I regret that it takes a life to learn how to live.

you probably already feel sick of me travelling you about how i love you when i leave your house and send you long series of voice notes; just because you always say thank you; just because you made me feel appreciated; it started with you bail on me on a Friday night because you have 10pm meeting; i understand; because your plan have been messed up by a interview that never came; your whole weekend is fucked; then i thought i can see you the next morning and you have forgetting that i had an important signing appointment; i went out with my brother; a pleasant breakfast; maybe it wasn't such a bad idea we did not meet; tome was too short; you thought its better for me to chit chat and go with my brother; then you asked for lunch; i hesitated because i was still upset; i went with it because i miss you; i cried about it in the car and made you understand how i feel; you brought your clothes to sleep over; i was happy; you communicate deeply; we talk about sleeping with other people; if any one of us feel sexually dissatisfies; i do not know which one of us might be first; i like to wake with you; you are so sensitive and fragile that i worry about you all the time; you said you are 85% ok just because you want to be intimate with me; in the end we still fuck up; takes you another long while to recover; we should not do it again next time; i want you to be well; always; then we parted; left each other time to do other stuff; we went out for a nice breakfast; bought gifts and oranges; everything that i need to brought back home to; we ran in the rain; i enjoyed to see you enjoy; you kept on talking to me to make me forget the rain; i just want to run back to my car; lighting and thunder; i was not afraid; just does not like the feeling of getting soaking wet; do not see the point; mess is everywhere; bought some oranges to your uncle; dinner and then met your family late; have a brief chit chat; happy that they enjoy our brief company; went home; fell asleep peacefully; im at ease with you; you make me feel safe; how long can this save our relationship if every once in a while i will feel us emotionally disconnect; i do not know; what i do know is i do not want to be the only one who is trying; i hope you are too; i hope you will still do; forever and always.