Monday, August 30, 2010

What saves a man is to take a step. Then another step. It is always the same step, but you have to take it.


i am the kind of person;
that gets so afraid;
after a break up;
i straight away delete the number;
just to avoid myself getting emotional;
i am like that.

How wonderful it is that nobody need wait a single moment before starting to improve the world.
-- Anne Frank, Diary of a Young Girl, 1952

If you wish me to weep, you must mourn first yourself.
-- Horace

Happiness comes of the capacity to feel deeply, to enjoy simply, to think freely, to risk life, to be needed.
-- Storm Jameson


just surprise;
mere surprise;
he knew something was up;
it's not always easy, he said;
i kinda feel it's got something to do with that;
and i thought he didnt know me;
dont know what is right and what is wrong.

The real art of conversation is not only to say the right thing at the right place but to leave unsaid the wrong thing at the tempting moment


what if im just being mean;
what if this is a test;
you failed it;
coz you have not enough patience to get thru that few text messages;
and thats the end of it;
i confirm.

It is easier to live through someone else than to become complete yourself


like you;
i am hurt;
and sad;
but like you;
i will be fine after;
things will be all fine;
after;
because we just dont have the patient, time and calmness to face it all;
i know it;
and for sure you know it too;
it will not be fine;
just because we say we want it to be fine;
we must also do;
but we actually dont.

Saturday, August 28, 2010

Give all to love; obey thy heart


this time is really over;
when i walk out that door;
there's no turning back;
all i wanted;
when i was there;
it's just someone to hold me;
tell me dont cry;
that everything will be alright;
alright.

Friday, August 27, 2010

Truth is more of a stranger than fiction


last words..........from someone:

i never moved on fully from you;
i see the deliberate attempt on making me realize what stage of life we are in;
i thought you will never be happy with me. each time we met, somehow you went away unhappy;
you are an enigma to me. a desirable, sometimes a confused, enigma;
i couldn't resign it to fate;
i liked you more than any other in the last 2 years;
i dont want to leave without you knowing how i felt about you;
must be a lucky guy.

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

Patience is passion tamed


i was just fine without you;
remember?
i will still be;
it's not as hard as one would imagined it must be;
and i really thought that once;
you were the one;
and i was ready to do whatever it takes.

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

Monday, August 23, 2010

Perhaps too much of everything is as bad as too little


maybe it's the way you ask a question;
maybe it's the way that you talk that makes me think that you do not trust me;
maybe it's the way i take a question;
and i am defensive;
and i am who i am;
and what if i cannot change this;
and you are right;
and you are old;
and you do not have a lot of times;
and i am not the one;
and it makes me wonder how come i am the one;
and when you say that you love me that is just not enough;
and i try to change;
and i can be silent and quiet and always say yes;
but i will not be the person that i am anymore;
anymore.

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

Difficulties are meant to rouse, not discourage. The human spirit is to grow strong by conflict


me and him argue;
he told me all my good points;
and then bad ones;
i have to accept this is who i am;
i never belittle people;
im just afraid people see thru me;
my weaknesses;
im never too big headed to admit im wrong;
but his theory makes me doubt myself;
what ive been believing all along;
i guess it's time to just be blessed that im here;
someone who loves me;
argue with me;
and willing to stay here with me;
im just grateful;
that's it.

Monday, August 16, 2010

The smallest good deed is better than the grandest good intention.


just admit you are wrong;
just admit you did it;
just admit that you are clumsy as hell;
and then move the fuck on!

Sunday, August 15, 2010

To be mature means to face, and not evade, every fresh crisis that comes

the truth is;
i find out;
that im invading your space;
that you feel suffocate;
and that you alwaz said up to you;
and that im not treating you as a pet;
funny how i feel the same;
i feel less like a pet;
dont know how i feel;
i dont feel im needed,
i guess.


Saturday, August 14, 2010

The least I can do is speak out for those who cannot speak for themselves


i thought you can save me from this;
bring me up;
make me strong;
instead;
you make me think;
and doubt things more than ever;
maybe you're the one need to be saved;
and u thought i could be your saviour.

Friday, August 13, 2010

Creativity is inventing, experimenting, growing, taking risks, breaking rules, making mistakes, and having fun


it's up to you;
if you want to;

what do you mean by that?

can't it be up to you?
so if i dont want to you also dont want to?

do you feel one sided in this relationship?
do you think you are the only one trying to make it work?
do you have the loving feeling;
or just forcefully think you are in love?

all i want is just to be needed;
to feel im needed;
i guess we're both 2 strong headed people;
in a way argue, or like you said defending your own point of view;
but where are we heading to;
isolation and ignorant;
because we both think we can handle it;
and eventually thinking about each other less;

i want someone to make decision for me;
tell me what to do;
sort me out and take my shit;
instead what we do is being polite to each other;
refraining each other from talking about things to avoid upsetting each other;

and you take my one time fault as forever;
and your warning provoke me to do more the things you hate;

i know what you would say;
you dont care what i think;
i guess at the end of the day;
at least i am;
just another selfish bastard.

Thursday, August 12, 2010

In the field of observation, chance favors only the prepared mind


you staring;
no, just looking;

im afraid to face myself;
to tell you the truth that i can stare at you for hours;
but i know you hate it;
so instead;
i look;

i should just be tender, gentle and loving;
i should just give you some blanket for a warm cover;
instead i leave it;
coz i thought you might be feeling too warm to be wrapped up in it;

i want to hold you close;
with my arms;
but im wearing my jeans;
and you are on the bed;

so i see you tonight?
i nod;
continuously;
im here for you to approve my presence;
i want to be here when you want me to be here;

i just want to love you;
love you;
and love you.....

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

There is no duty we so much underrate as the duty of being happy


She's all laid up in bed with a broken heart
While i'm drinking jack all alone in my local bar
And we don't know how we got into this mad situation
Only doing things out of frustration

Trying to make it work but man these times are hard
She needs me now but I can't seem to find a time
I've git a new job now in the unemployment-line
And we don't know we got into this mess it's a gods test
Someone hulp us cause we're doing our best

Trying to make it work but man these times are hard
But we're gunna start by drinking old cheap bottles of wine
Sit talking up all night
Saying things we haven't for a while, a while yeah
We're smiling but we're close to tears
Even after all these years
We just now got the feeling that we're meeting
For the first time

She's in line at the door with her head held high
While I just lost my job but didn't lose my flight
But we both know how we're gonna make it work when it hurts
When you pick yourself up you get kicked in the dirt

Trying to make it work but man these times are hard
But we're gunna start by drinking old cheap bottles of wine
Saying things we haven't for a while, a while yeah
We're smiling but we're close to tears

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

Be kind whenever possible. It is always possible


"i dont like her, she's very arrogant";
他说;
那天晚餐过后;她慢慢地走过来;
地点是他先生的意大利餐厅;
在这之前听过他说她的不是;
坐下后她以蛮流利的英语和我们聊了起来;
对着他所说的所问的都显得咄咄逼人;
像是她自以为是似的;
他觉得我偏帮她;
我没有;
和她用广东话聊了个半句钟;
可能是母语的关系;
而且一听口音我立刻猜到她是外来人;
她并没有想象的坚强;
表面如此;
但原来她失去双亲;
患有焦虑症;
害怕很多;
人在外国没有很多朋友;
但是却有计划;
不像我;
走一步算一步;
她却羡慕;
和她应该可以成为朋友;
我是这样想着;
人真的是要留余地;
be kind whenever possible, it is always possible.

Monday, August 9, 2010

We can learn nothing except by going from the known to the unknown.


it's always about you;
NO, it's not about me;
i always think of you;
that you do not understand;
i think of you;
it's my fault;
and i cry;
im so uncreative about love;
when it comes to wrong and hurting;
i just stop;
instead i should just kiss you, hold you, say i love you and make out;
in the bed room.

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

Real love is a permanently self-enlarging experience.

all i want to do every night;
after work;
it's just to have you beside me;
even without talking;
to spend some time with me;
quietly;
and all we do its argue;
to you, you are defending your point;
rich, poor, what does it matter;
and u dislike the fact that im talking behind people back;
and u dislike the idea that i fight for food with the poor;
you havent the slightest idea what is on my mind;
maybe your friend doesnt need you to pity them;
by being a rich guy;
pays the bill everytime;
i understand you good will;
but i disagree with your point of view;
i cried again;
why is it so hard;
this is never the way i thought it would be;
be patient;
i tell myself;
one day i hope you will understand;
one day.