Courage is resistance to fear, mastery of fear - not absence of fear

my favourite number is 2

you shoot a life that i wish i had....i like how you say "it's fine" but it's actually not; i found out that you are in a place so far away but you still continue wanting to keep in touch; you fail to realize my despair and pretend that nothing is wrong between us; your unwillingness of all seems to have kept us even closer; i do not understand the reason behind all this; at time you want me closer when all the while i thought you want me far.