind her back; now you dont need to; you happy this way; everything is out of the way; i dont know what exactly you told her and what she knew; she knows enough you said i just have to believe you until our next problem arises, until then, let us be; until then; your last words: so I see you after Xmas, ok? Yes we will and I want to!
Monday, December 23, 2013
Sunday, December 22, 2013
Saturday, December 21, 2013
Friday, December 20, 2013
Thursday, December 19, 2013
Wednesday, December 18, 2013
A loyal friend laughs at your jokes when they're not so good, and sympathizes with your problems when they're not so bad.
Tuesday, December 17, 2013
Monday, December 16, 2013
16122013; 14:47; 00:06:39; 六分钟三十九秒；从今后我想和你的对话总免不了有一些苍凉的意味；你念了我的电邮然后说太忙回复所以就来电了；有一点儿不知所措；im listening to the killers; 我给你的音乐；why did you have to tell me what are you listening to? why? i dont give a fuck! 代表什么呢？让我知道这些又怎样呢？而我还是勉强和你玩笑着；心里真疼呢那小小的声音你能听见吗？祝福我吧；你也很忙没有提起她我没有问我答应自己我不会再问了因为我知道其实你会一直敷衍我；何必；你问我送你的三本书我都看过了吗；我就赶忙说你能送我他新的书；don't be pretentious; we are way passed that sort of thing; don't be a hypocrite; 就这样有的没的聊着；就知道一切不会再一样了；但是有一些感觉是不能隐藏的不能骗人的；那就是爱呀；而如今我已经不能再说想要一起喝酒吃晚餐看电影；我不要这样；但我能够怎样呢？我不懂；你也不会懂；想着想着我又想哭了； 你又把我弄哭了。
Sunday, December 15, 2013
...the hill has not yet lifted its face to heaven that perseverance will not gain the summit of at last.
i wanted to write; not to you directly; but just here in my own little world; it has been a week since we last seen each other; you have your own life and i go on minding my own business; i dont know what should i do; im anxious and thinking about you a lot; want to tell you everything that is happening now in my life but i know i should restrain myself; it's different now; i want to further my studies; share music movie and the usual lazy Sunday with you; but all that are not possible anymore; i need time a lot of time.
Saturday, December 14, 2013
Friday, December 13, 2013
Thursday, December 12, 2013
# Your heart's on the loose #
# You roll them sevens with nothin' to lose #
# This ain't no place for the weary kind #
You know that song?
Hmm? Can't remember who did it.
That's the way it is with good ones.
You're sure you've heard 'em before.
You wrote that?
Yes, ma'am, just now.
This is so unfair. What?
Some people give 10 years of their life to be able to do something like that, and it just- it just pours out of you.
You mad at me?
You want me to go to a motel? No.
I don't want you to go.
Well, what then? [ Sighs ]
Well, you're writin' a song on my bed.
every time I lie down, I'm gonna hear that beautiful goddamn song, and- And you're gonna be out there...runnin' around, not even rememberin' this day...that I can't even forget.
If I could walk, I'd come to you.Sweetie, come here. [ Sighs ] Come here. Listen to me. When I was at the hospital, I thought about who to call. [ Sniffles ] Who really gives a damn about me? And then, I thought about who I wanted to see. [ Chuckles ] You hear me? Huh? [ Sobbing ] I'm not gonna forget about you. I'm not gonna forget about this day. I promise you. [ Exhales ] Look at you.
Wednesday, December 11, 2013
Monday, December 9, 2013
Sunday, December 8, 2013
Saturday, December 7, 2013
Others will happily make promises they can't keep. But long ago you learned never to say you'd do anything, still less make a promise, without being sure of the foundation on which plans are based. Since that ground is shifting, and often, you're better off discussing what you hope to do, no more. -- yesterday horoscope--
Friday, December 6, 2013
Family is always my priority; I will spend my time with them and you separately if you wonder; I'd expected you to go on your own of course anyway; we don't always have the same idea on everything; tiny thing like toilet seat, detergent cap; it's beyond me; I am not forcing and you don't have to feel obliged; maybe I was right to make you the one always text me first in this relationship of ours; so that you won't think I am caring about you too much which obviously I actually am; we spent another quiet evening together; i love driving you mad and anxious; Indian dinner; crap loads of junk; a trilogy finale; you couldn't wait and you didn't wait; we are all in the end selfish people in our on selfish way; you should also know your own body; your own limit; it's all you; you shouldn't let me mess up your life even though you know pretty well I could or thought that I should; so what do you think of the ending?
Thursday, December 5, 2013
Wednesday, December 4, 2013
you said the solution is simple; just state what you want first; but i guess this is really not a matter of who's giving in or who said what first; this is just really all about love; you compromise; period; even when it means you are thinking of one thing; or after you decided on something; yet you still willing to give in and go with something else; even though you already said it upfront; it doesn't really matter; at the end of the day; us matter; you and I matter; what you willing to do for me; that matters; and only that.
Tuesday, December 3, 2013
Monday, December 2, 2013