Originality and the feeling of one's own dignity are achieved only through work and struggle

i wish i could wake up beside u everyday of my life from now on;
then sometimes i think why r we doing what we r doing;
i couldnt find an answer for sure;
guilt is penetrating;
but at the same time joy overtook the feeling of guilt even more;
hence;
thats why we r doing what we r doing;
i think;
and;
looking back i dont think u want to be held any responsibility on this;
not at all;
that's where at a point i told myself;
i hated u so.