Be faithful to that which exists nowhere but in yourself - and thus make yourself indispensable.

bit and pieces from what i remember; 我们没有见面整整十多天你就几句话轻描淡写的带过了；你只是对我说由于一些很私人很私人的理由不能都对我说；it's been a really stress few days in the beginning; as usual; it gets better now; you dont want to be big; you want to be influencial; you also told me about a new job you kind of dont care about but you will still do it anyway; 你对我说我应知道的你都已经告诉了我你问我你还想知道什么我没有说出来；你要我问什么呢；你叫我怎么启齿呢；都这么多年了；然后我才知道原来她一直以来都知道我的存在；你叫我怎么能够自自然然地面对她呢；为什么你告诉她关于我的而我却什么都不知道呢；这一刻我真的是不知所措无言以对；还能说什么呢；就真的是很单纯的希望我们在一起而已；原来都是可以的；一直以来是我庸人自扰；烦恼自己找；那么我要怨谁去呢；自己想太多；i miss you; give me a kiss; 是那么的真实和肯定；你一定是有你的苦衷所以我真的没有去问；何必呢；见到你就这么开心了；touching you; seeing you; why dont you call if you miss me; you didnt call too; i did; we still arguing; we cant helped it; dont say no to me and i keep on saying no to you; because this is the thing we do; dont you remember? i thought the worst thing that could happened was just you ask me to meet her; i guess im wrong this could be much worse; you said you dont want to lie; dont want to do things behind her back; now you dont need to; you happy this way; everything is out of the way; i dont know what exactly you told her and what she knew; she knows enough you said i just have to believe you until our next problem arises, until then, let us be; until then; your last words: so I see you after Xmas, ok? Yes we will and I want to!