Sunday, August 31, 2014

Don't give the people what they want, give them something better.

I storm off within the first 15 minute we see each other; all I hear is blaming, finger pointing, useless whining; start to be like an adult if you really want to talk; I drive off; no turning back; you called; not giving up; because I know staying will not help; you will not even take me seriously if I stayed; I do not give other people shit, do not give me any shit ever; simply put we both need a big slap on our face; just because of one thing; I didn’t take a few hours off; that’s it; too little of a thing to matter; am I or am I not here? I keep asking the same question; hoping that you realize; this is the one moment that matters to the both of us; other than that, nothing else really matters; I drew you a picture on how I envision you and I to be; that’s all that I am asking for.

Thursday, August 21, 2014

No home is complete without affection. You can have all the Picassos in the world or walls made of gold, but without affection it's nothing.





Wednesday, August 20, 2014

I know you can't save every dog. But you can totally try to save the dog that's in front of you.

few things.............

You have the tendency on overreacting on things; way too sensitive than me; say something and then want to unsay something; always think there is something behind something.

You were telling about your indecent past; im curious; I can only be curious because I cant change the past; you just have to have the last words and treat everything as competition; “don’t worry, you are as lonely as I am, although you don’t say anything about it.”

Not everything is about you and me.

Monday, August 18, 2014

There is only one way to happiness and that is to cease worrying about things which are beyond the power of our will.

we argue about the smallest thing; but the reason simply we have not shared our plan and you felt that something has been taken away from you; i guess at the end of the day there's nothing complicated about a relationship; you chose to be together or not; if you do, just suck it up, get on with it; argue; make peace; argue; make peace and don't forget to love each other; otherwise you can always (always!) walk away.

Monday, August 11, 2014

We have failed to recognize our one great asset: time. A conscientious use of it could make us into something quite amazing.


Sunday, August 10, 2014

He who laughs, lasts!

Everyone is selfish, I guess.

What I don't understand is the real reason why you like me. At least you can say I am going after your semi D, a charming mat salleh who is a scientist, a lecturer at a renowned university in Malaysia, make shit loads of money, etc, I have everything to gain with you, right?

What do you get from me? I offer you nothing but emotional roller coaster ride most of the time.

I just want to live my life and be happy. 

Saturday, August 9, 2014

Wealth is the slave of the wise man and master of the fool.

i used to spend weekends in my little room, little world with books, movies, music, mall strolling, when i have some money i go travel; then i realize one day i should better myself, i have the time and can afford it; i don't need to think about other people; don't exactly have any commitment; to say yes and further my studies wasn't really a hard decision for me; i am a short term person; i live small and well; earning enough to get by monthly; paying 5 insurance prepare to live and grow old alone; i have saving about RM30,000; i just take it as things come.

i admire people with special skill-set/ expertise, like the Japanese baker, open a small bakery with his wife, are they happy? are they making good money? i dont know. all i know is a good life is how you make of it; if one thinks that is good enough then it will be, otherwise one will never be satisfied with what they having.

i dont have dream to do big things and contribute to society or the greater cause of human being; i want to just at least live well as a decent human being.

i think about my studies, work and also you a lot lately; while still living one day at a time; i also think most about what we can do with each other's life or as you put it what can i bring to the table and the possibilities of being together. 

Friday, August 8, 2014

Security is mostly a superstition. It does not exist in nature.... Life is either a daring adventure or nothing.

sometimes i think you missing the point of me being with you. i told you why i like you and that i want to find out more about you, know you better. is it because the reason doesn't match yours? what are you afraid of? that i cant contribute any good in your life? that you can provide me with a Semi D, a big fat check, a good job/ status and in return you are getting nothing from me?

is there something you see that i don't? what am i missing here? 

Thursday, August 7, 2014

No problem is so formidable that you can't walk away from it.

"My Father died. Do you have any idea how lonely it is when Parents die?" - i will never know how that feels, now matter how hard i imagine it, not until when it happens. i don't want to act like i understand your pain.

I am doing this because i care. Let's keep being ourselves and be friend, this is what we have been doing for months now.

Can we keep this going without having the feeling that you want to not even try first?


Wednesday, August 6, 2014

There is no such thing as an underestimate of average intelligence.

Have patience with me, please; as you would ask me to have patience with you; we really need that for each other; please don't assume that i know your world because i don't at all; just explain to me patiently and i would understand; i will step back; likewise i will do exactly the same.


Tuesday, August 5, 2014

In these matters the only certainty is that nothing is certain.

You told me again you don’t do long distance; it’s just too hard; I cant help but wonder even if I am there; what can I do; how will we go on; we care for each other but that does not mean is enough; there’s just so many things on your plate; I can sit here and wait for you anxiously; feeling so helpless; we are not perfect; we slowly naming each other flaw; what we like and don’t like about each other; we change it in order to go on but that doesn’t really mean we are not  the same person; if anything; we want to be better person to each other; only better and better.

Monday, August 4, 2014

The average person thinks he isn't.

We like and care for each other; there will be time we question what else is there when we think liking and caring for each other are no longer enough.

Sunday, August 3, 2014

We each have all the time there is; our mental and moral status is determined by what we do with it.

this time you are in Italy for real; we skype and you told me a little bit about your trip, your expectation; my expectation; the question should be what is our expectation.

you skype with my niece; i have not seen you smile so happily ever since i know you; i was so happy we did that.

woke up 4 in the morning; thought of you; called; you were having dinner at a really nice place that bears a lot of memories; this might be the last of it; place you grew up in; glad i caught you at the right time; you said i had a thing with you; sex is not the best; somehow rather we click.

time will tell, it always do.

Saturday, August 2, 2014

Enthusiasm in our daily work lightens effort and turns even labor into pleasant tasks.

you ask me if you move how many times will i come and see you; not often; definitely not once a week; even once a month is a drag; you have to understand i prioritize things; including you; you say i am the first and last reason you are here; im flattered but i dont believe you; there's so many things; let's just settle it one day at a time, without thinking too way ahead now, shall we?

Friday, August 1, 2014

Seeing anyone do what they do best is beautiful.

you ask me to put ice on my head for 5 min; i swear at that exact moment; i like you and feel that you have grown on me; really; but maybe just for that 5 short minutes.