The way to get things done is not to mind who gets the credit for doing them.

i guess i always take a back seat in a relationship, where one should be equally seated in a relationship to make sure things work for both party, it takes two to tango, which i don't get a lot.

most of the guys ive been with either very dominant or always have a commitment issue, couple of them even have successful career but when it comes to relationship dealing, doesn't matter if you do good professionally, to deal with human emotion is something else. in that matter, i think i probably been scarred for live, not to exaggerate.

I used to be a very needy, clingy, sticky kind of person, not the attention seeker type, but at least to know my partner is around and will be around for me. Now I do it a lot less, no constant message, calls, because with the people I be with I end up have to take care of myself and i have been long independent event since. that doesn't mean i don't need anybody, i just become more alone and self dependent, that's all.

i guess i have always been clear with my goal, its to live as happy as i can, i also get pretty lucky with my work in a way but i never really put title and salary first, those thing don't seem too important to me, im happy doing what i do, yes i know i am silly, i should put title and money first, right?

then of course if its possible i want to build a family with someone and have kids; although through the 15 years, along the way i find that goal comes close to almost impossible to achieve with still very little hope left; i even plan to buy a condo and live on my own (once my name is remove from the old property, hope it will happen this June - its been drag on for 10 years, i know, my dad constant nagging didnt help either hope im getting there).

my saving mainly divided into different insurance saving scheme (5 of them) so i will have a bit of money when im old. other than that i give some pocket money to my parents (the sum that i can manage) as a dutiful daughter. i dont make millions bucks, just few thousand a month, but i know i can pull thru a reasonably frugal decent life, im not a flashy big spender, i can control it if i need to. nothing really bothers me much materialistically hence my concept of money is rather elementary, just keeping to the basic need. i don't do anything risky like investment, etc, besides i have no commitment, so its easier.

sometimes is funny, ive been in KL for 15 years and when i look back at whatever i need moving around, sitting inside this small little room in my brother owned apartment, i can probably get about 3 brown boxes and my life basically box it all up inside all these boxes, that's it.i too have my ups and downs in life, maybe not as severe as yours, i wont say i have an unhappy childhood, just more on screw up relationships actually.

one doesn't need a lot to live, i capture simple pleasure in life; it is not very complicated; you need very little to be happy; actually. if you really think about it.