If I had my life to live over again, I would have made a rule to read some poetry and listen to some music at least once a week

这个周末我们聊了更多。象是更加肯定了彼此。但我们还是有疑虑和不确定。更多的是来自于对彼此的认识。

We both wanted to see each other. That’s why we are here. We taking it easy. Even manage to spend some time in the pool. Had a simple nice dinner. Usual place. You say you run deep as so am I. that is why we are still here.

I could fall in love with you and be with you. How serious do you want this to be? Often times you don't like me to tell you what to do. We both independent and capable.  We can manage and we have been managing it for so long. It feels so good to be able to hold each other so tight, feeling each other’s existence physically, a kind of assurance that no matter what, everything is actually going to be alright.

You still very sad and hurt. About your mother departure.  I wish there's more I can do for you but there's none. I can only listen.

You want me to come in Sept with you.  That’s the last chance for me to see your world.  Where you came from. A place you once called home.  Also to put my practical side into good use. You already planning much ahead without me saying anything. I have stopped to think so far off long time ago.

I have not much to offer in terms of money.  This is the part we haven't really figure out and the distance.

You suggest to stay at least three months together.  I thought two weeks should be enough.  You say to see thru someone human side. It takes more time and unlike me you are slow.

You like me how I am not here to bull shit you where you really value my patience and kindness. I am doing my best dear. Just thought you should know.

Still. Let's just take it slow.  Take our time. One day at a time to see how it goes, shall we?

First weigh the considerations, then take the risks.

Because I don’t need to worry about you at all; I do not need to think about you and what you are doing right now;

all this matters;

yes it does.

An ounce of action is worth a ton of theory.

it is no longer a matter of like or dislike;
it is not even a matter of a better choice;
what is more important is in fact;
we enjoying each other's company now so much and we want to be;
living in it as it is.

This time, like all times, is a very good one, if we but know what to do with it.

we were so tired and exhausted; we slept so long and we didn't even do much. 

He can do more for others who has done most with himself.

I am sitting at the same place; arrive early waiting for you; you walk to me; greet me and kiss me; I miss you; you look good; in fact we miss each other terribly; you have your unusual way dealing with things that I do not want to interfere because you have been doing this for so long; you manage until now and so did I; if you let me be and i should also let you be; that’s my take; we went out for dinner; you were talking about some notes; want to take a walk have a coffee and tell me all about it; when we reach home; I undress and get all comfortable; the moment passed; you don’t want to talk about the note anymore; you are not in the mood; I apologize and feel bad; you are tired; we talk in the morning you said; you awake at my slightest movement because I was up and couldn’t sleep anymore; you started to pour it out; your note; you were telling me how hard your life has been and how your life is still hard; showing me a lot of things; you are planning way ahead; need me to be there; my practicality might be put into good use in helping you; you crying a little; getting really emotional; that you are so alone scare and screw up; I quietly listen; that's all you want me to do; you know what you are doing; you don’t need my advice; you just afraid you cant last any longer and kill yourself; give it a year; you say; you don’t even care if I want to be with you; then you told me i dont need to buy anything; the house is big enough to live; you always full of contradiction; the notion of having kids with your ex; can i disagree? also some one gave birth to your possible child; all of this; what can i do? how do i deal with it? you even show me photo; I am already with you; the feeling I have for you; the way you mention a home, having children and how you slowly quietly say I love you……………all that I can hear you; all that I pay attention; all that I know, because me too, me too.

Hard things are put in our way, not to stop us, but to call out our courage and strength.

The long away two week trip has finally over, you are back, asking me to call, telling me I am kind, thanking me for being nice, you still have much to settle, you told me you are coming this Wednesday for a meeting, I asked when did you found out, you said weeks ago, I cancel a plan to see you because I want to see you, I know I can do whatever I like and so can you, You criticize my English, I ask you to give me a break, I'm not upset about the late notice, I just want you to know each of us have our own life to live, if you start to let someone in you have to start to think about them in any situation, be thoughtful and considerate, I am not sitting around here just waiting for you, I understand you are busy and things are crazy that you have to deal with a lot of stuff, that makes me low in priority, I really understand that. All I'm asking is just for you to start think about me, sometime. Even sometimes. That is enough.  

"I can't do it" never yet accomplished anything: "I will try" has accomplished wonders.

You say you are not into long distance relationship, you say I am interesting, I guess I am interesting enough for you to consider, you say if you want a quickie you will pay for that and it's cheaper than all these phone calls, you say you want to tell me something but I have to sit until Wednesday, you say that you don't care about the baby boy if he is yours, he is just too cute for you to ignore, you check on his horoscope, you keep saying that he is cute. What all that really means? That you actually care, you also day you can't raise a child, you do not know what to do with him. All this. Deep down I think you care, at the same time you also scare.

No great artist ever sees things as they really are, if he did he would cease to be an artist.

我想；其实你心里很害怕；只是你没有说。

The aim of an argument or discussion should not be victory, but progress.

老朋友相聚就是要这样；什么都能谈。真好。

Man has been endowed with reason, with the power to create, so that he can add to what he's been given.

do you like your brother? do you talk about life and perspective with your parents?

you are one crazy girl in a weird family.

i might be a lot of things.

the only one thing i want from you is take your time to know me better.

that is all.

We can often do more for other men by trying to correct our own faults than by trying to correct theirs.

compared to last night; this is really bad; i am not even saying a lot; maybe some questions and how i approach it annoys you; you shut me down; you say you don't feel like talking to me everyday; you just keep on saying i don't know; yet i insist i want to find out; this is your limit; i could have do the exact same thing to you; but i chose not to; then after a few minute you call back; what is the point? at the end you will choose to walk away anyway; that's the easiest way out; the easiest.

Our greatest glory is not in never falling, but in getting up every time we do.

你和她的事；
请你不要；
千万不要；
告诉我。
please.

Most of us can, if we choose, make this world either a prison or a palace.

"If you have someone that you think is the one... don't just sort of think in your ordinary mind and think, OK let's make a date, let's plan this and make a party, we'll get married. Take that person and travel around the world. Buy a plane ticket for the two of you to travel all around the world and go to places that are hard to go to and hard to get out of. And if when you come back to JFK, when you land in JFK, and you're still in love with that person, get married at the airport." -- Bill Murray

我又收到一封你写的很长的信；说着你对世界的灰暗；还是一样的想法四十八年来的想法；母亲的去世看来完全没有为你带来解脱；反而得来的是更多的疑问；这世界上再也没有人理会你的存在；to verify and approve you; allow you to prove that you are worthwhile; now you simply become worthless; 我不能对你说什么去改变你的想法；我只能告诉你我对你的感觉；我不期望你对任何我说的话会有所感动；because you always do not care and you always act as you are feelingless, emotionless and heartless; 你时常问我能为我做什么我要的是什么；但是我只是想要你做回你自己；应该去问问你自己到底可以为你自己做什么；你也问我看好我们之间吗？will we work? will us work? 我回答你是可以的；我蛮肯定；因为我很喜欢你；but; yes there's always a but; BUT it will work only if you want this as bad as i do and only that. 如果我们真的必须去旅行穿越千山万水来证明我们之间这一段感情的存在；我想要告诉你的事我已经为了你做好了百分百的准备，而你呢？

Are you ready?

It is only possible to live happily ever after on a day-to-day basis.

we playing a game;
the more you think you piss me off;
the more i want to be kind;
that's why you want to piss me off even more;
in return of my kindness;
we playing a game;
totally reverse psychological game;
it's sick but it's fun.

Hope is necessary in every condition.

you text; you are back in town; for good; tell me about it later; glad to see you again; feeling strange; coz we said goodbye 2 years ago; now you are back; you were telling me about how have you been; not all good at first but you pull through nonetheless; that's life, right? we survive if you have the will to survive; just exactly like meeting an old friend; feels so natural; don't need to pretend; no awkwardness; we just randomly chit chat; i have knew you for 7 years; time really flies; it really really flies.

i wish you well, my friend, J. As always. All the best!

The world is a tragedy to those who feel, but a comedy to those who think.

Dear W,

when you ask me what do i want in my life and what can you do for me, do you really want to find out? are you really ready for the answer/ the truth? why do you want to know? what is the point of you asking?

what confuse me is that at times you don't seem to be ready to talk about things but at the same time you keep on throwing me questions that i find tricky to answer then i often contemplate whether you really want an answer or just simply asking? etc.

i don't assume you ask me just for fun; as i tend to reply you very seriously but i am afraid of the rejection and negative reaction/ remark i might get; hence i refuse to say; as much as it will scare me as it will scare you; the end result is that i might really freak you out. besides, you don't really need to ask or tell me what can we do for each other; we just need to DO it for each other and see what happens; that's basically the whole point anyway.

Through this few months of correspondence i have come to realize; as much as i want to be open about this whole thing; you just really need time - a lot of alone time and space before you can really start invite me truly into your world; things have to stay real without any element of surprise; at least not at this point in time; simply because maybe you are not quite ready, perhaps? but then am i ready? i can at least say i am willing to do things and make things work; if we make our decision to move forward; long distance relationship talk aside we haven't even really touch on the subject that are we or are we not in a relationship and ready to pursue it; it's all good and fun when we meet; we miss each other when we not; we are human being; we have feelings; but as much as feeling goes; where are we now? is there something we looking at together? what we want? a LONG TERM Relationship?

so unless we have a firm ground to work on based on whether or not we want to take the next step, asking what you can do for me a thousand times; or vice versa is very much irrelevant; at least for now to me is really pointless; what else can we do? we can meet up every once in a while, continue talking, texting, skyping but that's basically it, right? i might sound cold, cruel, harsh and very practical but please hear me out.

i want to put myself in your shoes and imagine all this sadness/ grieving period that you are going through endlessly, plus the space/ time you need in solitude; that is your upbringing, you are this person where i cant change (trust me, i don't want to change you!); this is your life; as i would asked you for the very same thing now which i also hope you understand where all my practicability coming from, my life, my experience makes me how i am and where i am. you may criticize my practically doesn't get me anywhere; i can take that; but without it; i could be worse, but nobody will know that now, right?

all this things, W, don't make us any less human, quite the contrary this is all the things that make us who we are; any less of that in me, i wont be sure if i will be able to touch you as how i did now. i hear it over and over again to you i am just this person with a very practical side where you blow it up/ magnify it ten billions times under your microscope; i hope this is not blocking you from seeing i am just a very vulnerable human being afterall. we have been through this conversation on how we wont teach each other about how to live/ what to do but will just live it as we are, remember?

i touch you because i am me, do you think you can accept that? 

Employ thy time well, if thou meanest to get leisure.

little by little, thing is changing and we know it.

Keep your broken arm inside your sleeve.

We are just being ourselves. We didn't do anything for each other. That's why and how we survive this thus far.

Adversity is the trial of principle. Without it, a man hardly knows whether he is honest or not.

Im going on minding my own business; we have been talking, texting daily ever since our weekend meet; I am happy; being here; living; the things that you told me I hope that you are also telling yourself the same because that is also the sort of thing I want you to do for yourself; you said you think about me a little more these days; missing me even; I used to be just “ok”; but now I seem to invade your mind; I hope someday soon enough your heart; I know you are leaving soon and suddenly decided maybe to take a trip with you; without mean to bother you; you ask me why do I want to come; but you never really take "just because" as an answer; because you say things are never just as simple as it seems; I just want to be with you and that's nothing but the truth; I never initiate anything until you mention it; we going back and forth on that idea and finally drop it because it just sounds too crazy at this point of time; I have to admit it is and I am just being my crazy spontaneous random self; I wish not force you and implying you must; I also don't want you to feel obligated; I am hardly intrusive; I am actually happy inside you feel that way, which means I am getting through to you; I am bothering you hard enough; this secretly thrills me.

The very act of believing creates strength of its own.

You know what the scariest part is, that this might actually work.