Wednesday, September 22, 2010

You try to give away what you want yourself.


you dont even have to say it;
i asked a stupid question;
u told me the truth;
nothing but the truth;
the answer was different than the other;
you know me well and i trust you;
i can only trust you.

Monday, September 20, 2010

Thursday, September 16, 2010

Drive thy business or it will drive thee


是你的都还给你;
我要做回我自己;
就这样一个拥抱;
然后就结束了。

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

The aim of life is self-development. To realize one's nature perfectly - that is what each of us is here for


你为了那件事抱歉;为什么呢;must be something or someone important; who am i?我还是会原谅你的;都老朋友一场了;但有时候真的不是一句对不起就足够的。

I don't necessarily agree with everything I say


八点多;还是陪了你喝酒;之前还有事呢;还是匆匆忙忙地赶上了;不顾一切地;但是一通电话;不好意思今晚不能陪你了;你没有说是谁;我猜是她;我猜。

Monday, September 13, 2010

Mistakes are the portals of discovery



分手的一剎或者很不好過 苦痛到我要生要死
曾話過要去懷著怨氣
這一世也要決心憎你
但我知花必須要謝
春天必須變夏天
我也有天心死
披風雪亦要繼續前行

毛毛細雨 萬象更新
一概清洗心中的怨恨
人是會轉季節會變更
承受過冷與折磨過的枯枝春季後亦可再生

@也許不應該憎恨人 好應該感動人 失戀都這樣勇敢
既是成年人無謂再拿謠言誣衊你 事後便罪加一等
再經過短短的春夏和秋冬來忘掉你現在活得多開心
跟你渡過 這麼多年
都算是朋友 何用變做仇人

舊事算數 大道康莊
跟你握握手冰釋怨恨
離別了你我至會瞭解
其實我也會有力氣抵擋冬天最寒冷的氣溫

隨著季節變化 開始想不起了你的眼神
來讓你也讚嘆 我也會劫後重生

一個目送 夏去秋來
等我用時間 忘掉這舊情人

The right word may be effective, but no word was ever as effective as a rightly timed pause

Walk in the rain, jump in mud puddles, collect rocks, rainbows and roses, smell flowers, blow bubbles, stop along the way, build sandcastles, say hello to everyone, go barefoot, go on adventures, act silly, fly kites, have a merry heart, talk with animals, sing in the shower, read childrens' books, take bubble baths, get new sneakers, hold hands and hug and kiss, dance, laugh and cry for the health of it, wonder and wander around, feel happy and precious and innocent, feel scared, feel sad, feel mad, give up worry and guilt and shame, say yes, say no, say the magic words, ask lots of questions, ride bicycles, draw and paint, see things differently, fall down and get up again, look at the sky, watch the sun rise and sun set, watch clouds and name their shapes, watch the moon and stars come out, trust the universe, stay up late, climb trees, daydream, do nothing and do it very well, learn new stuff, be excited about everything, be a clown, enjoy having a body, listen to music, find out how things work, make up new rules, tell stories, save the world, make friends with the other kids on the block, and do anything else that brings more happiness, celebration, health, love, joy, creativity, pleasure, abundance, grace, self-esteem, courage, balance, spontaneity, passion, beauty, peace, relaxation, communication and life energy to...all living beings on this planet.
- Bruce Williamson, "It's Never Too Late To Have A Happy Childhood", 1987

Saturday, September 11, 2010

All people want is someone to listen


她是一个很年轻的女孩;
很有个性;
我很喜欢她;
我们之间没有承诺过什么;
我一把年纪再也清楚不过;
我要的是什么,不要的是什么;
那是我想太多一厢情愿的;
而且我自己又是什么了呢;
不要再辜负自己了;
让自己更快乐;
好好的。

Thursday, September 9, 2010

Have you ever observed that we pay much more attention to a wise passage when it is quoted than when we read it in the original author?



My life has no purpose, no direction, no aim, no meaning, and yet I'm happy. I can't figure it out. What am I doing right?
-- Charles M. Schulz

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

It's going to come true like you knew it, but it's not going to feel like you think


so all pack for hometown;
yep;
you alwaz so orginize and discipline;
no, im not;
yes, you are, a lot of indications;
im not too much, just mildly discipline and mildly organize, im not extreme;
so how r u? any new gf?
yea, there's someone;
如果今晚没有见他;
就不会知道原来我还是在乎;
原来他已经有了一段新感情;
自己又算是什么呢?
自己骗自己是一段所谓的特别关系;
真的是如此吗?
到底自己想怎样;
他说已经不想要再了;
就这样吧;
enjoying the company;
whoever it is.

Monday, September 6, 2010

Make your own recovery the first priority in your life




















walking into the atm;
the cafe playing Maroon 5 "this love";
was in such a good mood;
then i remember;
way back when we were together;
at a cafe; a corner; me and you; kissing;
with the same song;
same old song.

Sunday, September 5, 2010

You may be deceived if you trust too much, but you will live in torment if you do not trust enough


其实有一点点庆幸没有和你有很多美好的回忆;
这样自己就能给借口自己不用太伤心了;
而且在最后的最后认真想想;
我和你是根本和不来的;
4个多月;分分合合;现在终于放开了;
真释怀。

Friday, September 3, 2010

Tact is the knack of making a point without making an enemy.


i made the same mistake twice;
i was wrong;
getting the stuff doesn't mean settling down;
not mutually;
at least;
tough shit!


Thursday, September 2, 2010

If you do not tell the truth about yourself you cannot tell it about other people


midnight;
dim light;
something never change;
i know i shouldn't have, but i cant help it when i see you;
im not even trying;
to king of convenience.

Monday, August 30, 2010

What saves a man is to take a step. Then another step. It is always the same step, but you have to take it.


i am the kind of person;
that gets so afraid;
after a break up;
i straight away delete the number;
just to avoid myself getting emotional;
i am like that.

How wonderful it is that nobody need wait a single moment before starting to improve the world.
-- Anne Frank, Diary of a Young Girl, 1952

If you wish me to weep, you must mourn first yourself.
-- Horace

Happiness comes of the capacity to feel deeply, to enjoy simply, to think freely, to risk life, to be needed.
-- Storm Jameson


just surprise;
mere surprise;
he knew something was up;
it's not always easy, he said;
i kinda feel it's got something to do with that;
and i thought he didnt know me;
dont know what is right and what is wrong.

The real art of conversation is not only to say the right thing at the right place but to leave unsaid the wrong thing at the tempting moment


what if im just being mean;
what if this is a test;
you failed it;
coz you have not enough patience to get thru that few text messages;
and thats the end of it;
i confirm.

It is easier to live through someone else than to become complete yourself


like you;
i am hurt;
and sad;
but like you;
i will be fine after;
things will be all fine;
after;
because we just dont have the patient, time and calmness to face it all;
i know it;
and for sure you know it too;
it will not be fine;
just because we say we want it to be fine;
we must also do;
but we actually dont.

Saturday, August 28, 2010

Give all to love; obey thy heart


this time is really over;
when i walk out that door;
there's no turning back;
all i wanted;
when i was there;
it's just someone to hold me;
tell me dont cry;
that everything will be alright;
alright.

Friday, August 27, 2010

Truth is more of a stranger than fiction


last words..........from someone:

i never moved on fully from you;
i see the deliberate attempt on making me realize what stage of life we are in;
i thought you will never be happy with me. each time we met, somehow you went away unhappy;
you are an enigma to me. a desirable, sometimes a confused, enigma;
i couldn't resign it to fate;
i liked you more than any other in the last 2 years;
i dont want to leave without you knowing how i felt about you;
must be a lucky guy.

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

Patience is passion tamed


i was just fine without you;
remember?
i will still be;
it's not as hard as one would imagined it must be;
and i really thought that once;
you were the one;
and i was ready to do whatever it takes.

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

Monday, August 23, 2010

Perhaps too much of everything is as bad as too little


maybe it's the way you ask a question;
maybe it's the way that you talk that makes me think that you do not trust me;
maybe it's the way i take a question;
and i am defensive;
and i am who i am;
and what if i cannot change this;
and you are right;
and you are old;
and you do not have a lot of times;
and i am not the one;
and it makes me wonder how come i am the one;
and when you say that you love me that is just not enough;
and i try to change;
and i can be silent and quiet and always say yes;
but i will not be the person that i am anymore;
anymore.

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

Difficulties are meant to rouse, not discourage. The human spirit is to grow strong by conflict


me and him argue;
he told me all my good points;
and then bad ones;
i have to accept this is who i am;
i never belittle people;
im just afraid people see thru me;
my weaknesses;
im never too big headed to admit im wrong;
but his theory makes me doubt myself;
what ive been believing all along;
i guess it's time to just be blessed that im here;
someone who loves me;
argue with me;
and willing to stay here with me;
im just grateful;
that's it.

Monday, August 16, 2010

The smallest good deed is better than the grandest good intention.


just admit you are wrong;
just admit you did it;
just admit that you are clumsy as hell;
and then move the fuck on!

Sunday, August 15, 2010

To be mature means to face, and not evade, every fresh crisis that comes


the truth is;
i find out;
that im invading your space;
that you feel suffocate;
and that you alwaz said up to you;
and that im not treating you as a pet;
funny how i feel the same;
i feel less like a pet;
dont know how i feel;
i dont feel im needed,
i guess.


Saturday, August 14, 2010

The least I can do is speak out for those who cannot speak for themselves


i thought you can save me from this;
bring me up;
make me strong;
instead;
you make me think;
and doubt things more than ever;
maybe you're the one need to be saved;
and u thought i could be your saviour.

Friday, August 13, 2010

Creativity is inventing, experimenting, growing, taking risks, breaking rules, making mistakes, and having fun


it's up to you;
if you want to;

what do you mean by that?

can't it be up to you?
so if i dont want to you also dont want to?

do you feel one sided in this relationship?
do you think you are the only one trying to make it work?
do you have the loving feeling;
or just forcefully think you are in love?

all i want is just to be needed;
to feel im needed;
i guess we're both 2 strong headed people;
in a way argue, or like you said defending your own point of view;
but where are we heading to;
isolation and ignorant;
because we both think we can handle it;
and eventually thinking about each other less;

i want someone to make decision for me;
tell me what to do;
sort me out and take my shit;
instead what we do is being polite to each other;
refraining each other from talking about things to avoid upsetting each other;

and you take my one time fault as forever;
and your warning provoke me to do more the things you hate;

i know what you would say;
you dont care what i think;
i guess at the end of the day;
at least i am;
just another selfish bastard.

Thursday, August 12, 2010

In the field of observation, chance favors only the prepared mind


you staring;
no, just looking;

im afraid to face myself;
to tell you the truth that i can stare at you for hours;
but i know you hate it;
so instead;
i look;

i should just be tender, gentle and loving;
i should just give you some blanket for a warm cover;
instead i leave it;
coz i thought you might be feeling too warm to be wrapped up in it;

i want to hold you close;
with my arms;
but im wearing my jeans;
and you are on the bed;

so i see you tonight?
i nod;
continuously;
im here for you to approve my presence;
i want to be here when you want me to be here;

i just want to love you;
love you;
and love you.....

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

There is no duty we so much underrate as the duty of being happy


She's all laid up in bed with a broken heart
While i'm drinking jack all alone in my local bar
And we don't know how we got into this mad situation
Only doing things out of frustration

Trying to make it work but man these times are hard
She needs me now but I can't seem to find a time
I've git a new job now in the unemployment-line
And we don't know we got into this mess it's a gods test
Someone hulp us cause we're doing our best

Trying to make it work but man these times are hard
But we're gunna start by drinking old cheap bottles of wine
Sit talking up all night
Saying things we haven't for a while, a while yeah
We're smiling but we're close to tears
Even after all these years
We just now got the feeling that we're meeting
For the first time

She's in line at the door with her head held high
While I just lost my job but didn't lose my flight
But we both know how we're gonna make it work when it hurts
When you pick yourself up you get kicked in the dirt

Trying to make it work but man these times are hard
But we're gunna start by drinking old cheap bottles of wine
Saying things we haven't for a while, a while yeah
We're smiling but we're close to tears

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

Be kind whenever possible. It is always possible


"i dont like her, she's very arrogant";
他说;
那天晚餐过后;她慢慢地走过来;
地点是他先生的意大利餐厅;
在这之前听过他说她的不是;
坐下后她以蛮流利的英语和我们聊了起来;
对着他所说的所问的都显得咄咄逼人;
像是她自以为是似的;
他觉得我偏帮她;
我没有;
和她用广东话聊了个半句钟;
可能是母语的关系;
而且一听口音我立刻猜到她是外来人;
她并没有想象的坚强;
表面如此;
但原来她失去双亲;
患有焦虑症;
害怕很多;
人在外国没有很多朋友;
但是却有计划;
不像我;
走一步算一步;
她却羡慕;
和她应该可以成为朋友;
我是这样想着;
人真的是要留余地;
be kind whenever possible, it is always possible.

Monday, August 9, 2010

We can learn nothing except by going from the known to the unknown.


it's always about you;
NO, it's not about me;
i always think of you;
that you do not understand;
i think of you;
it's my fault;
and i cry;
im so uncreative about love;
when it comes to wrong and hurting;
i just stop;
instead i should just kiss you, hold you, say i love you and make out;
in the bed room.

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

Real love is a permanently self-enlarging experience.


all i want to do every night;
after work;
it's just to have you beside me;
even without talking;
to spend some time with me;
quietly;
and all we do its argue;
to you, you are defending your point;
rich, poor, what does it matter;
and u dislike the fact that im talking behind people back;
and u dislike the idea that i fight for food with the poor;
you havent the slightest idea what is on my mind;
maybe your friend doesnt need you to pity them;
by being a rich guy;
pays the bill everytime;
i understand you good will;
but i disagree with your point of view;
i cried again;
why is it so hard;
this is never the way i thought it would be;
be patient;
i tell myself;
one day i hope you will understand;
one day.

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

Friday, July 16, 2010

A certain amount of opposition is a great help to a man. Kites rise against, not with, the wind


Your horoscope for July 16, 2010
A project that you've been pursuing for some time could finally manifest, and might bring about a positive change in your financial situation, YP. It could also wake you up to the fact that you have the power to advance yourself in any way that you can, and that it is possible to exercise that power without invading anyone else's space. This could represent a major breakthrough for you, YP, which is likely to make a big difference in your life.

Thursday, July 15, 2010

It is hard to believe that a man is telling the truth when you know that you would lie if you were in his place


再见你已经没有了当初的悸动。

Your horoscope for July 15, 2010
You have many talents, YP, very few of which you give yourself credit for. You are so busy feeling guilty over all that you're not doing that you don't acknowledge all that you are doing. It's the classic "superwoman" problem. You may be worried that you're working too hard and your family is suffering as a result. Why not ask them? If they say that they're happy, believe them. If they say the opposite, then take corrective measures. It's as simple as that.

Wednesday, July 7, 2010

Nothing is easy to the unwilling.


and im not trying to argue.....just afraid that u might be disappointed by my illogical, in the long run, u dislike me for it..

Tuesday, July 6, 2010

Live in the sunshine, swim the sea, drink the wild air…

part 6
letting go is the last thing i want to do, but imagine, if i am out of your life, things will go back to the way it is and you don't have to bear with me any longer, you have your life and i will have mine. im willing to let go if your life will be happier that way, coz to love someone is to see someone happy and being with me don't seem to make you happy, then i rather to be out of your life, even though i will be sad to let u go.

Monday, July 5, 2010

If I had to live my life again, I'd make the same mistakes, only sooner


part 5
there's this "you dont trust me" feeling, which i think we haven't really establish our trust, u say i say one thing and mean another, and i say one thing want it to mean that thing but i often fail to translate my thought with the right words.
i remember way back when we first met and then now, i dunno what went wrong, or we just dont belong to each other, coz i seem to be a burden to you and you will be better off without me.

Friday, July 2, 2010

Shared joy is a double joy; shared sorrow is half sorrow


part 4
when i say u r a difficult person and i can cope with that, it's the same with me, im such a childish, difficult, immature and silly person and u r still with me, wht makes u do that?

Thursday, July 1, 2010

The only way of finding the limits of the possible is by going beyond them into the impossible


part 3
yes, i think too much, i think too much and i think too much, but how can i not think when all these things we been thru, all these things that happened to us before that i just will automatically remind myself it mustnt repeat so that you will not get upset, then i become this extra careful person in a relationship. i dont feel like i belong, i alwaz feel like this outside person invading your house, your home, invading your life, invading you to have this relationship, everything i do and say just seem wrong. sometimes u correct me, sometimes it makes sense, but sometimes when it doesnt, i want to speak up and you always have your own set of reasons for each, and then i realise i should just stop to speak up altogether, coz all the things i said u would have something to say back anyway. coz its not like i to talk much, so once i get the chance, i tried but it didnt work out anyway everytime i try to speak.