Only the mediocre are always at their best.

周末；
12点午餐时间；
你带我到一间像儿童乐园的餐厅；
每一桌都坐满了一家人：妈妈爸爸孩子们；
只有我们是两个人；
同样地点了餐；你点了我想要的；
我点了一些别的；
你点的总会比我的好吃；
我看着你而你就会让给我了；
我们还一起吃着一些别的，猜着歌；
当然你可以说这里不是特别为家庭而设的；
但我不禁地在想还是一家人来比较适合的；
你嫌餐厅很吵、你讨厌小孩、你亦没有成家的念头，但你却喜欢这一个地方；
其实你还有什么没有告诉我的呢；
我迷惑了。

工作上你遇到了年来最大的打击；
朋友的背叛， 你的无助；
你口里说不好意思向我吐苦水但还是说了；
你想要离开你的行业打算做一些别的；
医生、老师、为社会服务的职业；
讲是很容易吧，你放得下吗，你能做什么呢？
以你目前的生活不容易呢；
能放下吗？能离开吗？能洒脱吗？真的能吗？
现在唯一当即能做的就是把自己做得更好活得更好吧，我想。

"u know what?"; "what?"; "i want to figure something out"; "what's that?"; "the reason behind u being single and not wanting to have a family"; "that's useless"; "no, i dont think so, coz u never want to tell me, why's that?"; "thats none of your business i guess"; "oh ok, so my theory behind this is pretty simple and typical, i think your last relationship ended badly, or a more daring one - that in fact u r actually a well-hidden gay man"; "what? dont be silly, thats absurd and ridiculuos"; "oh no correct answer, then why wont you just tell me already and put me out of my misery, what r u hiding? wht r u so afraid of?"; i look her in the eyes knowing that the truth is slowly eating me up alive and this is the truth, i love her for all this while, but the other side of me stop me from revealing my true feeling because i know i can't make her happy as much as she makes me happy and i am sick of the idea of failing her. i want her to be happy but not with me.