All progress is precarious, and the solution of one problem brings us face to face with another problem.

you just keep on telling me that i am beautiful;
you just keep on telling me that my hair now looks great, it's the right length, that you always love my hair this way;
you also keep on telling me how you like it so much making love to me;
maybe im immune to all these compliments;
maybe i highly doubt that it's actually true;
maybe i just don't want to believe that beautiful things will ever happen to me;
maybe not ever.

I like life. It's something to do.

we were remembering;
the concert;
that trip;
that day;
it seems just happened;
it was actually 5 years ago.

Who is rich? He that is content. Who is that? Nobody.

you say if you move away from here you will think about me all the time;

but i say you will get over it and that's life.

I had rather do and not promise than promise and not do.

if im going to die tomorrow;
i will miss you;
now dont you go all emotional on me;
u were telling me about a party;
being the last one in and the first one out;
u wanna stay young;
u wanna go somewhere;
but your year is so packed;
i can hardly fit in;
i can hardly speak my mind;
i can hardly breath.

Throw your heart over the fence and the rest will follow.

its not about winning or losing;
but if i cross this line now means u win right?
thats like the cutest darn thing you ever said to me;
but no, it's not about winning or losing;
it's my feeling for you and you should know that;

it's good to see you with all the dramas;
i wont have it any other way;

and you should know too, me like u lots, despite the emo bit; so we reconfirm sunday for lunch;
yes and yes. xxx

i have it when you explain things and you are right;
this is not about right and wrong;
not anymore;
so this is between you and me for the longest time;
you just easily put it in words;
to me its even simpler;
so this is not sex but this is not a relationship either;
there, you were speechless;
if i have a choice i rather have us some other way;
not like this.
、

Sometimes creativity is a compulsion, not an ambition.

but why was i telling you about her;
because i know i would never have the guts, never be brave enough;
not on quitting; not on saying no; not on anything;
not on just to tell you how exactly i feel for you;
i always lose; always do; always getting rejection;
i dont mind it at all if its all from you;
only from you.

Age is…wisdom, if one has lived one's life properly.

we thinking to meet;
you text-ed me first;
i feel happy;
kissing teasing each other;
you say i was a bit shy and ask me why;
i'm never the kind of girl that jump all over you;
i'm never the girl that get all excited and enthusiastic;
i'm never the girl that initiate anything;
but that doesn't mean i don't like you;
i want you to know that;
YES I WANT YOU!

Style is knowing who you are, what you want to say and not giving a damn.

你有说要一起去旅行；
可能十月；
我生日的时候；
一整年你都会在忙；
三月新加坡；
六月意大利；
八月日本；
和你聊起说你想休息很长很长；
你说我可以去探望你；
我不知道什么阻止着你；
你五十二岁了；
应该很轻易就有这样的自由和权力；
你的女朋友我再没有问起；
你说你要永远很年轻很年轻；
还要做很多很多的事；
我今年三十五岁；
反而是我累了；
我想做一些别的事；
我想回老家；
很多事我是真的都没有对你说；
我不知道为什么和你就是那么难开口；
怎么说我们都已经认识六年了；
可能这是一段我们互相在欺骗玩弄对方的友谊；
但是我很喜欢你那不会是假的；
而你亦喜欢和我在一起；
只是我们都不知道这算是什么而已。

Whatever the mind of man can conceive and believe, it can achieve.

U r here with me;
U r telling me that you've been thinking lots about me;
And I actually miss u too;
We both hold each other so tight;
Longing for the embrace;
You like the smell of me;
Very unique something like vanilla;
I still don't dare to ask;
What happened with you and her.

To get the full value of joy you must have somebody to divide it with

you never used to be so exact and precise, once again you are back to that; i miss you u said and keep on reminding me that, this week will be busy, i see you next week? i smile and just nod.

we just crazily burping away, it was really a moment that we able to share something we never share with each other before that bringing us closer; you are same annoying as before;


you are just so beautiful, so pretty, nice smile, great body - what stopping you from wanting me? what stopping you from being with me. i dont know.

Even grown men need understanding.

我想我是真的开始不在乎了；
原来我真的是再也没有以前那样很想要和一个人在一起的感觉了；
really; i dont miss being around with someone anymore.

A happy life is one which is in accordance with its own nature.

i actually miss you, i told you that day, when we sit together at that cafe, drinking coffee; i wanted to touch your hand, i wanted to kiss you face and your lips, but i didnt; ive been thinking about you a lot; thats all you have to say.

Discovery consists in seeing what everybody has seen and thinking what nobody has thought.

、



still like me?
more. more and more than you ever know.

Walking is the best possible exercise. Habituate yourself to walk very far.

i kiss you so lightly on your lips; you turn me on so much, i cant help it; u want me to say it out loud; i just like you so much making love to you; making you wet, making u cum, like last night; is that wrong? you have to think it is actually the wrong thing to do, really it is, if you really think about it; guess you are not really thinking about it; not for her sake anyway.

Those who respect themselves will be honorable but he who thinks lightly of himself, will be held cheap by the world.

但是我怎么能够告诉我自己这只是一个过渡期呢？
那天你突然对我说有事要对我说；
然后你就将那张药单给我；
我愕然；
不知道要说什么；
如果你不关心我为什么又会这样体贴；
会想到这一些呢？
我无言。

Seek simplicity, and distrust it.

This is exactly why I avoid being emotional and start sharing unless I know that u r really serious and give a damn.
I just so anxious and I hate being left alone hanging. I just hate it.
U can fuck me leave but please don't screw with my head & my heart. If u do u can go and fuck yourself!

The best way out is always through.

We all start out with the same alphabet. We are all unique. Talent is not the most important thing --- discipline and dedication are. Craft can be learned but desire and longing are innate. Despite the demands of school and just being young, try to write SOMETHING every day --- a description, a captured emotion, a simile, a metaphor. Read, for crying out loud! A writer must read the way a ball player must go to the ballfield every day to practice. Everything is possible in this world of ours--- and so's publication.- Robert Cormier, answering the question "What advice do you give to young people who want to be authors?"

Friends should always tell you the truth. But please don’t.

i enjoy being with you;
that day, that weekend; at the hotel;
that's the real you;
you were laughing; talking a lot; not thinking so much;
i like you like that;
im serious about you;
i want to be with you;
i hate this street now coz i want to give you a big hug and kiss you;
right here. right now.

It is good to be without vices, but it is not good to be without temptations.

你怎么会知道他们的痛楚；你怎么能断定结过了婚又离婚的男人是坏人；他们也是人再怎么样都还是和你一样有幸福的权力的。

The highest reward for man's toil is not what he gets for it, but what he becomes by it.

maybe its not her that stands in the way;
maybe we are never meant to be;
and we never tell each other so;
i am the type of person that wont even ask for breakfast without knowing if you really want to get breakfast;
you see i am the type that over-think on things and so afraid of rejection hearing the NO coming out from your mouth;
i am not even mad when you are late, misread & misunderstood the message i send across,
because i know i am not qualified to be the one who gets angry with you;
im just not until you make me so.

There is only one way to happiness and that is to cease worrying about things which are beyond the power of our will.

I guess what I want it's just a word of comfort from u.
Someone to tell me everything will be alright.
Everything will be fine.
I don't know how important such a simple sentence be until now
But what I hear instead was its not my fault. It's not her fault.
As in you just need to clarify it put urself out of the blame.
But u were wrong.
So so wrong.

A man should never be ashamed to own that he has been in the wrong, which is but saying that he is wiser today than he was yesterday.

The worse thing is he didnt even ask me what is it?
What is the matter?
He then just said i talk to u later as if he is afraid somebody else might hear me but he is ok to talk in the very first place.
I don't trust him anymore.
Not like this I don't.

I say luck is when an opportunity comes along, and you're prepared for it.

而你现在告诉我这一些又是为了什么呢？
她已经不是那个你曾经爱过的女人了；
我磨了这么久我怎么办呢？
原来你曾经也是如此一般的男人；
想过婚姻、想过小孩、而她却拿不定主意畏缩；
如果你问的是我；
我一定会答应你的；
但那只是如果。

They sicken of the calm, who knew the storm.

People always find excuse to justify themselves;
I guess in my case. It's important for me to know where I stand and where do I go from here;
So I really don't need to wait and be anxious about anything as much as I enjoy ur affection and company;
I guess now I can take it much more easier now much much more.

The person who removes a mountain begins by carrying away small stones.

To tell u the truth. I'm not expecting any reply from you;
To tell me what;
That u love me;
That u wanna be with me;
That I'm a handful silly little girl that have yet to figure out my own life. my own shit;
i cant bear that kind of reply;
It's just that I'm afraid of things;
I don't wanna waste anybody's time. Not yours and definitely not mine;
And as soon as u see a sign coming I quickly run the other way; the opposite way;
I'm scare shitless. I don't know who to ask.Who to tell. Worse thing is I don't even know who you are.

When we accept tough jobs as a challenge to our ability and wade into them with joy and enthusiasm, miracles can happen.

im just gonna say straight whatever in my mind, ok?

i enjoyed our time together, exchanging letters & sex is so good, but there's gotto be more than sex. i dont know about u a lot and i for sure dont know how you feel coz we dont actually talk about them, i remember last time when we chat online we talk even more back then, now we just dont anymore. one thing is i know myself good enough and what i also know is i want to get to know you better and see how this goes in order to confirm there is a feeling we have for each other then for us to explore if there is a possibility for us to be together or to see if we are the someone right for each other, because if we dont know that first, nothing else really matters.

im just not sure if you are also feeling the same or you might not feel the same or you think we are actually already doing something about it, just maybe i dont feel so. i dont want to presume and put pressure to anything, maybe our definition and opinion on things are totally different, thats why i wanna find out.

what is your definition anyway, just to see each other once a week and most of the time when we meet we cant wait but jump on each other to have this amazing love making session, afterwards we might cuddle a little bit, then wash up, have a brief dinner and went on our separate ways. there's no text, no call, no communication thereafter to tell me how you are, to tell me how your day is, whats your plans are, etc. im too coward to make the move afraid that i might freak you out, scare you away as a clingy and sticky person.

i dont know what we are and where we are, ill always remember that first kiss in the sea of people, where i thought that could possibly lead to something, maybe i was wrong or maybe i never ask or maybe im not even the type of girl you like to begin with. i dont want to scare you away. i dont know what it means when you call me baby, sweetie or whatever kind of nick name that i thought people only call each other when they are together and in love, maybe you call everybody that.

for now i can tell you that i cant and i dont want to be another woman that you just sleep with, the emptiness i feel afterwards everytime i met you is very hard to bear.

i really dont know who you are but i know who i am, i miss you and i wanna to be with you. im just not sure what are we actually doing, do you? just be honest with me & share with me how u feel, im a big girl; i can take it. i just need to know the truth, even if this is all just for sex.



your sincerely,
me

Do not wait for leaders; do it alone, person to person.

how do you refrain yourself from something you enjoy so much?
that's why ive been so quiet i guess;
you cant say no to me remember?
that's what i like so much about you;
it's like we have this mutual agreement;
being with each other this way;
liking each other; pleasing each other;
the only problem is i never ask, never say;
i created this side of me that stays demand-less in front of you;
which gives me the feeling of unfairness that you didn't feel;
because to you if i want it i should ask for it;
but to me if we both want it we will give it to each other;
willingly;
no need asking;
no need begging;
no need forcing;
no sympathy;
nothing of that sort;
at least not from me.

True happiness is not attained through self-gratification, but through fidelity to a worthy purpose.

When u saw me by the window. U said the missing feelings was more than ten times.

Strive for excellence, not perfection.

The thing is. I really like u. But I don't know what u think. That what makes me really nervous.

A Shot at A Silver Lining

Dear Tiffany,

i know you wrote the letter;
the only way you could meet me crazy;
was by doing something crazy yourself;
thank you;
i love you;
i knew it the minute i met you;
im sorry it took so long for me to catch up;
i just got stuck;


Pat.

When nothing is sure, everything is possible.

最后就终于赴了那三个月前我们订下的约；
indochina式；
已经再也没有像往年一样为你特别的打扮；
你好忙好忙好忙；
我知道我们不会再一样；
我没有问我已经知道是为了什么；

我对你说了谎；
我并没有很喜欢那个地方；
我也情愿你对我撒谎；
像我对你一样。

There is only one corner of the universe you can be certain of improving, and that's your own self.

but i know not any other way to let you know how i feel;
this emptiness and loneliness that left with me everytime you walk out from that door;
like a burn on my skin;
leaving me permanent emotional scar;
i might be able to hide it after a terribly long time;
the fact remains;
i dont know what we are and where we are;
i just have to stop to be the one that gets hurt.

When you cannot get a compliment any other way pay yourself one.

I stop drinking that shitty stuff the other day
I had black coffee
There's this really nice after taste
I like it like how I like u.

Learning to ignore things is one of the great paths to inner peace.

you are going to be my birthday gift!

i take it literally for real and im thrilled!

Well-timed silence hath more eloquence than speech.

it was a really nice green lunch;
i was glad you like the place;
my unsure-ness vanished after i see you;
we touching each other how we have longed for so long;
you said things like how the nail polish suit me and how ravishing i was;
you wanted more;
more than just a few hours;
u said we are dating each other but im not sure what is the definition;
if playfully i guess yes;
nothing serious;
you said im a real handful;
i dont know what it means;
i thought im a simple girl;
maybe i am still finding myself;
i am who i am and i hope you like me anyway;
you said that im going to be this sexy, self assured, lovable woman;
im not sure what to say in return;
you wont say for sure what you can and cannot handle;
i just hope you will be able to cope with a stubborn, impatient, silly, unambitious introvert;
why does it matter anyway?
im just interested in interesting people and really really interesting to see where is all this going;
really i do.

I have never in my life learned anything from any man who agreed with me.

it's good to see you with all the dramas;
i wont have it any other way;

and you should know too, me like u lots, despite the emo bit; so we reconfirm sunday for lunch;
yes and yes. xxx

The mediocre teacher tells. The good teacher explains. The superior teacher demonstrates. The great teacher inspires.

its not about winning or losing;
but if i cross this line now means u win right?
thats like the cutest darn thing you ever said to me;
but no, it's not about winning or losing;
it's my feeling for you and you should know that;



i hate it when you explain things and you are right;
this is not about right and wrong;
not anymore;
so this is between you and me for the longest time;
you just easily put it in words;
to me its even simpler;
so this is not sex but this is not a relationship either;
there, you were speechless;
if i have a choice i rather have us some other way;
not like this;
not like this at all.

No problem is too small or too trivial if we can really do something about it.

You are the closest that make me feeling i'm in love for a long time.

Walking is man's best medicine.

i don't really miss him that much;
not as much as i thought it would be;
i stay the distance not close enough for him to hurt me;
after-all i am just missing the idea of being with someone.

Things won are done; joy's soul lies in the doing.

And I wonder am I just another woman u talk about that u sleep with when u talk about thing with another woman that u r sleeping with right now.

Do u miss me as me or do u just miss me for sex?

Man is happy only as he finds work worth doing -- and does it well.

i think i will miss you;
we spent a night together;
been thru something on the first day of new year;
make us feel a little bit closer;
you will be leaving;
traveling far in a while;
i think i will miss you;
something i should say but have no courage to;
but this is the new year, so i said it.


"i actually missed you last night"; he said, too.

02012013-12:58

feeling oddly fine after all that NY shebang;
started work for new year;
same work different feeling;
staff chatting; no enthusiasm;
staff left; great sense of relief;
ill do better; work harder;
message that came out of the blue;
someone i encounter with a mixture of experiences;
relationship status is in and out still;
not very complicated but also not very simple;
this point of time;
i promise myself;
do better; do more; do whatever that makes me happy;
that will be all.

Happy 2013!

happiness is the only good.
the time to be happy is now.
the place to be happy is here.
the way to be happy is to make other so.
--Robert Green Ingersoll

It is never too late to be what you might have been.

新年前夕；
和你们一起过；
人生爱情工作不同的际遇；
在聊着；
你把我弄哭了；
我是不想的但我真的已经没有办法了。

Storms make oaks take deeper root.

I used to do stupid things deliberately to make people dislike me.
It never worked.
Perhaps they never like me enough.
Or they just don't care.

Few people can distinguish the genuinely good from the reverse.

you were telling me;
you said maybe i used the wrong approach;
you said i can't stop trying;
you said i might have not done my best;
before it's all too late;
you just ask me to try harder;
harder;
but you don't actually know the whole story;
i never say;
it's ok;
i thank you anyway.

There is no mistaking a real book when one meets it. It is like falling in love.

The depressing romantic part of me wants to believe that she has gone to that place far far away and gotten the love she deserve.

afterthought of Sputnik Sweetheart - read 06012013

I’ve decided that the key to happiness is low expectations.

that night, i wanted you all over again...........

after we parted in the evening.

The secret of being boring is to say everything.

he said: you smell good and it makes me very very very happy.
i also told him a secret and i think he likes me a bit more too.

Criticism is prejudice made plausible.

i just want to whisper in your ear and tell you that, i want to be with you and have more than sex.