this is something for you....

to you,

i have to attend to us with extra care. if being straightforward and honest mean we are going to tell each other in the face everything and anything which means we also (at least to me) have to accept the fact that all the things we say might or might not be hurtful in a way coz undeniably truth hurts, and thats the truth.

i dont deny that all the thing you mention i said is all true, but you have to understand also, i believe that there will be time when we will be able to see thru all that point and admire each other in a way we never did before.

i never know to love and like someone has to be in such precise measurement because i guess i never need to explain love before. i also dont know to love and like someone is to compare what i have and what you dont have, for example, if your dislike list is longer that the like list, why do you still like me? how sure are you the like list will not become longer, maybe you are a person that trust hunches/ instinct very much. so now you like to be with me but that doesn't mean shit, like i say you might eventually hate me after finding a lot more about me. it's only time unless you try to accommodate and find ways to really accept me for who i am.

so now, in this case, you put up a list of likes and dislikes, then you think because the dislikes are longer than the likes, that show i have no reason to like you or have no reason to start a relationship, because i dont say "oh you know, deep down i am really a loving, caring person, every single minute i just want to love, hug and kiss........" and because i make mostly generic statement of you and me, you take that as not a solid reason to start a relationship. but to start a relationship can base on a lot of things and with all that ive mentioned you doubt that i want to start a serious relationship and i dont have enough reasons to like you to begin with. you cant just assume things.

i might not do and say certain things but that doesn't mean that i am not that kind of person. all i ask from you ever since the beginning is time and patience to allow us to know each other better, instead of analysis everything (but now i found out that actually who you are and unfortunately i cant change that, which is fine too)

all actions have it reasons, having doubt in getting physical with you doesn't mean i dont like you, and now i said i dont desire you doesn't mean i wont, to put it bluntly, you are not someone i just want to fool around with. it must be more than that and to me, you are more than that.

if you are a man only starts a relationship based on love, passion, strong feeling and all that....is fine, coz again i say, thats you.

then again, not everything is about you, if you are going to start something with someone, you have to start thinking about the other person and you might question am i starting to think about you, or else how come i still really coy about my answer to you, unsure and not straightforward as you might put it.

in your case, im sure you are not a self conscious, defensive and insecure person, but i cant help but feel sometimes you are. i might be wrong.

for whatever it is, the more i see you the more i know i want to start my life with you, you make me want to try and you make me want to be a better person.....and i just want my life with you to start, right now.