Sunday, February 14, 2010

Nothing ever goes away


he text me Happy Valentine's Day;
i dunno what am i suppose to think;
i guess is just nothing;
it was never anything.

Tuesday, February 9, 2010

He had occasional flashes of silence, that made his conversation perfectly delightful


02022010; 14:34; 4min37sec: i think he is one of those that i fancy;
and like;
or might even be love.

Monday, February 8, 2010

It's all right letting yourself go as long as you can let yourself back


it's just getting harder for me to let go............do u know?


Be careful that victories do not carry the seed of future defeats.
-- Ralph W. Sockman

Let no man imagine that he has no influence. Whoever he may be, and wherever he may be placed, the man who thinks becomes a light and a power.
-- Henry George

Because you are in control of your life. Don't ever forget that. You are what you are because of the conscious and subconscious choices you have made.
-- Barbara Hall, A Summons to New Orleans, 2000

When I'm not doing something that comes deeply from me, I get bored. When I get bored I get distracted and when I get distracted, I become depressed. It's a natural resistance, and it insures your integrity.
-- Maria Irene Fornes

Sunday, February 7, 2010

Maybe it was only a second of your time, but you need to treasure life, every second


in the end, im still coming back to u, in the end, to find comfort in u, i am just a pathetic little human being.

Saturday, February 6, 2010

Truth is beautiful, without doubt; but so are lies

开始对坏坏的字样有所迷恋:堕落、上瘾、同性、淫乱、卑贱、可是可恨的是这些字眼都不能够一针见血地形容自己对自己的放弃; 可能我歇私底里就是一个比坏还要更坏的人。

Friday, February 5, 2010

If I only had a little humility, I'd be perfect


you have 1 unheard message:
yo im at d airport, im leaving so i hv to turn off my mobile phone, this is the 2nd time im calling u, to annoy u, and i cannot. this is not fair, u annoying one.

alright, you take care ya, i see u soon, ciao!

Thursday, February 4, 2010

The difference between what we do and what we are capable of doing would suffice to solve most of the world's problems


整整一个星期了;我不知道为什么;我很郁闷;我是那种连梦也不会作的人;现在却突然间闷闷不乐;我不知道应该向谁说;原来才知道我没有什么朋友;应该会一个人孤独终老吧;有这样的念头;如果不是欠下了那么一点我想我可能会轻生;念头是曾一闪即过;我不是那种人;我能捱;我只是怕寂寞;该死的寂寞。

你已经在回家的路上;心里面开始想你有没有爱过我这个问题;应该是有的;亦有可能你没有能力。

We don't know a millionth of one percent about anything


they probably dont even know what is really happening anyway; today is the day you are going away; i guess you will never ever make up your mind on me in a million billion zillion years; i will alwaz sit here and wonder why; i will never get the answer i wanted to even though the question has been asked more than the number of time im suppose to ask.

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

You must not come lightly to the blank page


he's having an irish coffee; a coffee with a dash of alcohol; "it's not that i want to get drunk tonight, i just want to stay awake, i started to smoke you know? im so stressed"; "for her?"; "yea, hard to believe huh?"; "but i thought......"; "nah, she doesnt want a relationship, she's clear about that"; how come this sounds so vaguely familiar; i was in his shoes once; way back when; for someone; that time has passed and i just have to move on; even though my life doesn't really become better; but that was the best time of my life; it still is.

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

Say not, when I have leisure I will study; you may not have leisure


今早起来你吻了我的额一下;好美丽的早晨;再过两天你就要离开了; 但是这一次我一点儿也不伤怀;010210; 2150; 原来你去了东海岸;你又兴奋不已的谈起低音吉他;有一股成就感和你眼神中所发出的喜悦;像个小孩子一样;而你也就是一直这么样;六个星期你说然后就能再见了;所以并没有什么好伤心难过的;那一段已经过去了;已经学会释怀;真正的去放开;早上我们喝着咖啡;你弄给我的早餐;好,六个星期倒数现在开始。

Monday, February 1, 2010

When you really trust someone, you have to be okay with not understanding some things



The most decisive actions of our life - I mean those that are most likely to decide the whole course of our future - are, more often than not, unconsidered.
-- Andre Gide

其实生活就是很多小事叠成的;不是吗?那天去看了原本不想去看的sc的剧;有感动;一点点想哭的冲动;我忘记了我还有一股对生命有所感触的无形力量。

It is the loving, not the loved, woman who feels loveable


i dont want to promise you too many things;
for im afraid you might leave before me;
and all that's left with me is only regret.

Friday, January 29, 2010

Even if it's a little thing, do something for those who need help, something for which you get no pay but the privilege of doing it


and so today i done it all; and i actually dont feel the feeling i want to feel; and what does that mean; and you wonder what went wrong.

Thursday, January 28, 2010

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

It is better to know some of the questions than all of the answers


可以不叫我小孩吗?你可以不这样淘气吗?你把我弄得很紧张耶; 你知道吗?我们有时候真的好好笑!

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

Live each season as it passes; breathe the air, drink the drink, taste the fruit, and resign yourself to the influences of each


260110: 2201: 2分钟;你以为很晚了;你为了没有早一点告诉我而抱歉;还是和你去喝酒;6个星期;你说;为了工作也顺道回家乡;但你不想;无所谓我觉得;反正我还是需要去不习惯你的存在;curious case of benjamin button; tattoo; bass, etc etc; 抛了一个问题给你又被抛回另一个问题;其实就是人生无常;要感恩惜福;要做的都做了吧;不要后悔;你很有感触;life is full of tiny little pleasure; at this moment; im blessed to have you beside me waking me up with a coffee; i love u dearly.