The best way I can love you is by not losing myself in you, but growing with you.

you were away;
we can rarely talk to each other;
out of our routine;
i was afraid i start to depend on you;
lose myself in you;
i try not to;
i do other things;
many many things;
get you off my mind;
get myself occupied;
not an easy task;
i thought i will be alright;
then comes the day;
i thought we are back to our routine;
you couldn't for one reason;
i would have to understand;
i have no choice;
it is behind the back of my head;
i know why and i do not want to compromise;
i said mean things;
i stay quiet;
we know it;
we have set to see each other again;
maybe we will let it go this time;
it is sensible;
this time.