I have never in my life learned anything from any man who agreed with me.

it's good to see you with all the dramas;
i wont have it any other way;

and you should know too, me like u lots, despite the emo bit; so we reconfirm sunday for lunch;
yes and yes. xxx

The mediocre teacher tells. The good teacher explains. The superior teacher demonstrates. The great teacher inspires.

its not about winning or losing;
but if i cross this line now means u win right?
thats like the cutest darn thing you ever said to me;
but no, it's not about winning or losing;
it's my feeling for you and you should know that;



i hate it when you explain things and you are right;
this is not about right and wrong;
not anymore;
so this is between you and me for the longest time;
you just easily put it in words;
to me its even simpler;
so this is not sex but this is not a relationship either;
there, you were speechless;
if i have a choice i rather have us some other way;
not like this;
not like this at all.

No problem is too small or too trivial if we can really do something about it.

You are the closest that make me feeling i'm in love for a long time.

Walking is man's best medicine.

i don't really miss him that much;
not as much as i thought it would be;
i stay the distance not close enough for him to hurt me;
after-all i am just missing the idea of being with someone.

Things won are done; joy's soul lies in the doing.

And I wonder am I just another woman u talk about that u sleep with when u talk about thing with another woman that u r sleeping with right now.

Do u miss me as me or do u just miss me for sex?

Man is happy only as he finds work worth doing -- and does it well.

i think i will miss you;
we spent a night together;
been thru something on the first day of new year;
make us feel a little bit closer;
you will be leaving;
traveling far in a while;
i think i will miss you;
something i should say but have no courage to;
but this is the new year, so i said it.


"i actually missed you last night"; he said, too.

02012013-12:58

feeling oddly fine after all that NY shebang;
started work for new year;
same work different feeling;
staff chatting; no enthusiasm;
staff left; great sense of relief;
ill do better; work harder;
message that came out of the blue;
someone i encounter with a mixture of experiences;
relationship status is in and out still;
not very complicated but also not very simple;
this point of time;
i promise myself;
do better; do more; do whatever that makes me happy;
that will be all.

Happy 2013!

happiness is the only good.
the time to be happy is now.
the place to be happy is here.
the way to be happy is to make other so.
--Robert Green Ingersoll

It is never too late to be what you might have been.

新年前夕；
和你们一起过；
人生爱情工作不同的际遇；
在聊着；
你把我弄哭了；
我是不想的但我真的已经没有办法了。

Storms make oaks take deeper root.

I used to do stupid things deliberately to make people dislike me.
It never worked.
Perhaps they never like me enough.
Or they just don't care.

Few people can distinguish the genuinely good from the reverse.

you were telling me;
you said maybe i used the wrong approach;
you said i can't stop trying;
you said i might have not done my best;
before it's all too late;
you just ask me to try harder;
harder;
but you don't actually know the whole story;
i never say;
it's ok;
i thank you anyway.

There is no mistaking a real book when one meets it. It is like falling in love.

The depressing romantic part of me wants to believe that she has gone to that place far far away and gotten the love she deserve.

afterthought of Sputnik Sweetheart - read 06012013

I’ve decided that the key to happiness is low expectations.

that night, i wanted you all over again...........

after we parted in the evening.

The secret of being boring is to say everything.

he said: you smell good and it makes me very very very happy.
i also told him a secret and i think he likes me a bit more too.

Criticism is prejudice made plausible.

i just want to whisper in your ear and tell you that, i want to be with you and have more than sex.

Like....

The world stands aside to let anyone pass who knows where he is going.

there's a sudden urge to write you, just like how i used to write you before, mails that contained all my silly thoughts. i was young, naive and thought i was in love with you then. time moves things and changes people, including our feelings.

you were asking me how old i am last night and can you believe how time flies. i was 28 or 29 when i first met you, now im 34. i might not look like it but definitely feel like it.

i wont denied the feeling that i once felt for you which turning into a different form now that stays between us. i often wonder what it would be like if we really take that step and walk out from each other's life, not being friends. we'll probably be miserable for a while and then life goes on....anyway, we are way passed that point to turn back now after our numerous encounters.

clearly we both know well what have we gotten ourselves into, still i cant helped this emptiness that i feel everytime when i walk out from your front door. i repress my desire to express such feeling to you because im afraid to face the reaction that you could have and would have.

i always over think things, i still do.

you probably couldn't tell, i was extremely thrill and delighted when you asked me to tag along your plan, although i might act cool and casual at that time, so silly i know. all the conversations and the little arguments that we have had only drawing me closer to you somehow and makes me realize this precious relationship that we are having and for me wish to continue to have.

in my head i know there is this barrier between us that we are so scare of crossing, coz i know for a fact  that at times we are not being totally honest with each other. both being private, discreet and secretive as we are, or perhaps we just fear of losing if we reveal too much.

at the end of the day, even if i might sound too self protective and selfish, that is just because of one simple reason, which im pretty sure you know clearly as i am what the reason is.

so let's cut the crap and bullshit for you have to admit i am never and will never be your first priority anyway.

Even the best of friends need time apart.

你还记得我的生日你说。
会带我到一个很特别的地方。
又再提到了你忙还有那将会实行每三个月的计划。
真的是这样吗，还是你其实用这个方法来掩盖一些进行得不怎么顺利的计划。
你盛情地邀我同行。
但是我又何苦折磨我自己呢。
究竟再怎么说你都不是我的男人啊。

Ask yourself whether you are happy and you cease to be so.

and the moment that you kissed my lips you know i started to feel wonderful;

it feels amazing and damn incredible, i feel sex in your chemicals;

everything still linger on...............

the taste of your kiss;
the heat of your body;
the touch of your hand;
the sound of your voice;
the moist of your perspiration;
the gentleness of your licking;
the sensation of your blowing;
the turn on of your sucking;
the strength of your arms when you hold me;
the wetness on your finger when you touch me;
the sweetness that you taste when you kiss me;
the feeling of your legs wrapping around me;
the warmth i feel whenever you are so close to me;

you make me yearning for more..........

to hold you tight so that i know how you feeling;
to kiss you again so i remember what you taste like;
to tease you again and see how you react;
to touch your face again and feel every single details;
to run my finger over your neatly cut hair;
to move my hand real slow all over your body;
to bite and suck on your neck without leaving a mark;
to do everything you want me to do and more;
to just lie down together with you and hear your breathing;
to just look at you and want you to tell me what you thinking;
to nibble your ear and whisper sweet words to you softly:


"i know, i was with you last night but it feels like it's been so long;
it's good to see you again and i want to see you again, again and again......"

all this and we are  not even naked.

Be wise with speed . A fool at forty is a fool indeed.

And u were telling me how u used to like to travel alone and now less.
Not that u r in need of a company but more like u have the power to choose who u want to travel with.
Who u want to pick as ur company.
And how I wish I am not in ur itinerary because I know it's going to be a big mistake.

Even the great get greater by doing more of it.

I guess what u didnt know is that I'm afraid.
Afraid of when I turn around u will not be there.
The passionate moment seems to last and linger on and on.
Was it lust? Infatuation? or both?
I'm just too afraid to say or ask.
I'm holding u with all my might.
Fear that u will evaporate and disappear.
The warmth of your body and the moisture of ur lips keep making me wanting more asking more.
Your smile keep me holding on from falling apart.
Your kiss reassure me about everything more than anything else.
Your gentle touch makes me yearning for more.
My desire growing stronger by the second.
If only you can hear my discreet sentimental and sensible side.

The greatest of faults, I should say, is to be conscious of none.

i need you when i need you;
i cant help it;
or else i wont be needing you;

he said that;

and it hurts.

The fragrance always remains in the hand that gives the rose.

i really would love to be with you this afternoon, i was hoping you'd feel the same....

Underpromise; overdeliver.

so whats next?

Let's meet more, spend more time together. Get to know each other better.

That;

i like;

very much.

You must not come lightly to the blank page.

so u envision and anticipate u and me;

i was so into you and i wasnt afraid;

ive fell deeper than i shouldve been;

i really dont care anymore;

i want us to happen bad;

really really bad.

If you look at life one way, there is always cause for alarm.

We playing a game.

Using each other.

Sex is the tool.

Learn to get in touch with the silence within yourself and know that everything in this life has a purpose.

what am i gonna do with you, i asked.

i stop asking that question a long time ago.

Write down the advice of him who loves you, though you like it not at present.

And I've alwaz been on the wrong side of the fence.

Whether you believe you can do a thing or not, you are right.

i really hate you;
no i really do;

but you know the part i love the most;
its that i know you are doing it for me.

What was hard to bear is sweet to remember.

好快又两个月了；
但我还是觉得你并没有对那段感情很重视；
我们有开始聊着；
你将要开启一段事业；
一段可有可无的事业；
依然再造低音吉他；
很多很多的这些；
让你能无忧的事轻易就能和她在一起的事；
其实是你不愿还是你不能；
我不明白；
你说你梦见我；
我没有迷惑；
我只是想对你说:
you are the confused one because you dont even  know what you want.

世界虽大，转角有爱啊！

Treat people as if they were what they ought to be and you will help them become what they are capable of becoming.

it rain like shit that day; u insisted to meet at our usual cafe; i saw two empty coffee mug when i arrived; i wasn't late; u smoking and look nervous..........it started.
can i tell you something that would potentially freak you out;
oh wow surprise me;
no im serious;
yea tell me anyway;
r u ready?
ya but r u?
i dont want to play cool or anything i wanna tell you i like you and that i mean it and that i wanna start to see you more and spend time with you what do you say?
so now im suppose to freak out, right?


i love you too.




end.

Take time to laugh - it is the music of the soul.

I was suppose to be back now and sleep off my jet lag.

There's a fine line between genius and insanity. I have erased this line.

i dont know what we are and where we are, but ill always remember that first kiss of ours, where i thought that could lead to something. maybe i was wrong or maybe i just never ask, i dont want to scare you away. i dont know what it means when you call me baby, sweetie or whatever kind of nick name that i thought people only call each other when they are together and in love, im not sure if we are.

i can only tell you that i cant and i dont want to be another woman that you just sleep with.

im sorry.

We are what we pretend to be, so we must be careful what we pretend to be.

then i realise;
that could possibly be the best 2 weeks of my entire life;
i wasn't regret the fact that i missed that trip;
i was happier;
i spent that 2 weeks with the someone i care the most about;
learn to enjoy certain things;
let go of certain things;
learn to listen;
learn to love;
most importantly be happy with my life.

Blessed is he who expects nothing, for he shall never be disappointed.

I guess I just don't wanna be one of those women u slept with. I thought about it and I decided that's not what I want. Not anymore.

I'm sorry.

A smooth sea never made a skilled mariner.

If I'm the one to stop it all then it will eliminate the possibility of me getting hurt. So it still should be me and in the end I can say its not my fault.

Look for the ridiculous in everything and you will find it.

That's when u realize the more u grow old the more u miss those few friends of yours.

It is a fine thing to have ability, but the ability to discover ability in others is the true test.

I hate u leave me hanging

You are not superior just because you see the world in an odious light.

The truth is we really don't actually owe each other anything.

I admit.

When you cannot make up your mind which of two evenly balanced courses of action you should take - choose the bolder

三十四岁的人生，没有受过重创和承受过什么不能接受的打击，就是生活平淡了点，但毕竟是幸福和快乐的，我这样想着。
三十四岁的人生。

Most people rust out due to lack of challenge. Few people rust out due to overuse.

到最后已经忘记了到底是谁不愿放手。

There is always a well-known solution to every human problem--neat, plausible, and wrong.

I think about how there are certain people who come into your life and leave a mark. The ones who are as much a part of you as your own soul. Their place in your heart is tender; a bruise of longing, a pulse of unfinished business. Just hearing their names pushes and pulls at you in a hundred ways, and when you try to define those hundred ways, describe them even to yourself, words are useless. If you had a lifetime to talk, there would still be things left unsaid.
            -- Sara Zarr, Sweehearts, 2008

You either have the feeling or you don't.

you had me that day when you touching my hand gently.

The reward of one duty is the power to fulfill another.

Sorry. No hard feeling. Ok?
什么时候你开始介意了，我们什么也没有承诺过，我没有说过要等你回来，你不能埋怨我，你没有资格。

People ask for criticism, but they only want praise.

和其他人做什么都没有一回事；
而和你就是那么一回事；
我和你的一回事。

I couldn't be more proud of you than if you were the first man on the moon.

maybe they will get divorced and all kind of shit; but fucking who cares? why does it bother you so much? why does it bother you that maybe two people fucking love each other and they want to get married and they want a relationship and they just want to be happy.

it's like you want everybody to think independently but you want everyone to fucking agree with you; why cant you understand that some people just want to be happy.

are you happy? are you?

im fine, im absolutely just fine.

If you're never scared or embarrassed or hurt, it means you never take any chances.

we sat by the bar; ordered our drinks; 2 beers; i was people looking; checking out people around the bar; you were looking at me; smiling; your hair all tie up tonight that looks nice; i wish i give you the urge to kiss me on my neck and whisper in my ear something sweet and sexy; im still afraid; scare of losing this fight; most of all scare of losing you; but the reason why i never allow you to do that was because i was writing about you, im sure you know that, right?

We have, I fear, confused power with greatness.

不是说好不在意了吗；不是已经说好了吗？他连这是不是爱都说不上来；什么才会令他有感觉呢？就凭着一次的触摸一个那么轻的吻；可是之后他也没有很在意啊；没有来电、短讯、说话；那代表什么了呢？

到最后；
什么都不是。

The manner in which it is given is worth more than the gift.

what if everything is just a delusion? illusion?
you were late for 22 minutes;
i sat by the bar in black waiting;
a guy almost took your seat;
you;me;ourlife;longdistancerelationship;love;affair;travel;parking;work;food;interest;randomlychatting;touching;kissing;
that was the kind of impression we've made within the first 15min;
it lasted;
3 beers;
i like you;
you were touching my hand so softly;
look at me you said and you are very pretty;
still shy as i am;
what if everything is just a delusion? illusion?