Tuesday, November 1, 2016

I hope that I’m always struggling, really. You develop when you’re struggling. When you’re struggling, you get stronger.

we haven't spoke since 11am; i guess you are busy; you did not say if you are going to call tomorrow;  there's this mutually unspoken rule between us; while we live on; we thread carefully not to disturb each other; i went for the class; for one hour; then went home; i thought i can go to another class tomorrow morning; i did not because i know you would call; you did text; i waited for you; you were asking me why i didn't drive on; because i like it when we have some time for each other; and i know we can only squeeze so much time together; as much as i can do i will; so for this few times i stay home talk to you until you reach office and have a few minutes of the video call as well; that is the time every time when i see you that determine it to me again the reason why i love you so; i talk about the trip again seeking for confirmation; you seem to made up your mind; i do not want to tell you what to do and how to live your life; but i worry because you are such a bad liar; what are you going to tell her; she is clever; she will figure out; because we are all smart people; i do not know; you can still joke around saying that they will be nobody there to see us at the airport; so many great memories in the past and you say you want to have mire with me in the future; you talk about some small stuff; randomly here and there; i still feel attracted to you; so very strongly; you said you will call earlier tomorrow; i will be waiting; as usual; mein liebling. 

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