you have made your decision, i respect that. i wish you all the best in finding what you looking for.
i am no less lonely and helpless than you do, life goes on. living is in the everyday life. everyone has their own shit to deal with. being together seems to make it a little bit bearable, at least to me. i am sorry you dont feel that way.
looking back knowing you for a year, you taught me how to talk a lot, be vocal and stand up for myself, when you have someone caring for you, things are different.
maybe i didn't contribute much in this relationship, being kind is apparently not enough.
i do not know what these few months will do. there's may be something or there may be nothing. i cant let you do things you are not ready for, that will not be fair.
i can need you but i also can tell myself not needing you to give you the space & time you need to think things thru.
it's a cliche, but if someone truly matter to you, you respect them and set them free. now seems to be that moment. i care for you William and i really want you to be well.
If i cant help you with that, at least i can give you the space you need.