Man has no nobler function than to defend the truth.

Im sorry for being so pessimistic, I'm just not very very positive about us, im thinking when you can't even spare a minute or two for me. Then what else is there? 

Never be haughty to the humble; never be humble to the haughty

but if you can tell me if i am being too needy; too unreasonable; too stubborn even;
then i will stop;
tell me again that why are we doing what we are doing;
just because we have feelings so we want to give it another shot;
just because we miss it the first time so we want to try again;
that hardly qualified for anything if we dont put the effort to really try again;
it does not make sense if we are trying hard enough even when this second chance comes by;
what is this all for?

people find time to people; nobody can be too busy.

that has been my personal motto all along.

i dont think you get it; i dont think you will ever get it, ever.

Perhaps love is the process of my leading you gently back to yourself.

I'm very upset and disappointed;

As it is you already don't write much;

I'm just expecting you to write everyday, even a little, do u mean I need to lower my expectation further;
we both adult, let's not play games;

What is there left for me to long and desire? will there ever be?

U lied. 

I don't know what to say. 

This above all, to thine own self be true, and it must follow, as the night the day, thou canst not then be false to any man.

Everything will sounds like an excuse now.

I don't want to say it's ok, coz it's not, i dont want to be so clingy and needy.

I don't know if u understand. 

True merit, like a river, the deeper it is, the less noise it makes.

3 days off; wish we were together; sometimes not; in person you talk too much; in digital work you are not; i wonder if we keep on going with the pace we are going where will this all lead; we talk about unnecessary petty stuff; what you do; what you had for breakfast, lunch, dinner; where you go; how's your day; never in depth feeling; not that kind of way; usually polite; usually boring; usually unexciting; i still do not know exactly what you do; does it matter? you will be away for 3 weeks; i have everything and i do not have everything; too many confusions; i agree; i disagree; i dont know what i want; maybe i just want you; i just want us and that is all; that will be all. 

The influence of each human being on others in this life is a kind of immortality. .

as i was telling her; i have not been beaten up in so many of my past relationships; where did it bring me? what does it give me? what have i achieved? nothing; not a single fulfilling contented loving caring relationship; so that the only one who ever beat me up and scare me to death is back in my life now; what have i got to lose? nothing; perhaps just another unfulfilled un-contented unloving uncaring relationship.

There is only one real failure in life that is possible, and that is, not to be true to the best one knows.

hey you; i appreciate your care; it is my fault for i have not told you the whole truth; it is very hard and unfair to judge and comment when you did not know the whole story; and yet you did; because i am a friend and you care about me; for that; i want to tell you that - i love you.

Whether you believe you can do a thing or not, you are right.

Just simply because he makes me feel special. That's all.

What was hard to bear is sweet to remember.

it's just that from now on maybe we can only talk about really shallow stuff, which is sad.

Common sense is the knack of seeing things as they are, and doing things as they ought to be done.

hey. just to let you know i didn't forget about you. if i dont get to see you before you leave. have a good trip. be safe.

hi. i know you didn't. i think of you often. ill be safe.

xxx


end.

I have simply tried to do what seemed best each day, as each day came.

You have a RED personality! According to Dr. Carol Ritberger, this means that you're a "just get it done" kind of person. You are driven, competitive, and you like to be in control. You are very action-oriented, and you appreciate efficiency. Dr. Ritberger adds that as a Red, you typically hold stress and tension in your lower back.

Fear not for the future, weep not for the past.

I always create this outer layer so no one can get in, until they give up, walk away then i will smile and say, i knew it, all of them are the same, just to prove i am right, sickeningly. 

If a man hasn't discovered something that he would die for, he isn't fit to live.

Pushing everyone away and see in the end who will genuinely stay.

one last time.

really a roller-coaster ride; 5 years; less than ten times of meetings; we dont even talk much; but it is not the talking; he is back into my life; he spoke; i cried; he needed to fill his void and gap before hence the violence; both our feelings are still showing; we cant deny; hence the staying; my stubbornness; wonder why he is still into me; now he realizes a lot of things along the way; 5 years is a long time; why now? i keep on asking questions, pointless questions, to him it doesn't matter; he seems to remember everything; it's not the length of thing; it's the depth; he said even if he needs to peel me like an onion for the rest of his live; he is willing to and he wants to; no one forces him to; he said let it go; let's move on; give each other and give us another chance; he said he is happy; genuinely happy; no one has asked me to stay for so many times; i am not sure if this is what i want in my life; but at this down point of my life he walks in again; i take it as a sign; of something truthful and real; finally taking place and happen for one last time.

you are...............

You are: The power of introverts.

On the outside you may appear quiet, but there’s a nonstop rollercoaster of ideas running through your mind. You simply think long and hard before you speak. Your extraordinary insights come when you’re given time to consider things on your own, which is why your five least favorite words are, "This is a group project."


he said something about me being the most misunderstood person, as if he really knows me and understand me. how i always act so tough outside but just a softie inside. i really really am.

Because of my title I was the first to enter here. I shall be the last to go out.

late night; full moon; a digital aquarium; nice cool pool; we are all alone; spending time together albeit short; we met, we hugged and we kissed goodbye.

always good to see old friend.

"smile", you said and that is all i need.

Smile.

There is no exercise better for the heart than reaching down and lifting people up.

i would be lying if i say i dont feel anything; the one thing that happened; im not using it to penalise you; it's just that when people say one thing in your life that scars you for life; that's the one thing; all you can think of is i dont give another chance; everyone deserves a second chance; time come and go; people grow but they dont change; they never do, that is my fear.


my fear.

In war: resolution. In defeat: defiance. In victory: magnanimity. In peace: goodwill.

You say I should ask away, whatever in my mind, but when it reaches those emotions crazy personal questions, you don't have the energy to deal with me, you said you shouldn't have told me then you say you wanted friends to know and to each friends you have different way of telling them, what do you exactly want? i am confuse!

You said you didn't ask me to compresse, nobody ask me to do this and that, of course nobody did, I did it on my own as a friend, because I want to, but when whatever you give is not appreciated and it makes you wonder why you did what you did, basically this friendship has failed you or rather the friend that you once know and you thought you know is not exactly the friend that you know, anymore. 

There is nothing noble in being superior to some other man. The true nobility is in being superior to your previous self.

"no one ask you to compress your feeling, no one ask you to do that";

of course no one asked me to, but i do it anyway, because that is how i feel, because that is how i react, i dont need to wait for someone to ask me to do that, especially when that someone is a friend. when people are friends they dont need to ask for anything.

when you say that, it breaks my heart, i didnt want for you to ask me; just like how i didnt ask you if you have sleep with someone else way back when during that time we didnt sleep together, just like how i didnt ask you if you and i have the slightest possibility to be together at all, just like how i didnt ask you if you and your girlfriend will ever be happy together, just like how i didnt ask you a lot of things.

you cant even answer what sort of friend i am to you? am i just someone you hanging out for fun? am i just someone you sleep with and leave the next morning? what kind of place i hold in your heart? i am dear to you? you fancy me? will all that ever be enough? rank my importance from 1 to 10? what would you say?

because if you truly are my friend, you will let me know and you will not afraid that telling me things will break our friendship but will only make it stronger.

because if you truly are my friend, you will do everything you can so that i wont be sad

because if you truly are my friend, you will be less selfish and will not act the way you are acting right now

that if only you truly are my friend.

You must do the thing you think you cannot do.

We have not been writing to each other for the longest time. Something changes between us, somehow. Tonight you told me everything but it didn't change the fact that something changes between us. The friendship, the love, everything our relationship once had. It's not about the trust, if I don't trust you, I won't be here at all. It's the kind of friend that I don't think you really treat me as, someone that cares enough to listen, to be there. i guess you dont know me well at all, all these years, very disappointing and disheartening. now that i know everything, only now you have breach that trust. i understand what ur gf really goes thru, all these while, i sympathize her, for she has trusted you but i dont know whatever between you guys enough to say anymore, i will just say i admire her truly as a woman, the suffer she has been thru, for you; years of relationship and trust, you blew it!

Two years, now that you finally told me what you have been wanted to say, I don't know why now, I don't know if it matters anymore.

I'm not the kind of friend that yell at you, telling that you did wrong, because you did, I'm sure whoever close friends you told would've already shouted at you the same thing. If you want advice, they probably have already given it to you as I can't offer you any, not something you wanted to hear, because all the things i can say will be so mean, so bad, so harsh.

Your gf had every right to be angry and has been thru for the last two years together with you on this, she is a super human, you owe her beyond anything words can say. The betrayal, the lies, if our relationship cracked, then I can't imagine what is it like for her.

You have no right to say you feel guilt towards your daughter, ur gf is right. Forget and move on with your life, leave the poor woman and her child alone. If you have thought about this today, you would've wear a condom and stop fucking around. What are you thinking? Gosh. Who do you think you are and you think because of your sperm you are entitle to be a father? You never wanted a kid anyway. you have the nerve!!!!!! What makes you so noble now? Because you have spent two years with your so called daughter, because you have develop a bond, a relationship, because you turn your back in the woman you loved for all this? is it worth it? you do not entitle to anything, not qualify to anything, nothing. Bla bla bla. Bullshit. The woman is doing the right thing, protecting her child. i would if im her too, she owes you no explanation, again, i dont know enough.

get on with your life, like you said you would, if this is all meant for you, meant to be, it will come back, if it doesnt then you know very well why.

i only know one side of the story anyway!