I need to learn how to stop destroying myself, stop being hard on myself, and be nice to myself.

Friday night; i picked you up; you came to me and ask if it is ok to ask him to come along; surely; then you guys waled out together and got in my car; obviously he was all dressed up; i relief i did not say no; would be impolite then; French restaurant; ordering food; trying out; funny dessert; chit chatting; you praise on my English command; i went to the wash room; you followed; you hold me from behind; giving me compliment and you touch me gently; realising that i was really sexy and that you were such an idiot; we had numerous sessions; i stayed for a short while; the feeling is just too strong to say no to; too strong.