Wednesday, October 28, 2015

Power is the ability to do good things for others.

I am waiting for the day;
You and I running out of things to say;
That will be the day those butterflies fly away.

Sunday, October 25, 2015

Happy Birthday, for the 37th time.

same as every year;
i just tell you once more;
you have made it;
this far;
be strong and go again;
for another year.

When you cannot make up your mind which of two evenly balanced courses of action you should take - choose the bolder.

the conversation with you is very minimal;
even then i think i am already sharing too much;
too damn much.

Saturday, October 24, 2015

A smooth sea never made a skilled mariner.

do you think it is possible sometimes, some people they will just not have a normal relationship, no matter how much  they try and whatever they do?  

Friday, October 23, 2015

It is good to dream, but it is better to dream and work. Faith is mighty, but action with faith is mightier.

"you gotta increase your tolerance to bull-shit";
he told me;
and add "if it is worth it", as a disclaimer;
to me it is always worth it;
i always fall too hard;
too fast;
too strong;
slowly losing myself and changing myself in the process;
which i  know is wrong;
in the end;
i let go;
as expected;
because i dont want to be someone that i am not;
this i come to know myself a little bit too well;
too well.

Monday, October 19, 2015

One of the best ways to persuade others is with your ears - by listening to them

i am too selfish;
i didnt want to know that;
how many women he slept with;
i never wanted to;
why would i;
coz i slept with men too;
to be fair;
just to be fair.

Saturday, October 17, 2015

Patience is passion tamed.

5 months gone, then took another two weeks to finally throw the towel and for him to move on. 
Such a roller-coaster ride.
Then im still with a dear friend of mine, which i believe if we ever develop a long term relationship, thing will change between us. Im just never easy and a demanding person.
Then that's another new person, that i feel quite comfortable with knowing whatever he is going thru but i still feel to be want to be with him.
I don't know if i am making sense, marching towards the 37 year of my life, i never feel so sure that i am actually doing things right. Not for the first time. Secretly so.

Thursday, October 15, 2015

See first that the design is wise and just; that ascertained, pursue it resolutely.

i know this is wrong; an affair that feels so right; the more i think about it; the more time we spend together; it may lead us to part; because i am not perfect; because i have my flaws; because we do not have enough time; because i didnt met you first; so many things we start to talk about; slowly i am letting you in; and then harder for me to let you go; the desire becomes addictive; i still can be coldhearted and get rid of you; when i want to; i hope.

Wednesday, October 14, 2015

To get your ideas across use small words, big ideas, and short sentences.

Because all these men that i have been with never really makes me feel good about myself, or. Maybe im to them doing the same thing; i never actually make them feel good about themselves.

I don't know anymore.

Monday, October 12, 2015

You can preach a better sermon with your life than with your lips.

He is just very thoughtful.
A toothbrush.
That's all he needed to say.
i haven't felt such caring for quite sometimes now.
A sensitive soul.
i hope he stays.

Tuesday, October 6, 2015

Man is happy only as he finds work worth doing -- and does it well.

I guess what you don't realise is you have caused all these commotions.
You did it.  Not me.

Monday, October 5, 2015

To be what we are, and to become what we are capable of becoming, is the only end of life.

you say you are coming back; that we were good; i dont feel that at all; how odd; i just feel unusually calm; simply because i hide and dodge; because the more i say and explain the more it seems like an excuse;  it is indeed revealing; so now you know who and how i am; that i am not worth your time; that you are chasing after an empty dream; i hope the time and energy that you have invested in building something better lasted even after i am not there to share it; if not for anyone that do it for yourself which you should anyway; i never meant to share your glory anyway; i am not qualified; i am a coward; i am infamous in blocking; to that you should not be surprise at all; i am not saying i am right; i mean just to prove my point anyway; i just a useless bitch; drama queen; just to prove everyone will eventually walk away from; as i do this to myself.