Friday, June 26, 2015

Treat people as if they were what they ought to be and you will help them become what they are capable of becoming.















he is so right about me.
i am not afraid.
i needed someone to tell me that, out loud.
i needed to hear it.
in my face.

i am just so weak and directionless.

Thursday, June 25, 2015

He who smiles rather than rages is always the stronger.
















it's not a rare occasion; not anymore; he likes the way i dress today; tight black shirt; grey skinny jeans; friend cheated on someone; still bothering me so much; he said you want a full package but you dont want to pay full price; that's why you are getting things half cook, half bake, halfheartedly; i have trust issue; insecurity; so many negative things that i dont know how to name them; unhealthy family; gap between parents; siblings; he faced the same thing; this rendezvous is like our little emotion getaway; we cant do this too many times; it will wear us off; i agree; so until next time. 

Take time to laugh - it is the music of the soul.















i wanted to text you and let you know that:

i miss yo so so bad;

but i did not.

Wednesday, June 24, 2015

Goodness is a special kind of truth and beauty. It is truth and beauty in human behavior.














It was the right time. 
Last night. 
The need of being around with someone. 
To feel a human touch again.
Embracing.
Even without talking.
You were also thinking about me too;
last night; 23:10; 24062015.

Tuesday, June 23, 2015

It is right to be content with what we have, never with what we are.















“The point of marriage is not to create a quick commonality by tearing down all boundaries; on the contrary, a good marriage is one in which each partner appoints the other to be the guardian of his solitude, and thus they show each other the greatest possible trust. A merging of two people is an impossibility, and where it seems to exist, it is a hemming-in, a mutual consent that robs one party or both parties of their fullest freedom and development. But once the realization is accepted that even between the closest people infinite distances exist, a marvelous living side-by-side can grow up for them, if they succeed in loving the expanse between them, which gives them the possibility of always seeing each other as a whole and before an immense sky.”

― Rainer Maria Rilke, Letters to a Young Poet

Saturday, June 20, 2015

Thursday, June 18, 2015

Determine that a thing can and shall be done, and then we shall find the way.














we never really let each other into each other's life in a real way anyway.

this 4 month is so crucial for us to realise things.

then we miss it.

we did.

we do.

we are.

Sunday, June 7, 2015

Activity and sadness are incompatible.














that day you chose to take a break from me;
it makes me realise that we have to keep a clean cut;
that i no longer part of your life;
that you have made a decision for me not to involved;
that i am convince that we are no longer together;
that we whatever we do doesnt matter;
no matter how bad we are missing each other;
life happens when you are busy making plan;
that is what is happening right here, right now.

life.
goes.
on.

we.
move.
on.

Monday, June 1, 2015

Never tell people how to do things. Tell them what to do and they will surprise you with their ingenuity.














I miss you.
This is the time i need you and we both need each other the most.
Every single day passes without us talking to each other is an absolutely waste of time.
What is there to see?
What is there to think about?
It's either we want or we do not want to be with each other.
The rest we can fix it.
Once we have determined the answer.
And yet we didn't.
We never do.
Never will.
Never be.

Tuesday, May 26, 2015

Anger is a prelude to courage.














I know but I don't understand.
What is it that we need to figure it out.
I think secretly and consciously you like the idea of doing everything by yourself, on your own.
Certain things you need someone else, most things you don't.
I really can not comprehend why two people like and miss each other, can't be together. 
It it something hard to swallow.
Until I know the exact reason why,
Pls do not write me and telling me that you miss me.
You will only make me sad, very very sad.

Monday, May 25, 2015

A friend is one who sees through you and still enjoys the view.















and this is the time we need each other the most.
at least i think so.

you still write me and say you miss me.
that makes me very very sad.

i would like you to stop now.

please.

Sunday, May 24, 2015

The force is within you. Force yourself.














- letting me know (you also letting all your close friends know)
- listen to what i say (you also listen to what your close friends have to say)
- make decision as a couple and reach consensus, together (this if we ARE a couple, only we can do, but are we?) having a say means i get to make the decision too.

these are 3 different things altogether.

we can argue our case to no end deciding if we are a couple or not.

if you want sincere loyal friends, like the three of your closest friends, me too, can be another.

i feel no place here, not as your girl friend (maybe you dont feel like my boyfriend too), this is what i am trying to tell you. by leaving me out and have you, yourself dealing with it all doesn't cause any ease, you are sidelining me and it creates doubt in this relationship. i cant bear to see you get hurt and sad. it makes me sad. i feel bad i cant be there for you and help you thru, this is what people do when they emotionally attach.



it will be tough, but time will heal. it always does.

Friday, May 22, 2015

Shared joy is a double joy; shared sorrow is half sorrow.














Today last year, you thought you would've found someone that you can be with, live with, help you with, little did you know that part never comes easy.

You can buy someone, but will that be real? Will that last? Will that be love?


Wednesday, May 20, 2015

The great thing in the world is not so much to seek happiness as to earn peace and self-respect.
















She said this is the first time i didn't play with my phone so much all night. 
Because you didn't call.
Because you didn't text.
Because i don't have to response. 

Not anymore.

Tuesday, May 19, 2015

If failure is not an option, then neither is success.














i guess;
we like to tell each other;
about our small story;
every single day;
just very very small story;
that people tend to forget.

Monday, May 18, 2015

The nobler sort of man emphasizes the good qualities in others, and does not accentuate the bad. The inferior does the reverse.














It has been two days.
Feels weird in the beginning i am not able to tell you things.
Slowly.
It just takes time.
Like everything.
I love you. 

you know what.

we dont need each other, anyway.