Sunday, October 29, 2017

There’s always one who loves and one who lets himself be loved.















spent the whole weekend together; meals; looking for shoes; feeling this limitless joy; care; worry; the desire; miss you dearly; an ordinary man; travel abroad; talking to no end; see you after parted for 2 hours; wish this feeling can last forever; we cant do the thing we wish to; happy; safe and sexually satisfied; all i remembered; all that is important; home is a feeling and home is a house; clearly defined difference; do not ever want to be alone again; you looking for my smell on the pillow; hope we are going to kiss goodbye even though we have been together for a long time; so many little things that bond us together; smart remark; stupid questions; many many things that we do not mind about, yet; i remain skeptical, somehow, someway. 

Thursday, October 26, 2017

Make sure that the love is worth the price of a broken heart.




















you like that i can stay inside of you for a long time and we continue to talk;
you like that i do my own stuff and you do your own stuff when we are being together;
you always thank me after we pick the selection you offer; be it choice of restaurants or choice of activities;
we laugh about a lot of things;
in the end i wonder if you are dating me for practical reason.

Wednesday, October 25, 2017

Having a soft heart in a cruel world is courage, not weakness.




















what a pampering day; done my nails; my relaxing massage; small shopping; light lunch; went back home; wait for you; waited for you at the station; car park by the side; conversation about buying property; living together; getting married have never felt so comfortable before; we had Japanese food and dessert; then decide to have drinks in a place that you have not been before; so far i checked two places that i brought you and that you like; you have checked out a long list and you need to add on more to your list so that we have places to go together; we talk about traveling to places; traveling to the world; i asked you to tell me soemthing that i do not know about you personally; still indirectly avoiding the question; i do not know if its because i  like you so much now i cant see your flaws and what i do not like about you; i do not want to say i love you yet; i want to bring you to see them but i need to be sure; we watched 20 minutes of Godfather; we kissed and went to go to bed;
i like the feeling being with you is so real that i do not need to pretend i am someone else; i only hope this time it will last a lifetime.

Happy Birthday to me. im super thrilled that i have reached this point before i hit 40.

Wednesday, October 4, 2017

The soul that sees beauty may sometimes walk alone.














i often forgetful; sometimes you use work and telling me things i do not get or i have to process or i have to analyse; you said you do not mind me forget; is that forever; you say you happy you found me; we spent in the most simplest manner; bought mooncake on mooncake festival; passed yo shampoo; drinking tea; enjoy our time together; you mentioned about a young new friend; even she knows about me; you mention about revenge and forgiveness; but is revenge a form of forgiveness; i am glad you are open to talk when we are together; i asked you why you do not approach me; you made me feel rejected; even though i saw you are high; you just simple say; because tomorrow we need to wake early; as simple as that; difference between boyfriend and partner; you do not want to be an old boyfriend because you are already forty; it is funny you think that way; fair indian i called you; reading ikea catalog; about slapping and bitch slapping; you are not shy in front of me; i am totally natural and comfortable with each other; we talked about trips again; you mentioned how you like your job now very much; although you still wish you found a permanent job; we wonder who will say it first; in the end.