Monday, December 31, 2012

It is never too late to be what you might have been.


Storms make oaks take deeper root.

I used to do stupid things deliberately to make people dislike me.
It never worked.
Perhaps they never like me enough.
Or they just don't care.

Sunday, December 30, 2012

Few people can distinguish the genuinely good from the reverse.

you were telling me;
you said maybe i used the wrong approach;
you said i can't stop trying;
you said i might have not done my best;
before it's all too late;
you just ask me to try harder;
but you don't actually know the whole story;
i never say;
it's ok;
i thank you anyway.

Saturday, December 29, 2012

There is no mistaking a real book when one meets it. It is like falling in love.

The depressing romantic part of me wants to believe that she has gone to that place far far away and gotten the love she deserve.

afterthought of Sputnik Sweetheart - read 06012013

Thursday, December 27, 2012

Wednesday, December 26, 2012

The secret of being boring is to say everything.

he said: you smell good and it makes me very very very happy.
i also told him a secret and i think he likes me a bit more too.

Tuesday, December 25, 2012

Criticism is prejudice made plausible.

i just want to whisper in your ear and tell you that, i want to be with you and have more than sex.

Saturday, December 22, 2012


The world stands aside to let anyone pass who knows where he is going.

there's a sudden urge to write you, just like how i used to write you before, mails that contained all my silly thoughts. i was young, naive and thought i was in love with you then. time moves things and changes people, including our feelings.

you were asking me how old i am last night and can you believe how time flies. i was 28 or 29 when i first met you, now im 34. i might not look like it but definitely feel like it.

i wont denied the feeling that i once felt for you which turning into a different form now that stays between us. i often wonder what it would be like if we really take that step and walk out from each other's life, not being friends. we'll probably be miserable for a while and then life goes on....anyway, we are way passed that point to turn back now after our numerous encounters.

clearly we both know well what have we gotten ourselves into, still i cant helped this emptiness that i feel everytime when i walk out from your front door. i repress my desire to express such feeling to you because im afraid to face the reaction that you could have and would have.

i always over think things, i still do.

you probably couldn't tell, i was extremely thrill and delighted when you asked me to tag along your plan, although i might act cool and casual at that time, so silly i know. all the conversations and the little arguments that we have had only drawing me closer to you somehow and makes me realize this precious relationship that we are having and for me wish to continue to have.

in my head i know there is this barrier between us that we are so scare of crossing, coz i know for a fact  that at times we are not being totally honest with each other. both being private, discreet and secretive as we are, or perhaps we just fear of losing if we reveal too much.

at the end of the day, even if i might sound too self protective and selfish, that is just because of one simple reason, which im pretty sure you know clearly as i am what the reason is.

so let's cut the crap and bullshit for you have to admit i am never and will never be your first priority anyway.

Friday, December 21, 2012

Even the best of friends need time apart.


Thursday, December 20, 2012

Ask yourself whether you are happy and you cease to be so.

and the moment that you kissed my lips you know i started to feel wonderful;

it feels amazing and damn incredible, i feel sex in your chemicals;

everything still linger on...............

the taste of your kiss;
the heat of your body;
the touch of your hand;
the sound of your voice;
the moist of your perspiration;
the gentleness of your licking;
the sensation of your blowing;
the turn on of your sucking;
the strength of your arms when you hold me;
the wetness on your finger when you touch me;
the sweetness that you taste when you kiss me;
the feeling of your legs wrapping around me;
the warmth i feel whenever you are so close to me;

you make me yearning for more..........

to hold you tight so that i know how you feeling;
to kiss you again so i remember what you taste like;
to tease you again and see how you react;
to touch your face again and feel every single details;
to run my finger over your neatly cut hair;
to move my hand real slow all over your body;
to bite and suck on your neck without leaving a mark;
to do everything you want me to do and more;
to just lie down together with you and hear your breathing;
to just look at you and want you to tell me what you thinking;
to nibble your ear and whisper sweet words to you softly:

"i know, i was with you last night but it feels like it's been so long;
it's good to see you again and i want to see you again, again and again......"

all this and we are  not even naked.

Wednesday, December 19, 2012

Be wise with speed . A fool at forty is a fool indeed.

And u were telling me how u used to like to travel alone and now less.
Not that u r in need of a company but more like u have the power to choose who u want to travel with.
Who u want to pick as ur company.
And how I wish I am not in ur itinerary because I know it's going to be a big mistake.

Tuesday, December 18, 2012

Even the great get greater by doing more of it.

I guess what u didnt know is that I'm afraid.
Afraid of when I turn around u will not be there.
The passionate moment seems to last and linger on and on.
Was it lust? Infatuation? or both?
I'm just too afraid to say or ask.
I'm holding u with all my might.
Fear that u will evaporate and disappear.
The warmth of your body and the moisture of ur lips keep making me wanting more asking more.
Your smile keep me holding on from falling apart.
Your kiss reassure me about everything more than anything else.
Your gentle touch makes me yearning for more.
My desire growing stronger by the second.
If only you can hear my discreet sentimental and sensible side.

Monday, December 17, 2012

The greatest of faults, I should say, is to be conscious of none.

i need you when i need you;
i cant help it;
or else i wont be needing you;

he said that;

and it hurts.

Sunday, December 16, 2012

Wednesday, December 12, 2012

Underpromise; overdeliver.

so whats next?

Let's meet more, spend more time together. Get to know each other better.


i like;

very much.

Tuesday, December 11, 2012

You must not come lightly to the blank page.

so u envision and anticipate u and me;

i was so into you and i wasnt afraid;

ive fell deeper than i shouldve been;

i really dont care anymore;

i want us to happen bad;

really really bad.